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How to Handle the Birthday Blues

Updated on March 24, 2017
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Jennifer is a school psychologist working with children from kindergarten to high school. She enjoys hiking, backpacking, and yoga.

It's My Birthday, and I'll Cry if I Want To!

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It's Your Birthday... but You Feel Like Crying

Everyone knows what birthdays are supposed to look like, right?

Maybe something like this: Having a good time with a bunch of friends, or a romantic dinner with someone special. Feeling secure and happy that your life is on track and you're right where you're supposed to be. Relishing in how young, vibrant, and beautiful you feel!

If that's what it's supposed to look like... then why is it that when my birthday rolls around I find myself lying in bed all day with the covers over my head and my phone turned off? Or spending the day crying into my pillow? Or drowning my blues in multiple bowls of ice cream?

Sound familiar to you?

You many not even understand why birthdays seem to make you want to curl up in a ball and toss obscenities at the world.

There's one big, nasty word that has everything to do with why birthdays end up being exactly the opposite of what we think they should be: expectations.

Sometimes, perhaps even most of the time, our expectations aren't met. This can lead to feelings of disappointment, frustration, and sadness.

Read on to learn more about how this all works—and how to turn things around so you can have an enjoyable birthday this year!

That Nasty Word: Expectations

There are two kinds of expectations that can cause even the best of us to hole up in our barricaded bedroom eating birthday cake in the dark (come on, don't tell me I'm the only one).

Expectations about:

  1. Where we are in our lives, and what we think our lives should look like at this point.
  2. How we'd like the birthday celebration itself to to unfold.

All too often, birthdays become a reminder of all the things we haven't accomplished, all the ways we are behind our peers, or all the things we are lacking. Birthdays represent a milestone marker for all the expectations we have.

When my best friend turned 30, she was devastated. She cried for days. She had always thought that by the time she turned 30, she would be married with kids, living in her own home, complete with a garden and chickens in the back. Instead, when 30 rolled around, she was single, with no current prospects, and renting a room in a house with two other women. She mourned that picture-perfect life that she didn't have.

As for me, for the past decade I've been deluding myself into thinking that I'm still 21. I feel young and in my mind; 30-somethings are so old! (Apologies to those of you who are in your 30s or older. You are not old.) So when those birthdays come around, reminding me that I am a 30-something, I feel the loss of all that time with little to show for it. Where did a decade go?

Of course, as we age, it seems that there should be changes in terms of how we feel or where we are in our lives. I should finally be confident and disciplined, I tell myself. Instead, the illusion of continuity makes it seem as though I am the same person that I was back when I was 21. The growth is so gradual that sometimes it's easy to feel as if it has never happened. That's not true, of course—a lot of growth has happened. Don't let social media, society, and other influences dictate what your life "should" be like.

Remember, always live in the present, and know that probably everyone in the world experiences these feelings, at least sometimes. We all ruminate over unmet expectations. Focus on the positives, on all the things that you have accomplished, and on all the things that do make you happy.

Read on for more tips to help with your expectations on or around your birthday, or just in general.

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Birthday Week

When I was growing up, my family always celebrated "birthday week." Not a day, and not just a birthday dinner—a whole week! When it's your birthday week, no one better be asking you to do the dishes. Dinner is always your choice. You get taken out to eat for your birthday at least one day, and you get your favorite homemade meal another day. You get the restaurant birthday cake and the homemade birthday cake. You get a party with friends, a party with family, and if you have a significant other, you get a romantic birthday celebration as well. Presents trickle in throughout the week, and there are always plenty of additional surprises.

As I got older, birthday week started to fizzle out and turned into just one day. However, the expectation that birthdays should be a week of wonderfulness was still there. So after having to do the dishes on my birthday (can you imagine?!), and then marking the day with just dinner and a small gift, I felt neglected and unloved.

As a child, it's so easy to feel that birthdays and holidays are magical, but carrying those expectations into adulthood often leads to post-celebration blues. We focus so much on what things should be that we can't enjoy what is. A birthday dinner can be an absolutely lovely event, but if we use birthday week or any other expectation as a comparison, we ruin what could have been a great time.

8 Ways to Tackle Birthday Blues

So what's a person in birthday-blues recovery to do? Here are some ways to tackle or prevent the birthday blues:

1. Lower Your Expectations.

Easier said than done, but try to lower your expectations. Don't expect anyone to do anything for you. Or expect that your birthday party will be a flop. This way, anything good that happens will be an unexpected and pleasant surprise!

2. Keep Busy.

Don't wait around for someone else to do something for your birthday. Sitting around the house just gives you an opportunity to mull over the passage of time and be sad. You know what you'd like to do on your birthday, so schedule it! Get a birthday massage. Go on a birthday shopping spree. Go to the movies and watch whatever you want.

3. Remember All That You Have Accomplished.

It's easy to gloss over everything that you have accomplished and end up feeling like time has passed with nothing to show for it. Try to focus on the positives because, remember, you are a rock star! So prove it to yourself. Go through old pictures of good times (warning: some people may become more depressed doing this, you know who you are), make a list of accomplishments, or even get a friend to remind you of your victories.

I have a friend who lists all her major "wins" from the previous year on her birthday. Sometimes they are things that are only meaningful to her—like getting into the habit of flossing. Other times, they are big life events—like running a marathon.

Spending time thinking about what you have done will keep you from thinking about all the things you haven't yet accomplished or that you think you should have accomplished. You've already accomplished a lot. Focus on that. Be proud.

4. Don't Wait for Someone Else to Make You Happy.

Every year, for as long as I can remember, my mom has bought herself flowers for her birthday. She had always been disappointed when my dad didn't. So one year she bought flowers for herself, and she's been doing it ever since. She stopped waiting for someone else to make her happy. (They're still happily married, by the way.)

Remember, no one can read your mind, and no one is perfect. If you're waiting for someone else to make things special, you'll be disappointed. If there's something that will make you happy, then make it happen yourself!

5. Make a Plan to Make This Year Special.

One of my coworkers told me that on her 50th birthday, she was afraid she would be depressed. So, she decided to make it an "adventure year." That year, she made it her goal to write 50 letters letting people know how much she loved them, try 50 new restaurants, vacation just 50 miles from her home, and complete 50 random acts of kindness. Try something like this for yourself!

6. Let Your Friends Know.

While there are many who don't want any attention on their birthday, there are others who make it a point to mention it or who would like to be lavished with attention. If you're one of those people, don't be embarrassed to make a point of mentioning your birthday to friends and family.

You can be coy about it, too: "So I think I might schedule a massage for my birthday next week." That's all it takes. I've even seen my more blunt friends post on Facebook that they'll be having a birthday next week, as well. Go for it!

