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Twelve Ways to Stop Gambling Addiction Forever

Updated on April 19, 2017
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I am a professional coach and author in the field of gambling addiction, which I've worked in for over 10 years.

Gambling addiction is brutal and highly destructive. It can lead to dire consequences that run the gamut from bankruptcy, job loss, depression, anxiety, loss of friends and family, and even suicide. It is so important for the addict to stop gambling sooner rather than later.

This addiction does not discriminate. If the propensity is there, and the gambler crosses over that invisible line into problem gambling, addiction can occur in anyone’s life. It does not matter whether the person is rich or poor, educated or uneducated. An addiction like this can send people to jail, cause major social and occupational problems, mental instability, and financial devastation that can last for years.

Studies show that problem gamblers are more likely to commit suicide than all other types of addicts combined.

It is important to get help as soon as possible. It isn’t easy to quit gambling, but there are ways you can help yourself before you get to the point of no return. Here are twelve strategies to use to stop gambling and reclaim your life!

Remember the feeling when you lose a lot of money at the casino, online, or through sports betting. Allow yourself to feel that despondency when you are having thoughts about gambling again.

Twelve Tips to Help You Quit Gambling Forever

1. Take a Short Break

When you wake up, make a decision that you will not gamble, just for this one day. If you have to do this an hour at a time, that is okay. Some might have to work one minute at a time, which is fine too, as long as you promise yourself that you will not gamble, and you keep the promise. Schedule your day in a very structured way so you do not have a lot of free time. Forbid yourself from entering a casino, downloading online gaming apps, or visiting gaming websites.

2. Find a Replacement Activity

Find something to replace your gambling. Exercise, go shopping, go out with friends, or do some cooking. You can also rent a movie, listen to some music, or do some reading — do whatever it takes to keep yourself busy. You could pick up a new, exciting hobby, like bike racing or climbing or welding.

Your goal is to stop gambling, and it is not easy when you get such a high from it. Finding replacements, however, can help. Try and see how it goes.

3. Remember How Bad It Feels to Lose

Remember the feeling when you lose a lot of money at the casino, online, or through sports betting. Allow yourself to feel that despondency when you are having thoughts about gambling again. You may find that you are less likely to go out and place a bet. I have done this before, and must admit that these feelings have stopped me from taking that ride to the casino. This hasn't worked every time, but many times this tool has helped.

4. Educate Yourself About Gambling Addiction

Read as much as you can about gambling addiction. Educate yourself, especially about your particular type of gambling. Find out what type of gambler you are and whether you have a gambling problem and have crossed over this invisible line. Are you an escape or an action gambler? Find out what some of your triggers are, as this can help a lot. When you read about gambling addiction, especially the power that it can have on your psyche, you may think twice about going out and placing a bet.

The resources at the end of this article may be of some help to you.

5. Find Self-Help Materials

Seek help. Look for books or courses. Self-hypnosis for gambling problems can also be helpful. Consider joining an online gambling addiction forum. Even if you do not join, reading other people's stories may help you realize that you are not alone. It is crucial that you realize that you are not the only person with this problem. Many share your plight and are looking for answers and support from other gamblers.

Again, there are resources at the bottom of this article that may be of some help to you.

6. Find a Support Group

Attend a Gamblers Anonymous meeting for group support. If you do not want to do a 12-Step program, there is an online program called Smart Recovery. Having support from other gamblers who also want to quit is an important piece of your recovery. Just talking about gambling with other people who understand what you're going through can be really helpful.

7. Hand Over Control of Your Money

Ask a close family member to handle your money. If you do not have money on your person, you will be less apt to impulsively gamble money away. It will be hard, but it is an important step in your recovery. Also, do not allow yourself access to ATM or credit cards. Just keep a small amount of cash with you, so you cannot spend the money gambling.

8. List the Cons of Gambling and the Pros of Quitting

Make a list about how your gambling problem has affected your life in a negative way. Write as much as you can. Make the list on the left side of a sheet of paper so you have room on the right side. On the right side, write about how your life will change for the better when you stop gambling.