7. Know It's Okay to Mourn.

Sometimes, we just need some time to be sad about what isn't, and what might not be. That's okay. You deserve that process and will feel better afterwards. Let yourself cry about the house that you don't own, the corporate position you haven't landed yet, and the significant other you may not have found yet. Then, get over it. You've got life ahead of you to live—don't waste more time than you need to in worrying about what isn't.

8. Learn From It.

You may want to punch me in the face for saying so, but know that pain is there to teach you something. Maybe your birthday makes you feel lonely—that's true for many of us. However, you can also use that feeling to help motivate you to make an effort to get out more and meet people.

Perhaps you feel sad that you haven't accomplished as much as you feel you should. This might be a sign you need to be easier on yourself or give yourself more credit than you do.

Ask yourself, "How can I be better because of this moment?" instead of letting yourself sink into a dark hole of inactivity and depression. Also, find ways to be more compassionate and loving to yourself. Self-care is crucial, and you deserve it—especially on your birthday.

Final Thoughts

Remember, it's normal to feel sad on your birthday. This isn't a sign that you're a failure or unloved. Think of someone you love and admire—it's likely they've felt some birthday sadness at one time or another, too.

If you could tell that person something in that moment of sadness, what would you say?

Now, tell yourself those same words.

Happy birthday! You're a rock star!

You're a Rock Star!

The ROCK STAR birthday girl!
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      3 years ago

      Thanks for the smart and uplifting thoughts :).

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      JenBarn 3 years ago

      Thank you for the compliment!

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      Robert 3 years ago

      I needed to read this, as today is my birthday and I felt down all day. Thank you for sharing!

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      JenBarn 3 years ago

      I'm glad it helped. You are very welcome!

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      Jonesie 3 years ago

      Today is my birthday, and although this didn't make me feel any better about being a year older and not having anything to show for it....... but at least I'm not alone.........

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      JenBarn 3 years ago

      You're definitely in good company, Jonesie!

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      Singe In Atlanta 3 years ago

      That time of year again (birthday tomorrow) where I start to google,"Why Do I Get Sad On My Birthday".....lol. Great post. Really made me feel not alone and willing to change my attitude toward my birthdays. =)

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      Aminah 3 years ago

      This helped me feel a lot better about feeling depressed on my b'day. Mine is tomorrow, and I feel like crap about my life, I feel like things should be more together than they are. I'm turning 22, (On Oct 22, go figure), and I feel like I should be enjoying these years of my life. But then again, I've been feeling this way consistently since 18. Good to know I'm not alone.

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      Dianne 3 years ago

      Special and thought provoking post.. Loved the part about your mum x

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      Matt 3 years ago

      Doesn't work. When you think that it is nothing you can accomplish or it nothing that you've done til now to make you live the years....why bother..you get married, have a kid...so what...you'll only worry, nothing interesting happens...by the way I'm only 27 and I feel that it just doesn't matter to me anymore

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      Ben 3 years ago

      It's my 18th birthday tomorrow. Just the thought that there's an article about birthday depression makes me feel better. Thanks!

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      Annie 3 years ago

      I thought it was just me! Glad to know I'm not alone!

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      Nina 3 years ago

      Thank you! I feel better after reading this!

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      3 years ago

      Great read!

      Thanks for sharing.

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      Nicki 3 years ago

      Beautiful and motivating blog. Great way to empower people to create their own kind of happiness. Thank you. :).

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      Wes 3 years ago

      Thank you for this. My birthday is today, and I really needed something to make sense of how I'm feeling. Birthdays were never terribly special growing up; I share a birthday with my dad, and he often had to work late hours on our birthday. My wife has been bending over backwards trying to make today a good day, and I've been feeling bad that I'm not enjoying it more. I hope this was the kick in the pants I needed to get over it, actually work toward achieving my goals, and try to be happy today. Again, thank you.

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      Julia 3 years ago

      Thank you for sharing! Today is my birthday and I'm glad to know that I'm not alone. The age indeed functions as a reminder for all the things we haven't accomplished in life according to our own expectations.

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      shafiq 3 years ago

      Its my birthday today...44.

      Always felt depressed..alone..not enough money..make myself blue and don't do wonders to wife or kids...appreciate the advice...and the vote bit..wow 70 per cent down. Im a 70s child and yes life catches up very quick...like to say don't be depressed but im one of the guys who are well behind my peers..council place..no perm work..money short. This is a good piece and helped me a lot....hats off.

      To others whose bday today or gone or coming.

      Love yourself cos only you can like you should and if not a happy birthday then at least have a chilled out relaxing bday.

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      Brandy 3 years ago

      It is my birthday today. Ive been feeling like crying all day. Birthdays were so big when i was younger. I live with my dad and he didn't tell me happy birthday, he posted it on my fb wall. Nobody else in the house even remembered. I made sure i did everything in my power to make sure they all had a awesome bday. I just feel so let down. :(

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      estelle 3 years ago

      31 today, put on a happy face, but cried into my duvet at home! Humans! What am I doing? Tomorrow, I will have a better day! Thank you for the article :)

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      Kayeflo 3 years ago

      Absolutely love this! Its not always about the cake and the party (although they're nice)...but appreciating the accomplishments thus far, taking stock and working towards a brighter future. Thanks for sharing :-)

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      Laura 3 years ago

      Thanks for this article : ) Turned 22 today and it seems to have been the worst so far..and I don't even exactly know why? Trying to pretend to be happy when people wish you happy birthday but you're just dying inside.. But it is reassuring to hear that I'm not the only one feeling the blues and I am hoping to have a better day tomorrow and think about the achievements that I often undermine :)

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      NS 3 years ago

      Thanks for this. I didn't understand why I was feeling so sad this year (26) - and did my best to combat it yesterday (my actual birthday). I was happy and had a great day at work. I started to feel it when I didn't go home right away, but ate a snack and went on a power walk after work and went to bed happy (or, rather, fell asleep before ten accidentally happy.) Then I woke up this morning in tears and feeling more depressed than I have in a long time.

      At first I thought it was because I hadn't heard from two old good friends (birthdays are usually the one time of year we get to talk to each other, aside from text and messenger), and that may have been part of it. However, after reading this, I think it's because I woke up this morning realizing that I'm 26, haven't had a date in two years, am nowhere close to having a family, have no friends living within two states of me, and only have yet another temporary job (after originally being told that this one would be full time/permanent.) I am so glad that I realized that this is my problem so I can move on and make today a good day, too.

      "It's been my experience that you can nearly always enjoy things if you make up your mind firmly that you will." Anne Shirley ('Anne of Green Gables')

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      micah 3 years ago

      Thank you, your article made me feel better. Happy birthday to me....

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      Lily 3 years ago

      Thanks for writing this. When my parents stopped organizing my birthdays, I immediately organized the party's twice the size, including weeks full of work and crafting the decorations.

      But now the family didn't feel 'forced' to come over anymore, I hardly get 5 people on my birthday. And friends usually feel pressured when I gently ask for a gift (I just NEED a gift on my birthday, even if it's a spoon) but sadly people DID started bringing things like a piece of gum/old bottles with some lemonade left, to the party. Some things were broken or had the pricetag of 10 cents still on them. Nothing was wrapped and people immediately started drinking all my alcohol, that I bought for the party, instead of congratulating me. I felt so hurt, I was standing there in my prettiest dress, while no one cared. Someone even congratulated my boyfriend and gave him a very expensive gift, because they understood it was HIS birthday (he invited them on mine)

      They did understand that was a bit mean though, so they gave me a present, the next day. With the price tag on it. 2 dollars. And it was broken. *sigh*

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      Elle 3 years ago

      Thanks for this article, it definitely helped out. It also helped to read other people's comments, as my birthday is tomorrow and I've been feeling quite down about it as well. My story has an uncanny similarity with the comment by NS? I'm also turning 26 tomorrow, all my friends are far, and I move so much I have no chance of meeting anyone who I could potentially date. I guess when I think about it that way, my life is pretty lonely. But when I think about all the people I do know who are younger than me and have kids and are married, and are constantly telling me they envy my freedom... I have it pretty good, I guess it's good to know that I don't have to clean after kids, or do anything like that. I'm also not in constant expectation for some guy to do something for me, I can do it for myself. Maybe freedom is the best birthday gift after all.

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      Miseryguts 3 years ago

      Expectations - so right. It's why I dislike Christmas, New Year, and birthdays. The sheer excitement of birthdays and Christmas as a kid because my mum made it so. But now, grown up, aged 38 tomorrow, you can't expect your mum to carry on doing that. It would be pathetic. But also my birthday coincides with Father's Day, and my father has caused me much pain. So that's a lot to swallow. But thank you so much for your article! We all just need to live in the moment and stop listening to what people say we should have - friends, family or the media telling us we should have kids, be married, own a home. Live moves in unexpected ways and we should take each experience as it comes, and, as you say, ask what it can teach us. Happy birthday everyone, or not, it doesn't matter! x

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      Francois 3 years ago

      I'm turning 24 today. Unfortunately, I have nothing much to show for my time on this earth. I just got my letters of rejection, as I like to call them, from UCLA and U of Texas law schools, I have no full-time job, and my own family seems to resent my existence. This year is the first year I have ever felt so depressed and dejected, and I am unsure of how to progress from this stage in my life.

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      Clyde 3 years ago

      Feels good knowing so many other people are like me depressed on their birthdays! Misery loves company, and when misery has company, its not so bad being miserable...

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      2 years ago

      Great article that perfectly sums up what so many of us go through. I have always had the hardest time enjoying my birthday and I went over 5 years without ever even telling anyone when my birthday was just so I didn't have to bear hearing anyone remind me. It's very easy to feel abnormal for feeling this way (considering 98% of people blow their birthdays WAY out of proportion), but alas, we are not alone.

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      typhiesmom 2 years ago

      I get severely depressed every year on my birthday. I don't ever remember it being happy. It is so painful that I ask people that are aware of when my birthday is to please ignore it and not bring it up or acknowledge it but they try anyway. They just don't get it. Today is my 43rd. This last year especially has been a lot of loss for my family. My husband lost his job in 2012, we then lost our home, our average middle class lifestyle and the pressure on our marriage was too much and my husband abandoned my children and I so tomorrow marks a month ago I filed for divorce finally. Really this gets so bad every year I'm thankful that I'm another year closer to death.

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      Rebeca 2 years ago

      Finally realized why I feel really sad on my birthday. The expectations from when you were little make you feel pressured into thinking it has to be that way or else it isn't a good birthday. Just turned 18 yesterday and I feel pretty meh, not really happy. But oh well, you move on.

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      divyanshu chauhan 2 years ago

      thank you for this....i needed this

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      luvylicious 2 years ago

      Thank you. I needed this. I would have my 20th birthday tomorrow and I feel like nobody cares. Not even my friends who I planned out how to make them feel happy and extra special on their special day. I feel like I'm not as important as them as they are for me. I think I actually wouldn't feel this bad if they are not so excited about going to the birthday party of our other classmate (which is today) and celebrated it with her happily. That is the reason why I feel so left out.

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      taniayvonne 2 years ago

      My birthday was 9/11....that in itself has been tough...but it's getting better..my husband didn't really acknowledge my birthday and that hurt I'm 44 years old I should get it but I don't I feel so disappointed. ...i am going to buy myself a cake and plan my own party with my girlfriend s I can't walk into this year and not feel celebrated...i love love love birthdays and to not even be acknowledge d really hurts

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      Shon9tilr 2 years ago

      Today is my 27th depressing birthday. Reading this article helped, but tomorrow I will return back to miserable self. But it feels good knowing that I'm not alone.

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      Shon9tilr 2 years ago

      Today is my 27th depressing birthday. Reading this article helped, but tomorrow I will return back to my* miserable self. But it feels good knowing that I'm not alone.

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      cat 2 years ago

      its my birthday today and i just want it to be over im 24 and im so embarrassed to say it my life is nowhere close to where i wish to be i should have a career i should be working at a hospital i should have my dream car and living alone instead im stuck at home with two kids no career looking at my friends living the life i wanned birthdays just remind me im worthless:'(:'(

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      yes 2 years ago

      Great post. Turned 23 today and this is the first time I actually cried. The feeling of not having achieved anything so far, is the strongest this year. But also wasting this day and not doing anything is making me sad. So I feel like I should do something. I'm just so sad.

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      Kay 2 years ago

      You made me laugh and get over the fact that it's normal to think that my birthday should be magical and I shouldn't have had to wash dishes this morning.

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      aziza 2 years ago

      It's my 29th birthday today and like every year im devastated. This article helped me a lot. Thanks.

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      Anne 2 years ago

      Thanks. My birthday is tomorrow and every year I feel like this. All I really want is someone to make a fuss. Maybe for my husband to book a restaurant or organise some friends to come over. Maybe the kids could make me a nice card or picture. But it is the middle of the silly season and people have other things on their minds. Tomorrow I will be 35 and this year I have lowered my expectations. Every year for the past 6 years I have asked to go to a specific restaurant for my birthday and every year no one has made a reservation. This year I do not expect it to be any different. Having read your article I need to change my mindset. Next year I will make the reservation (although I think the reason I have not done this in the past is I wanted someone else to validate that I am worthy of going there). And tomorrow I think I will ask if there are any plans and if not I will make sure I do something I want to do! You have also made me ponder if I am making my kids parties too much fun... Am I setting them up for disappointment in adulthood?

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      Kim 2 years ago

      Thanks so much for writing this! As most of the posters, I found this article because yesterday was my birthday and I've just be SO SAD and not sure why. This was insightful and, although I'm still a tad moody, I feel much better knowing that I'm not alone and this birthday depression is "normal" and maybe not just me being crazy.