9. Make a Financial Plan

Talk to a debt counselor about your gambling debts. Ask for advice about how to relieve financial pressure and solve financial problems caused by your gambling. The financial stress that you have from gambling addiction debts can drive you back to gambling if not addressed. Financial problems are the biggest consequence of gambling, and help is available. Be sure to use a non-profit debt assistance agency, and not one that is for-profit.

10. Get a Good Counselor

See a counselor that specializes in addictions, especially gambling, and talk to this person about your problem. If your addiction is severe, you will need as much support as you can get to stop gambling now.

11. Get Help for Underlying Mood Disorders

Many people with a gambling problem also suffer from depression, anxiety, stress, or other substance abuse issues. These can both trigger compulsive gambling as well as make it worse.

12. Get in the Right Environment

Surround yourself with people that you trust who want to see you recover and avoid any kind of environment where you might be tempted to gamble, which could be anything from a casino, to being at home alone with your smartphone. Delete gambling apps from your phone and tell casinos that you have a problem and that you want them to block you from entering.

Some Final Thoughts

Gambling is a dangerous addictions because of the related risk of suicide. Find help now and make a plan to begin quitting. Take it one day, or hour, at a time and keep in mind how great you will feel when you have come clean and stopped gambling with your life.

More Information About Problem Gambling

Do You Have a Problem With Gambling?

There are many terms that are used to describe gambling problems, including "problem," "at risk," "compulsive," "disordered," and "pathological."1

The American Psychiatric Association uses the term "gambling disorder," in the 5th edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders to describe the most severe form of gambling problems. Keep in mind, however, that individual experiences with gambling can differ wildly from person to person.

According to the Manual, a gambling disorder is characterized by:

  • A preoccupation with gambling
  • The perceived inability to cut back or control one's gambling
  • Irritability or restlessness when one tries to cut back or stop gambling
  • Risking more money to reach the same levels of excitement as before
  • Gambling to escape problems or depression
  • "Chasing" gambling losses with more gambling to try to make up for them
  • Deceiving family and friends with regard to gambling habits
  • Risking or losing jobs or relationships because of gambling
  • Relying on others for the financial needs caused by gambling

If you're experiencing any or all of the above to any degree, it's likely that you don't have a normal relationship with gambling. You don't need to be completely out of control in order to have a problem with gambling.2 In fact, problem gambling is any kind of behavior that disrupts your life, regardless of how much you gamble or how much money is at stake.

Gambling addiction is frequently seen alongside other forms of psychiatric disorders, such as depression and anxiety.3 It is also seen frequently alongside other kinds of addictions.4

Just because you have a problem with gambling does not mean you are a weak-willed, irresponsible person. Strong-willed or responsible people are just as likely to develop a gambling disorder as anyone else.

A Note on Recovery

The path to recovery differs for each individual, and there is no consensus in the scientific community regarding the best treatment for addiction. Some people recover spontaneously, some do it alone or one-on-one with a therapist, others in group settings or a combination of the two.5 Half of all addictions end by age 30,6 but only 1 in 10 of the 23.5 million teenagers addicted to alcohol and drugs seek treatment, and when they do, it's often in places that do not use evidence-based care.

This is just to say that addiction treatment is a complex issue. In your journey, don't be afraid to try many options for treatment, even ones that might seem contradictory. Relapse is likely, but so is regaining a life without addiction.

Some of the tools people have used include:

  • Cognitive behavioral therapy
  • Group therapy
  • Harm-reduction techniques
  • In-patient treatment programs
  • Marriage and credit counseling

If you need to reach out to someone, you can call:

HelpGuide's list of resources (at the bottom of the article that the link sends you to) is very extensive — It's a good place to start.

Sources and Resources

1. "What is problem gambling or gambling disorder?" 2016. National Center for Responsible Gaming. Accessed April 12, 2017.

The website for the National Center for Responsible Gaming, which has information for researchers about grants they can apply for, research projects funded by the NCRG, and some resources for public education about gambling.