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      Jenny 2 years ago

      Thank you for this... my birthday is tomorrow and I already feel like crying myself to sleep. Keep telling myself that expectations = disappointments, but I'm still hoping for a special birthday, maybe a surprise that I'd actually like.. agggg expectation!!

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      Alan 2 years ago

      Many birthdays have come and gone where I have been miserable, this article shined some light on why I maybe so down on a day that should be special to me. I hope I can put your words into action and start to take some happiness out of today

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      Victoria 2 years ago

      My husband don't even say Happy Birthday or does not do anything,,,,,

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      Rena 2 years ago

      Of course the majority would indicate we're always depressed on our birthdays - that's why I googled Birthday Blues!

      Your post is insightful and rings true.

      Here I am, hours from my milestone birthday and sulky.

      Just want to barricade myself in a room and get this day done over with!

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      fefe 2 years ago

      Oh this article makes me feel so much better, I just turned 22 ...15/2

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      Megan 2 years ago

      I'm turning 18 tomorrow & for the past 3-4 years I've had birthday depression.... This article showed me that it only gets worse as you get older.

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      Ralph 2 years ago

      Hi my birthday is coming up in a few days and I just feel no good I put on a smile and pretend but deep down I havernt had a birthday present or a decent birthday in 20 years now and thanks for the advice on the blog it has helped a lot but if I'm really truthful to my self I just wish I could have one decent birthday not overpriced gifts or any thing like that just a good day would be enough just one birthday when I could actually wake up and smile............

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      Diane 2 years ago

      My 35th birthday is in 3 days and as I sit here typing this, I'm wiping tears away. It has nothing to do with being "old" or getting "older" I don't dwell on the number 35. I just feel so down for some reason. My husband can't understand why I don't want to have a party or a dinner with friends. I just want the day to come and go. I was this exact same way when I turned 30. All I wanted to do then was hide under the covers all day and be by myself. The day after my birthday it's like a cloud left and I was back to my normal self.

      Well now I'm straight out ugly crying- I think over the past week I have been balling my emotions up inside and have seemed 'off' or distant by those around me. It doesn't help having a husband who keeps bugging me to know what I want to do for my birthday or where I want to go eat and who we should invite. I don't want to do anything.

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      Freshman 2 years ago

      bleh

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      Ayy_yo 2 years ago

      I'm turning 19 in a few hours.

      My 18th, I spent it alone, on a flight from home back to boarding school.

      I've always felt depressed on birthdays, and only this year have I bothered to look into it. This was the first Google recommendation.

      I needed to read this, for now I know that I'm not alone. I'm not sure if I'm more equipped to deal with this depression after reading your article, but I certainly feel less crappy. I guess that's a win, I'll take it.

      Thank you.

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      Mami 2 years ago

      Thank you!

      You are an angel for this post. Every year I experience Birthday Blues, Ill be 31 on Friday and this was so uplifting and it gently reminded me I'm on the right track. For the first time in 7 years I will be celebrating my birthday with family and friends. I'm super excited, while still managing to keep my expectations low, excited none the less for a positive experience and an even more positive year!

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      Jennifer 2 years ago

      Yes I googled this topic and got your post. Today is my birthday 38 already boo, but I am glad I'm not alone in my sadness. Your uplifting messages helped a lot.

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      Redwan 2 years ago

      My birthday is in 4days time and I thought I was being selfish and only thinking of myself whenever I realize I will be sad on my birthday. Thank you for the article!

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      Justyna 2 years ago

      It's my birthday and I'm sad...again. I keep telling myself no expectations=no disappointment, yet every year I imagine doing something nice on my birthday, or something special just for myself and it never happens. My family always celebrated birthdays, to make the birthday 'kid' feel special, feel loved. Unfortunately I moved away after getting married and my husband's family doesn't celebrate anything really. I don't even get 'happy birthday' from him. We usually do lunch with his parents, but it's always about them, we need to go to place they want to go, eat what they want to eat etc. I tried to protest once and it turned into huge drama and me being called selfish and drama queen just because I admited I'd like to spend the day the way I like it, taking time for myself... So yeah my birthday makes me depressed, I know it's going to be some kind of drama again, and all I really want is for someone to actually pay attention to me on that day, few nice words... Oh well maybe next year... Ahh expectations again...

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      alone 2 years ago

      Im going to be 35 tomorrow and I know I will be depressed all day. I have a million reasons for this but no one will care tomorrow and it hurts

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      Nancy Mitchell 2 years ago from Bend, OR

      So glad to know I'm not alone in dreading birthdays. As an introvert, I'm always conflicted about the Big Day -- part of me NOT wanting the attention and part of me definitely wanting it ( believe me, I know my confusion makes it tricky for my family). As I get older, I agree that we need to take control of the day and determine how we want to celebrate -- whether it's hiking alone or going out to dinner with friends.

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      Krzysztof Willman 2 years ago from Parlin, New Jersey

      Well done, this is one of the most honest and well written articles I've read on here. It's also very relatable to many people like myself who doesn't get excited about their birthday. To me it's just another day but I'm okay with that. My standards have always been modest and I never made a fuss when something related to me. I quietly pat myself on the back if I accomplish a goal and leave it at that. Great hub and voted up.

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      Sallyann 2 years ago

      Thanks for writing this - it is a very sensible and well written article. I have always felt down around my birthday and had pretty much come to the same conclusions you have about what causes the blues. It is my birthday in 2 days and today i organised going to the cinema with an old friend. I had planned to buy myself some new plants for the garden and after reading this i might buy myself some nice flowers too.

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      Isabella 2 years ago

      This was just what I needed to read. I'm saving it to read next year... after which I will buy myself flowers and a massage. Thanks! :-)

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      SuriG 2 years ago

      I thought it was just me! Glad to know I'm not alone..

      Tomorrow is my Bday and this is when I realize how lonely I'm.

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      Marcely 24 months ago

      is it just me but this didn't make me feel better at all .. I'm turning 16 tomorrow and I have no legit reason to feel so sad. None of these reasons apply to me. Maybe it's cause I'm so young. I'm glad it made others feel better

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      Jarrod 23 months ago

      Turning 20 tomorrow. I feel kind of better knowing I'm not the only one but at the same time, I wish none of you felt like this. It sucks!

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      nikki 23 months ago

      35 today. ugh.

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      jimbob 23 months ago

      42 today. Not one happy birthday other than the bank!

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      Tina 22 months ago

      The only thing good about my 43rd birthday today is reading that I'm not alone in feeling let down and depressed. Birthdays have never been overly celebrated and I feel that my expectations aren't high but family forgetting is a hard hit for me. Also newly married and he didn't go out of his way.....

      Oh well. Tommorow is a new day and I need to learn how I can make myself happy and not count on others.

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      Zamnski 22 months ago

      Turning 22 on the 8th and found this article and read through all the comments. Felt this way last year when I turned 21, but I couldn't really put my finger on it. Oh no, nvm--Right, expectations of having this big bash because everyone made a big deal of turning 21. But it wasn't... What I got in retrospect was, nice, I guess. My friend surprised me at the park with a group of our friends. No cake though, there was supposed to be one. But something happened, I forget what. But they were all there, one issue is I kinda question the legitimacy of those group of friends... but then again I'm still just as close as I was with them, this time last year. So they must be true friends.

      I think the main thing for me is accomplishments, and expectations in life (sure a cake would be nice) . I should have my EE degree by now, or at least a little closer than I am now. Maybe a significant other? Its been 4 years since my last serious relationship. Idk, I just tell myself, maybe i'm not ready.

      If I come back to this article in 2016. Reflect on all the accomplishments you've done since 2015.. If there isn't much, well bruh thats on you.

      To everyone else reading this: I hope you genuinely do have a happy birthday, or find some peace or more importantly something--something that will make your day a little more enjoyable.

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      Heather 21 months ago

      I'm so happy I found this article! I too, grew up with delusions of birthday grander due to a mother who spoiled me on that day each year but as the years went by & into adulthood...my birthday became more & more of a let down! Causing me to feel unloved & unappreciated by the ones closest to me. It's hard to even admit this because it sounds so superficial & selfish of me...but nonetheless, it's my shameful truth! My birthday is coming up in a few days (I turn 44) & I decided to pull the plug on ANY expectations from my family in order to protect my heart from any hurt or disappointment. So I told my children & husband not to do anything for me on that day & explained they could wish me a happy birthday but that's the extent of what I wanted because I didn't want to celebrate "age" (of course I lied to sound less childish). I told them they could get me a gift or card on any other day surrounding that day, IF they really wanted to but by doing it this way, I figured it would take all the pressure off them & especially me. I urged them to understand that this isn't a test or me being a martyr, but just a way for me to cope & they reluctantly understood. However, I am nervous for when that day comes because I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with the terms I set up but it seems less painful than if I got my hopes up for something that never seems to happen. Anyway, your article gave me some very good ideas about what to do to make "ME" happy on that day & I truly thank you for that! One day I hope to detach from this ridiculous birthday madness but for now...I'll take it the best way I can :)

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      John 21 months ago

      Today is my birthday and this helped a bit, so thanks.

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      Emi 20 months ago

      I was at least expecting a call from my mom but nothing so far... oh well, I guess I should'nt wait for anyone to wish me well.

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      Kirst 20 months ago

      Best wishes Emi

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      Lucie 19 months ago

      My 18th is tomorrow and after having no real responsibilities and hence anything to gain a sense of achievement from after graduating, I've been pretty down. And I guess I would've been more depressed tomorrow if I didn't read this. So thank you.

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      19 months ago

      Thank you for this! I have had birthday depression for years and always thought it was just me. I feel depressed, then embarrassed for feeling depressed about something so silly. I feel better now.

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      Angie I. 19 months ago

      I'm so glad I came upon this website cause I almost went to bed crying last night cause of going through another birthday. I used to love birthdays & look forward to them while I was a child but as I've gotten older, it just depresses me & really don't know why?

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      PKeysing 18 months ago

      Today is my 46 birthday. I have found myself over the years becoming depressed during my birthday and feeling guilty about being depressed. I don't always feel this way on every birthday; but, from time to time my depression does seem to surface. I am glad that I came a cross is article; it has seem to help me feel better. I also know that tomorrow will be better. But for now, I just want this day to be over with:/.

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      Raine 18 months ago

      Thank you so much for writing this. Monday will be my 33rd birthday, and I've been in and out of small crying bouts since yesterday. I decided to try something new this year, and scheduled some flowers to be delivered to my home on my birthday, with a sweet note to myself.

      From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

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      JJ 18 months ago

      Hi, I also always feel depressed on my Birthday, I your article proves that it is because of expectations. I am always afraid that nobody wants to celebrate my Birthday.

      My sister is just 1 year elder to me and has her birth date 2 days after mine.

      My parents always celebrated my birthday along with her only, which has impacted me badly that my birthday is not important as till my boyfriend celebrated it first time it was always celebrated on wrong date before. :(

      Now, my boyfriend who has become my husband, when he celebrates my birthday it is not exited at all, seems it is not important for him now. :(

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      Sp 18 months ago

      Happy birthday .... No such things

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      Abhinav 17 months ago

      I don't expect anything good in my regular life n that helps me a lot from disappointment even if something goes wrong. But on my very special day , my birthday, i cannot stop myself . I expect too much form others. Now after some days its my 18th birthday and i am so nervous about that. again i am expecting a good gift, but i am pretty sure that i will not get that. There are still 2 weeks left but I feel so shaky when i think about it.

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      Annabella 16 months ago

      Wonderfully written and great advice.

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      the depressed 16 months ago

      hi its my birthday today and i am always been deporessed on my birthday. I dred my birthday every year. this really he.p me thanks i need this. (i to eat cake in the dark with a baricaded bedroom and crying myself to sleep. So thanks. Happy 17th bday to me :/

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      Margie Sims 15 months ago

      Hello Jen!

      I am a parenting writer, writing an article on the birthday blues for Memphis Parent Magazine (circ 40,000). May I interview you on this topic?

      mrgsms@gmail.com

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      Nasim 14 months ago

      I don`t know when you have wrote that but it seems that you wrote it after we had a deep conversation.. it was all the words in my head and all the healing words that I wanted to hear... thank you.. it really feels good when you know you are not the only one in the world who is not happy on her own birthday...

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      Milllie 14 months ago

      It will be my birthday in 3 days... I wish I could avoid it until I have accomplished my goals but it is impossible. I have lost so much more than gain. It is tough... Your advice to reduce my expectations answers it for me. Reading this article describes exactly what I am going through. I will do my best for my 30th birthday. We all get to live once, right?

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      Megan 14 months ago

      It is nice to know we're not alone. I feel like such an ass feeling sorry for myself on my birthday, but here I am turning 30 and my dad is the only one who called me today and he was shocked I hadn't heard from anyone else yet. Nothing from my sis, or my grandparents. I want so desperately not to care about my birthday at all, but I can't figure out how. I just want to crawl in a hole and die. I even had a great dinner with friends, but had to plan it and cook it myself. I try to be cool about stuff but I can't stand that I have been gaining weight, I feel like a cow. This feels like an uphill battle.

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      Rich 14 months ago

      Friends or a romantic dinner? What's that? For my so called big 50th as most of my birthdays. I was alone. No friends no girlfriend no so called family! So, much for the big milestone 50th birthday. Romantic dinner? I think I saw that before somewhere. Yes, I am quite certain. Oh yes now I remember it was a movie that's it. lol. But you have to actually have a girlfriend for that so that leaves that out. But I have heard of a girlfriend. I know people have them. But never was I so fortunate to have one.