2. Segal, Jeanne Ph.D., Melinda Smith, M.A., and Lawrence Robinson. "Gambling Addiction and Problem Gambling." April 2017. HelpGuide. Accessed April 12, 2017.

A comprehensive resource to compulsive gambling, with many resources for people to begin their recovery journey including worksheets, websites, and support groups, as well as step-by-step guidelines and advice for both compulsive gamblers as well as the people who love them.

3. Martin, Ryan J., Stuart Usdan, Jennifer Cremeens, Karen Vail-Smith. "Disordered gambling and co-morbidity of psychiatric disorders among college students: An examination of problem drinking, anxiety and depression." February 21, 2013. Journal of Gambling Studies. Accessed April 12, 2017.

A scholarly article studying the relationship between gambling and other mood and substance disorders.

4. Nordqvist, Christian. "Gambling Addiction: How Is Gambling Bad for You?" August 19, 2015. Medical News Today. Accessed April 12, 2017.

An article about gambling addiction, its triggers, and treatment for it.

5. Brody, Jane E. "Effective Addiction Treatment." February 4, 2013. New York Times: Well Blog. Accessed April 12, 2017.

A blog post on the current state of addiction treatment in the United States, on the myths that perpetuate it, and on how to choose a treatment program.

6. Szalavitz, Maia. "Can You Get Over an Addiction?" June 25, 2016. New York Times: Opinion. Accessed April 12, 2017.

An article from someone who was formerly addicted to cocaine and heroin about the changing perception of addiction in the United States and new methods for treatment.

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      Most unlikely 80 minutes ago

      I dnt even know how it all even started, i always liked gambling for fun may be 2-3 times a year for small amounts. That never became an addiction. I am also a big fan of all sports, i watch any sports on TV. Two years ago i came across an online gambling site and started to bet on NBA finals ($20-30) per bet. I won some and ended up losing by the end of the series. I got hooked to sports gambling, next thing i know i lost almost 50k in the last two years most of it is from credit cards. I tried to stop multiple time but ended up playing more. I bet on sports that i dnt know anything about just to have action. And all think about is what will be the odds for next match. Everybody aound me knows i like sports but none of them would believe if i tell them i lost this much on gambling. I have a very normal life with an amazing wige and a 2 year old son and a decent paying jod.

      I dont know how to stop. All i think about is what will be the odds for next game. This is not who i want to be.

      Everyday i tell myself i will play only select games and earn some money back and stop, but even if i win i will play on the sports i shouldnt and lose. I am at my tipping point.

      Hope i will be able to stop and payoff my debts.

      Good luck to the rest of you.

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      goldbar7s 3 days ago

      Please stop trying to win other peoples money. Please be happy with what you have.

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      quitter 4 days ago

      So... Today is day 5 of not gambling. Already it has been tough and nearly slipped again.

      3 days ago I walked past 3 casinos and struggled to "just walk by". I was lucky in a way because I was on the phone to my wife saying I was on the way to meet her for dinner. Then when I got to the shopping centre where I was meeting her I had to walk past another casino... Luckily she called me to ask me where I was.

      Then today... It only takes something very little to trigger the gambler in me... I accidently lost £2 when I paid too much for parking, and I immediately started to think that that would be easy to win back on a bet. So here I am, writing all this down as a way to realise that I need to stop thinking about it and just get on with whatever else I need to be doing other than losing more money!

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      Wendy Golden 5 days ago from New York

      As the adult child of a Compulsive Gambler, I can vouch that this is an excellent article full of wise advice and information. A very thorough job of offering the CG help and advice. Thank you.

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      Fake guy 8 days ago

      Why do we do it to ourselves! I think God is the only answer.

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      Steve1821 9 days ago

      Happened to me today! Betting small and just hoping to win small and 300 gone! 700 last month! Had a guts full! Busted my leg so it's like a escape from that gambling for me

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      larry 9 days ago

      Quitter...look at it this way. You just wrote how a few years ago you lost thousands and thousands of pounds. You now lost "a another few" thousand pounds. STOP NOW! take the loss and realize you will not win it back or continue and lose thousands and thousands more!

      The problem is not that you started again. Its only a problem if you don't stop! Stop now! You've been there before... Good Luck!

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      quitter 10 days ago

      It pains me to be writing on here again. My story from a few years ago about how I had lost thousands and thousands of pounds is on here... And how I had sought help from my wife by owning up to her and gaving her all my credit cards.

      I thought I had kicked the habit and was doing really well, and thought I had sorted myself out. I was even given my cards back. But over the last few months I have started up again, and now I have probably lost another few £1000. I started of with small bets and winning small... And I was okay with that. Then the bets started getting bigger, bigger wins but much bigger losses. This just proves that once a gambler... Always a gambler.

      So this is where I have to start again. I have to, I missed dinner with my family because I was too busy losing £400! I cannot let my wife know I lost control again so this time I am going to be stronger. I know I have said this before, but tomorrow will be day 1 again of my ban from gambling. And I dont care how much I may bore people here... But everytime I think about gambling I'll probably be on here typing something to get me away from that temptation.

      This is take 3 of kicking this habit for good! Wish me luck... Again!

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      videopokerloser 10 days ago

      Sonia, I hope you get caught and spend the rest of your life in prison. Hey, I guess you won't be walking the streets anymore, but you'll be walking a cell block instead. Disgusting of you to post this anywhere, but on a site where people are struggling with gambling? May God have mercy on your soul.

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      Larry 11 days ago

      What a great day today! I went to the casino for Mother's Day and looked the beast in the eye! I walked right to the roulette table...of course all "my numbers" we're coming out! I told myself that I was not a loser and walked out!! I won! Good luck to all!

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      Christopher1985 2 weeks ago

      Larry,

      Without help we are all in trouble. I have a Gamblers Anonymous meeting tonight and I feel that I can finally stop. If you don't go to GA you are telling yourself you want to continue gambling. Start going to meetings. If your gambling has brought you to this site find a way to go to at least one meeting a week. your life will start to change for the better.

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      Larry 2 weeks ago

      Think before you gamble! I got the urge today and then I thought of all those losers that I see...broke! Do you want to be like them? Remember what it feels like to lose! The regret! And you will lose! BE STRONG!!! The urge will pass...that's how you win!!!! Good luck to all!

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      larry 2 weeks ago

      I hate this time of year...Kentucky Derby and a weekend of gambling cost me $10,000. I stop for a while but always go back! I wish I could stop...I know it's a waste of time and money! Good luck to all!

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      Sparkley 2 weeks ago

      I read these post they are2 months old how is everyone doing..i have a slot addiction for years was into horse racing worked at the track now I work at a casino spend way too much on gambling I am 62 years old..and female most of the people I know go to casino I getting bored with it but still having a hard time quitting..help..

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      JohnDoe 3 weeks ago

      I've first started gambling at the tender age of 16, played at a $2 blackjack table and ended up winning $17, which at the time seemed like a lot of money. I've been hooked ever since. I'm 33 now, and have been a degenerate gambler. I go through periods of dry "non-gambling", however, whenever I feel like I need to make money or need a "release" i always fall back to to gambling. It's a sick disease I can't seem to get rid of. I've tried so hard to kick this habit - attended GA once, but after that one session I told myself "I don't need GA to quit, I can do this on my own" after seeing everyone else and judging them, which I had no right to. I just went to the casino and lost a large sum of money, and now feel like shit. I see how this makes me feel, makes me feel isolated from my family and friends. I don't feel like spending time with them, I just want to be alone, I feel like im at the bottom of the barrel. But for whatever reason, I find a way to go back. This feeling of loneliness/depression only lasts for a few days, then when i feel better I get the false "courage/confidence" that I can go back into the casino and lock in a big win. How do I get rid of this feeling? It's become sickly cyclical. Reading these stories below has helped me tremedously at the moment, sharing my/our struggles here help me realize that I'm not the only one. And listening to stories of hope and how you guys are all coping with it gives me the hope to get rid of this habit/disease. Paul said it best, if i had spent the time, energy and effort into to something else, I'd be pretty damn good at it. There's a reason why I'm constantly broke, depressed and isolated, when i look back at my life, the common factor is gambling. I really need to kick this habit, hopefully this time it'll be for good. Thank you all for sharing your stories, every bit helps and gives me hope that we can all get past this. The rush isnt worth the consequences.