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      Alison 13 months ago

      Glad to know I'm not the only one. I'm 49 today and have been down all day. I make sure even one else's birthdays are good but I never feel it is reciprocated. I think I always put my expectations high and am frequently disappointed. I can't remember the last birthday I enjoyed. I have the double whammy of Mothers Day being tomorrow. Two days of being let down and feeling unappreciated. I just want to feel special.

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      Christian Mills 13 months ago

      It sucks feeling sorry for yourself; I've felt this way for the majority of my life. Birthdays are the worst for reminding you that you were simply a mistake.

      There seems to be little love in my family, almost nil, and that continues inside me and forever stops me from growing. A lonely life punctuated with yearly reminders.

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      Zara 13 months ago

      I told my family that we should celebrate my birthday with sushi and some grill outside. The only thing we had for food was meat, though I'm vegetarian... I know silly thing to feel bad about, but I couln't hold my tears there and went to my room to cry

      Really good article :)

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      Lorraine Bonfante 13 months ago

      all I wanted was my mom to make a birthday dinner and......nothing. happy birthday to me tho.

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      Clayton 13 months ago

      Really dont want to celebrate my 30th birthday this year. But I feel like my family are making this big thing. All I really want is to be left alone. I dont have the energy, care or motivation for this sh*t.

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      Rebekah 13 months ago

      Thank you for this article! I was having a rough day on my birthday today and stumbled onto your post. It made me feel better and made me think about what I can do to have a better day for myself!

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      Bruce 13 months ago

      My birthday depresses me because I was born. I really don't like living. I don't care much for life. I turned 47 today. There's nothing to look back on. I am really hoping this is my last birthday.

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      Nday 12 months ago

      Bit random and wordy. The survey is a bit skewed since people searched for bday nlues to get here. But hey, Clean it up and post it on a not so cluttered page.

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      old 12 months ago

      I have been depressed for 84 yrs at bday time--good to read others feel the same--THANK YOU!

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      rayya 12 months ago

      Thanks, I feel much better after reading this article, but the thing is that I'm only 13 and I can't treat myself at a restaurant or go for a shopping spree, I guess I was having high expectations, because I feel disappointed, but it could've been worse

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      Sonali 12 months ago

      Thank you for this article. It's my birthday today, but I've been feeling very lonely all day long. But now, i think i feel better.

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      Alex 12 months ago

      Today is my 27th Birthday and I really needed this. Thank you.

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      Tonberry 11 months ago

      for the poll, i dont see why anyone not sad would read this, i expected that resul

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      Alix 11 months ago

      Okay so this whole thing was pretty much (in a nut shell) lower your expectations...but what do you do when your expectations are already so low and for the worst...and your horribly low expectations are completely met, no matter what...every year?

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      Aydan 10 months ago

      Honestly this really. I just turned 16 today and I was ok this morning no bad feeling honest kinda excited for no reason.

      But as the day went on and I just went about my daily routine I of doing nothing because it's the summer I just slowly lost the will to do anything.

      By the end of the day I just wanted to crawl under my covers and cry, and I couldn't figure out why so I googled it and found this.

      As I read I realized the reasons I felt so sad, when I was 7-10 years old my mom had me and my brothers by herself and could pay to do much soi learned to except less on my birthday. But then she got remarried and had money and my dad got partial custody of us so I started to get more in general.

      So for the past few years I have been expecting more and getting more. Between my sister (not moms daughter) planing me "surprise" parties and getting real gifts on my actually birthday it felt amazing to have a day where everyone was forced to pay attention to which never happened other wise.

      Then 2 weeks ago my sister and dad had a huge fight and he kicked her out and sent her to live with her mom in Texas, so there goes my party where all of my friends and siblings would be having fun and eating junk food all day.

      So then I made plans with my friend who is leaving for the school year to go see suucide squad before she leaves in two days. Then my family went on a road trip to go pick up my step brother which completely narrowed the window of time I had to see her. And in the end she was sick and couldn't go with me so now I won't see her for a year.

      Then after my family ate our standard dinner that I got to choose my step dad still tells me to help with the dishes and I do I because arguing with him is not a good idea.

      I just have never felt this bad about good intentions in my entire life and I literally feel completely broken right now

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      Michelle 10 months ago

      Today is my birthday and I am crying as I read this article. I started to feel down last night because I knew that nothing was going to happen for me on my birthday. My birthdays are always the same. I always think that one day my significant other will get it. That he will realize that I expect a planned, wonderful day. He never seems to listen to me or plan for anything.

      I am tired of always giving and not receiving. This article has helped me out a bit. I just want this day to be over. I know I will feel better tomorrow because it won't be my birthday. The Seinfeld clip made me laugh though.

      Thanks.

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      Daniel 10 months ago

      Thank-you for this article. Today is my 33rd bday and like many here I am very depressed on this day. Literally completely alone, don't want to be with anyone at all for fear of bringing them down. There was so much I wanted to achieve by this age, and have failed miserably. After reading this article I have given my self permission to grieve and cry, it feels better to be able to do just that. If anyone else out there feels this on their bday just remember; "This too shall pass". I sincerely hope that the rest of all of your birthdays overflow with hope and joy. If you are reading this on your bday, happy bday from me to you! You are not alone! God bless you all.

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      10 months ago

      Wonderful advice. I hit 40 today and after talking to my partner about what great things we could do together at the weekend he planned none of them - he couldn't choose! This advice has helped and I'm going to walk the dogs and work on my happy dance. Happy birthday to everyone.

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      Caroline 9 months ago

      Today is my birthday and I always feel like no one seems to care... but thank you for this. I'm currently at work and I think they forgot to order the cake because I share a birthday with my boss. He's more important to the group. After work.. I'm alone. I plan on buying new jewelry and eat lobster by myself. I'm going to take this one baby step at a time because I feel like birthdays are important. Here's to everyone being alone.

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      Ivy 9 months ago

      Can't believe I'm doing this but yeah it's suck!!! But thank you for sharing this article.. happy bday to me!

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      Isabella 9 months ago

      Today I turn 21. My boyfriend went out of town to Vegas with his friend. My boyfriend has to work the whole weekend. My only expectations were that I'd get to spend time with them. I cancelled plans to go out and drink with a new coworker because my boyfriend had never met him. Meanwhile he's having drinks with as many random strangers as he can. It's easy to say "I only get depressed on my birthday". I'm just always depressed. It's when those thoughts that the people you cherish don't care quite as much about you become actual reality, that it helps to bring on the wallowing loneliness. I spend a lot of my time in my room, alone, in the dark as it is. The fact that it's 10 am and I still haven't even gotten a happy Birthday text from either of them is what's making me feel so completely forgotten. Reading this isn't making me feel any better, and writing it is just making the tears flow freer. At least I got to vent to someone. And at least I have my parents and sister to spend today with.