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      goldbar7s 4 weeks ago

      Thank you to everyone for your valuable input. It helps all of us.

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      Christopher1985 4 weeks ago

      I finally went GA meeting last night. I think that is the only way for me to get help. I started posting on this board a couple years ago but never stopped gambling.

      I feel that is the first step if you truly wish to stop gambling. I want to keep going and have already received much support and help from the other members.

      I strongly suggest everyone posting here to go to Gamblers Anonymous to really get help. Please don't lie to yourself and just go. You will feel much happier right away.

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      Herman 4 weeks ago

      I read many of the comments here and there is so much I can relate to. Your stories give me strength and make me see that I'm not the only one with this problem.

      I consider myself to be an intelligent person in control of my emotions and actions but when it comes to gambling I have realized that I'm powerless. It started when I turned 18. At first it was poker and sports betting. All of my best friends also bet and played poker so it was no surprise that I took it up as well. At first it was not a problem and I had a strong grip on how much I spent and it was purely entertainment. It all changed a few years later when I turned to slot machines. I won at first and felt like I can play in a controlled way the same way I did playing poker and betting on sports. This changed quickly and I completely lost control. I've never had a lot of money but most of the money that I did make I ended up losing. For me the amount of money I lost was only half of the story, I felt even worse about the time I spent gambling. This was precious time that I could have used to do something to pursue my dreams. I managed to quit it all together for a year or so but now I'm back at it again and the problem is more serious than ever. I'm not lying when I tell you that I've made the decision at least a hundred times to stop and I always slip for one reason or another. For me it's also harder to quit because I work in the gambling industry and I'm constantly in contact with it.

      Now when I gamble I don't go in the casino and think I'm going to win. In fact I prepare myself for losing beforehand. So you think why the hell do I do it then? Because I'm addicted. I've isolated the reasons why I slip but this has not helped me. My brain is so used to making that decision to gamble that I've lost power over it. I have always believed that I can overcome this myself and I don't need outside help but I don't know if that is true anymore.

      Anyway I thought writing this post will help me and I'm inviting everyone who is reading this to make this the first day of the rest of your much improved life without gambling. A life where you are in control of your decisions. The human brain has endless power so I believe I can stop and so can everybody else. I'm still hopeful regardless of everything.

      The only bet that will change your life is the one that you do not make!

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      Andy 4 weeks ago

      I just lost 700$ in machine. Now can't sleep!

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      goldbar7s 5 weeks ago

      It is so sad to see all the old people in the casino spending all their money and they have no other life but the casino. It is so sad to see 20 year old people in the casino that are just starting their addiction into this nightmare. This is SICK!!

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      stevex36x 6 weeks ago

      i am laying in bed sick right now as i lost 700 yestreday and all from just wanting to make a silly tenner! i got accept that i have no control over gambling and i am powerless to it!

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      Eduardo Nunez 6 weeks ago

      Hi everyone, my weakness is sports. I tell my self everyday I don't have a problem then come's the end of the day and I hate myself all over again. I know I can stop this, but I chose not too. Every night I make a parlay of games that I will play the following day and so help me if it wins and I didn't play them, that feeling is worse then losing. I've recently been good where I'll go 3 or four days in a row without gambling but I'm still making these secret parlays without playing them. I have the habit of justifying the parlays that I don't play and that end up losing and using it as a way to convince myself to play one the next day or weekend. If I lose a bet I try to trick myself in making that money back in depriving myself of something I may need such as food, drink or entertainment. I realize my problem is minuscule in the grand scheme of everything but it makes me hate myself that I have this weakness. I pray for anyone who struggles with gambling and know I understand. Stay committed and focused.

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      stevex36x 7 weeks ago

      stay strong everyone and remember this illness is for life!!

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      nobody 7 weeks ago

      hi, just wanted to say i get my inspiration to stop by reading these comments every day as i can relate to most of these comments,thank you and good luck everyone

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      GoldBar7s 2 months ago

      Have not been going to the casino. I have been going to the library and have been catching up on reading. On my days off I go to see a movie. It is VERY, VERY boring compared to going to the Casino but at the same time it is nice and I wake up with my money intact. I guess this is how life is. It is a little boring and you have to think of constructive ways of spending your time. I completely forgot that when the Casino came to town. Sitting at the slot machine and putting my money in it was the only thing I wanted to do.

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      Paul 2 months ago

      Losing

      Wining

      ,tell me the difference ,you don't care about the money you don't care about the people you hurt ,is, just you and that filling, no body push you but friends, family try to stop you which is wrong, all the time they they will remind you "you are a loser" change your friends and run, change your life

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      Joanne x 2 months ago

      It's like hell on earth living with a gambler. Gambling is their best friend when they're sad it's there for them when they're happy it's there.. You can't fight it, they destroy everyone slowly and painfully without a second thought. I hit rock bottom way before he did and believed I was fine with tje lies stealing and cheating, even though if told him a million times I wasn't. After losing $350,000+ I couldn't go on, even when he said that was it he'd never gamble again because he'd been saying that for 11 years. I now live in my car as he's financially ruined me but I think the emotional side of it is something that will follow me forever. I don't believe or trust anyone and I hate that

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      videopokerloser 2 months ago

      I used to be a sick gambler and posted my setbacks and progress many times on this list over the years. What broke the pattern for me was one-on-one therapy, but last week, I had a coupon for a restaurant that was in a casino. Even though I felt anxiety, I put $20 in a machine and lost it. I went to the ATM three times before I left and lost all of that as well. I was so devastated I wasn't "cured" I didn't eat at the restaurant. Did I feel stupid? Yes. Am I stupid? No! My point is, you can never let your guard down. It's the same with an alcoholic thinking I'll just only have one drink. You can't. I've since went back to college to get my master's degree in social work and am taking a class on addiction. Unfortunately, research has shown if you started some kind of addictive behavior (which I have-smoking) before reaching the age of 18, you have a 25-50% chance of becoming an addictive adult to something. The reward pathway genes (DNA) were altered. So don't beat yourself up too bad. Gambling addiction is a disease like any other. It's a brain dysfunction, not a free will issue. Get help if you can. It's hard to walk into that door the first time, but it will help you get your self esteem back and understand yourself more. God bless each and every one of you!

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      JD 2 months ago

      This disease is destroying us ALL. We ALL say we're gonna stop and quit but it seems that in the end without outside help from experts (counseling) we're ALL gonna go right back to gambling eventually. Please Lord help us ALL.

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      Edward 2 months ago

      Hello we everyone so I just found this blog yesterday and read almost every message. My name is Edward and I'm a compulsive gambler and have been since I was 15, I am now 38. The last couple years I haven't bet but and saved around 20k and had no debt. I moved to Las Vegas recently and started betting again. It's so easy here. My game of choice is sports betting. Had a lot on the super bowl and the Falcons imploded and ever since then lost my winnings back. I have about 7k saved still n no debt so I'm not in bad shape but it's still so depressing. Today is my 1st day of a new life being bet free. Is anyone still on this blog?