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      Steven 8 months ago

      Today is my 30th birthday and this article made me feel a little better. I've been holding back tears ever since I woke up. My boyfriend's away all week for work (his birthday is tomorrow, so it sucks for him too), all my friends seem to be busy or away on vacation, so I don't really have anyone to celebrate with, it seems.

      After reading this, I looked back on the past year with a different perspective and I realized it has been a wonderful one. My boyfriend and I moved in together, we bought an apartment, I'm in the process of fulfilling a lifelong dream. So even if today might be a lonely day, ruined by expectations, I'm going to treat myself! And I like the idea of setting up a plan for the coming year, so maybe turning 32 won't feel this crappy!

      Thank you for this article!

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      Vaishali 8 months ago

      Your article really motivated me..

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      Jen 8 months ago

      I turned 22 yesterday. Im still awake and literally cant sleep even if i have to work in 4h. I havent felt this depressed in years. I guess because as you mentioned, im mourning over all the stuff i havent achieved yet because im insanely comparing myself to others. I cancelled all my plans and just cried all day.

      Tomorrow is a new day with nice weather. And after all, 22 is no age at all. I have a lifetime to achieve things :)

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      Jj 8 months ago

      Happy birthday to me!!my kids went to school,my husband to work!! Nice day to be by myself (sigh). Been at the couch watching movies and feeling so sad, just wanna cry. Expecting something from my family is so hard. It always disappoints me.well, they never really tried to make it special anyway. So,thank you for this article because next time i will make it special for myself!! To those whose birthdays are like mine Happy birthday to us! Next time lets celebrate it with or without others!!

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      Jan 7 months ago

      My birthday today. We were never made a fuss of when I was growing up even on bitrthdays. Over the years I've watched so many others be spoilt and had affection lavished on them . My close friend had her birthday last week. Apparently she got nigh on 50 cards. I didn't know you could get that many. Great article though. I am going out to get myself a present, flowers and a fancy cake. I feel better already!

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      Amy Washington 7 months ago

      Today is mine. The comments helped more than the article. Who would have thought I would be venting through a old article...I always think about how since i was small my grandmother had to take us in( because of our absentee mothers and fathers) so our birthdays was simply homemade and cake and ice cream. Christmas sucked too. Moving forward I've always had high hopes and expectations as an adult (this year will be my year!) only to get an underwhelming experience. As a mom I spend hundreds on parties and gifts during the summer months. Then when my birthdays comes around we're low on funds getting ready for Christmas and this year a bonus! A new baby my husband wanted. I can't even be excited about the new baby without thinking about everything it needs on my birthday. So guess what. This year I almost got the kohler turtles I like but shipping was 13$ and we almost went to some lame improv comedy show but the tickets were 34$. So guess what now I get to choose breakfast out to eat or dinner. The decision hasn't even been made. It was more like what do you want to do? Breakfast or dinner. I'm sobbing like a big baby. :(. While my kids are trying to sing to me I can't help but feel like a big spoiled ass baby myself. Very guily. It's had for me to fake it this year like I do every year. Nevertheless, I'll get over it but today is my day and I choose to be depressed. As I said earlier it helps seeing other ppl go though it makes me feel like God isn't only picking on me and eveyone with these awesome childhood memories and those getting cars and all these awesome gifts and surrounded by tons of ppl who actually care are simply the chosen few. Everyone can't be happy,right. I'll try to take control of my own birthday next year. Sadly I say that every year so no promises. Time to get up and get the kids ready for my birthday breakfast lets get this over with. Good luck guys.

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      7 months ago

      You know how everyone is so excited about sweet 16? I know I might sound really young when I say I'm stil 15, but I feel like a weight is on my shoulder coming closer to my birthday (which is next week). Everyone is so excited about their sweet 16 but me? I feel like it isn't the most precious moment of my life and that bothers me. I have friends but neither of them know my birthday. I don't want to tell them either but you know, a small part of me wishes they'll tell me 'Happy Birthday' and it would be the best surprise ever. But there is no school on my birthday, which makes it worse since I'll be staying home all day with my parents gone to work, and my brother gone to university. My friends aren't that close to me, but you know what? This was the day I was born so I'll still try to be happy about it. No sweet 16 trash because once again, it is a dumb expectaction for everyone to have a sweet 16. Thanks for this article. You're amazing.

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      Kyan 7 months ago

      Surprisingly, I'm nine years old and depressed. My birthday is tomorrow and the one thing I wasn't in the whole world is a laptop and nobody will get it for me and now I'm sitting in my bed crying because I never seem to get anything I ever want on my birthday. This article definitely helped me!

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      Veronica 7 months ago

      Aaand here my birthday comes... on 22nd of this month. Depressed already, no idea what is going to happen then! But very nice article. I am definitely going to say myself- "Happy birthday, you're a rockstar"!

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      Nin Styles 7 months ago

      I want to thank the writer of this article. Today's my birthday and I don't know why but ever since my 18th birthday(I'm 25 now) I feel like there's something missing. although my friends and family never forget my day, it still feels that way. I feel happy but not a hundred percent. but, still I want to thank the people behind this article. thanks for the uplifting and cheering message.

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      Anon 7 months ago

      17 tomorrow and I can't remember the last time I didn't feel depressed about it. My mum asked my what I wanted for dinner tomorrow and I said I didn't want to go out for it, went upstairs and cried for a good 15 mins. I've had a good 2 cries today and no doubt there'll be more tomorrow. Wish I could skip the day tbh. I don't know why I hate my own birthday but I just do. Had a great childhood and upbringing, nothing sad associated with the day. Just one of them things. Cheers for the article though, glad I'm not the only one.

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      Anon 7 months ago

      Don't think of birthdays much... Including mine...

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      Nov 30 7 months ago

      Today is my bday I was expecting heaps I got barely anything and I cried the whole day which made my famil feel bad . They tried so hard but I can't stop crying. There's only 15 mins left of it and I'm glad I found this . It really helped me feel better. Thank youuu

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      Snow 6 months ago

      It's my 18th bday in a couple of days and I had so many expectations because my mother said that we will have a big party. I was really excited but 10 days before my birthday my mother says take your frnds out somewhere and celebrate but my 'frnds' are not at all interested. So I have decided not to celebrate my birthday at all but it still hurts a lot knowing that I will be at home doing nothing on such special day. Today is 14th and I don't want 17th December to come because it will be my birthday and I will crying all day.

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      Doc 6 months ago

      What empty platitudes these are. Birthdays are not fun and have never been fun. We are fooled into thinking their fun. Know what a birthday really is? A mark that comes every year to let you know that another 365 days of your limited existence are gone. Welcome to reality, sad but true.

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      Mesha 6 months ago

      Hi there, from read this. I understand why I get so sad on my birthday, my grandparents always when out their way to make my birthday special. Now that my grandmother has passed on.as a adult I expect other people to do the same...but the phrase lower your expectations, I love it...I'm the only one who can celebrate me.I mean it is my birthday..so why am I waiting for somthing from other people.but in true form its sad when your husband or daughter(22) gives this dry happy birthday....all I won't is a nice cooked breakfast or later a cooked meal..one other thing was said...scheduled things to do on your birthday.I'm making myself a promise next year.I'm going to do just that.I'm going to continue what my gmother started by self lifting me on my special day....happy birthday mesha you awesome at 41.. My baby girl gave me 41 hugs today.I loved every one. thanks I feel much better.

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      Nerissa 5 months ago

      Today I'm 32 and for a long while from my teens to adulthood to date I am always depressed on my birthday. I've had maybe two good days and I'm not trying to be ungrateful but I lost my mom at 22 and ever since it feels even more lonely the older I get when this day comes around.

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      James 5 months ago

      I read a lot of the other comments and thought I would chime in. I am going to be 36 on Sunday and the article mentioning expectations really hit the nail on the head for me. Birthdays are supposed to be a special occasion, or so we are told. Since I have grown older a lot of my friends now have commitments in their life and are just busy people... too busy, and also I think disinterested, in organising anything in advance.

      I was blessed to have a better group of friends in my younger years and did go raving with all the birthday trimmings for my 18th birthday and some others. Now though, I realise that I am only able to count on myself and need to begin placing less importance on the external validation of others.

      My birthday is on Sunday and if no-one has organised anything by Saturday then I will go to London and find the best place to party, right through to the after party! I have not done this alone on a birthday before, but have done a few times alone by myself. The best advice another lone raver gave me was: if anyone else asks where are your friends, you can straight-face them saying 'i don't have any friends' and I guarantee you they will just laugh and say you're being silly. I did this... and do you know what? The other person said 'well now I'm your friend' and we walked round arm in arm all night.... how blessed!

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      Emily 5 months ago

      Its my 18th today, and I had the expectations it was going to be special and fun, but it wasn't. My family threw a surprise party that had nothing to do with me. It was also terrible waiting for it to happen because I knew before hand. They planned it overnight. When I showed up, it was the worst party ever. None of my friends were there, and I was allergic to everything except for the pretzels. It seems people care more about THEIR personal enjoyment then YOURS on your birthday. I left early, went home and cried myself to sleep, typical birthday for me. Expectations are everything... I should have never thought that my 18th birthday would have been special or even enjoyable, then maybe it would have been okay :)

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      hailey 5 months ago

      i am 9 today and people in my 4rth grade class are trying to give me things for a extra cup cake.it is realy bad when 21 students want 2 cupcakes and i only have 24 plus teachers son. thank you

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      Noah Nowicki 4 months ago

      My 12th birthday party was not that bad.But, only 1 friend came and I only got 1 present.The reason it was depressing is because it was the last year before I become a teen.

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      4 months ago

      Thank you for the post. Yesterday it was my 18th birthday and I was very depressed because I feel like nothing has changed for about 5 years and that I'm not living the life I'd like to live. But at the same time I feel like I should be happy because I have a family, a house, a dog... and that makes me even more depressed. I feel as if I don't have 'real friends', all I have is people I know. I don't have close friends, because all friends are just douchebags. They do things I don't like, they talk behind my back, they complain all the time... It's awful... What's more, I'm very stressed because of exams... I have study almost every day and it's horrible... Also, I feel rejected from new people I meet for the first time... I'm very bad at socialising, actually. I've been thinking about killing myself many times over the last 2 years but I haven't had guts...

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      Mecca 3 months ago

      Today I turned 15 and I wish I would've seen this post earlier... :(

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      TGB 3 months ago

      Thank you, I really needed these words today.

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      Tikz 2 months ago

      Thanks a lot. My birthday is coming in a few weeks and I had started to getting depressed from the past few weeks. Iam really glad I came across this website.

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      Jewel 2 months ago

      Yes today is my birthday, and it was a big disappointment in many ways. The person whom I thought might show they care, forgot it was my birthday, and I had to remind them. Eventually showed up with some broken free things he got, and I got a small card. Heard from a couple family members. Whoop dee ding. I love this article though, cheered me up. Thanks Jen.

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      DD 2 months ago

      I'm turning 40 tomorrow, April 25th. I have been feeling really down and bad about myself all day. I have a twin, so we share the birthday. This year we were supposed to take a big trip to celebrate. Well, that went down the tube. None of my friends have time to celebrate, which makes me sad. It's all very anticlimactic! Thanks for writing this article. It helps me out and that world, "expectation," is very accurate!

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      Maria 7 weeks ago

      Thanks for the wonderful article!! I always thought I was alone on this but now I can see that I'm not. That in itself will make me feel better on my birthday :-)

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      Caelina 7 weeks ago

      Not my birthday yet but I managed to cry beforehand just thinking about it, haha... But I'm glad I found this article, some of those tips are definitely worth trying.

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      Kanika 5 weeks ago

      I thank you so much for this, my birthday is very close and that is exactly how I feel I thank u soo very much!

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      Lois 4 weeks ago

      The last words my mum said to me were on my 46th birthday - "oh dear, is it your birthday today?" She was in her last moments of leaving me after 10 years of fighting Leukaemia and I was by her bedside in a hospice. She went to sleep after those words with all kinds of exhaustion, so I went home (also emotionally exhausted) that evening, intending to see her the next day and received a call at 4.16am the next day, saying she had passed on. Since then, the run up to my birthday has been unbearable - I cant stand to feel all those feelings again. I am an emotional wreck a few days before the day, on the day and the day after. I'm now 55 (today) and would like to choose another 'secret' birthday and just avoid May and my birthday...:( oh well. xx

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      Hannah 2 weeks ago

      You made me cry more

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      abutterflyloves 10 days ago

      I wonder how many lives you have saved with this post? Thank you. 45 today. Very sad.

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      Noelle 6 days ago

      Thank you.

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      Noelle 6 days ago

      It's my birthday today. 18. Thank you for writing this :-)

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      Chris Tiernan 6 days ago

      in two days I will have existed for two decades. It sounds depressing but my plan is -Going to see Ricky Gervais Live(Stand up comedy) alone. Then go straight home jump into bed and play a few records. It's all I ever want to do on my bday and granted still feel sad on my birthdays but the I've been doing the bed n record player routine for a handful of birthdays and slowly but surely, I always feel a little happier every time I do it. But anyway thank you for this article :)

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      Roxanne 3 days ago

      Its my birthday at the moment and people are just talking with each other besides me. They're even gonna sleep here while all they're doing is talk about weird stuff. I'm fucking sad. They don't fucking care if I'm against it.

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