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      Kristi 2 months ago

      I was a perfect housewife who had an amazing husband who always took care of me financially. Thank GOD he is still my rock and support system, but I know that he will not put up with the addiction for much longer. I have been an avid gambler for 5 years now. We have had to file bacruptcy because of this addiction and I am still doing it. I dream about gambling, I find myself hearing the machines or even smelling the casino air. It's as if it is always on my mind. I can't even begin to tell you how much I have lost over the years, but I am guessing around 300,000. Last night I went and over drafted my account by 2,000. I refuse to live like this anymore. I refuse to let this disease ruin my life. I know it's not going to be easy, but from here on out I am finishe'd with this situation.

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      patagonia13 3 months ago

      Gambling has destroyed my life in many ways and I have thought about suicide many times . I emigrated to Argentina hoping to get away from my gambling habit but if followed me here as well as gambling never leaves you as is a dark and ominous force always there to attack you . I grew up in Australia to a very hard working migrant family who had very high hopes for me . Due to many unresolved issues when I was a young man confused about my sexuality I started to gamble . This was my way to escape and at the beginning it was a very fun and intoxicating drug . I remember the Sydney Star Casino ( the temporary one) that got me hooked initially and my game of choice was blackjack, roulette, and the big wheel . I remember losing everything there including all my self respect and the support of my family who gave up on me due to them seeing me time and time again falling in the same trap . I left Sydney for smaller city of Australia and there my gambling continued but this time on poker machines that got me even more hooked than table games . At the beginning in this new city I won US$ 20,000 from an unemployment cheque but over time as we all do this was whittled down to nothing and my life was a continuos charade of finding money to gamble with to be able to relive the high of those big wins . Our minds get tricked and it does not matter how intelligent or what background we are this disease strikes each person in a similar pattern. My next move was to Argentina which I foolishly believed would be my nirvana but the capital city Buenos Aires has a casino the hipodromo that puts las vegas to shame with over 5000 poker machines . This became my newest addiction and I lost very badly in my first year here . But there were glimmers of good news and I built up in the meantime a successful business and made serious money giving me a comfortable lifestyle . Still this terrible addiction has it waves of madness and just the last months I have lost much more money than I can afford to lose . I do have flashes of lucidity about this habit and believe that we as humans are spiritually empty and we are conditioned to worship money and this feeds in the habit of gambling which creates untold misery to us all . What I have learnt though is that when I am in nature at its finest away from gambling influences in a remote town of Patagonia this creates a better situation for me and calms my mind and anxieties tremendously . Nature is a beautiful natural drug and once inmersed in it has a incredible healing force. Today I am in in the capital Buenos Aires a city that combines beauty with anxiety wrapped up with a very relaxed attitude about gambling . If gambling was illegal and there were no poker machines how many of us would really gamble ? The figures show clearly that gambling profileration creates gambling problems . For example Western Australians lose 7 times per person less than a New South Welshmen due to the severe restriction on gambling in that state. People need to be able to enjoy a night out without all these negative influences around them . Anyways I am on day one on no gambling again and will aim to never gamble ever again . I have lost a fortune on gambling but know that I will never get it back I have accepted this but my health problems from this insiduous habit are still with me today and I am hoping that they improve with time

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      Sam 3 months ago

      Please God HELP ME

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      stevex36x 3 months ago

      done it again and not gambling for 3 months and tried this week and won about 300 and then lost my head today as i bet a horse called mr mix and it went clear and fell 2 out to win me over a 1000! done about 1150 in the end! i hate this feeling and laying in bed now so depressed! no job and no life! i,am better off dead!

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      NO WAY!!! I work hard for it 3 months ago

      Thanks to all that shared their story. This is the first step to my recovery and with everyone's help, I will get through this.

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      GoldBar7s 3 months ago

      For most other people that visit the Casino there is a good and easy source of income coming in that keep them coming into the casino and their life is still comfortable and they have no fear. Sooner or later the easy source of income runs out and they don't know what hit them. There is no more money and they cannot gamble anymore. It is such a shock to realize what they have been doing and how much they have lost. This is so cruel.

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      GoldBar7s 3 months ago

      Kevin, I loved reading about your trip to Las Vegas.

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      GoldBar7s 3 months ago

      Glad to hear some of you are doing well. Good luck to the people that are still struggling.

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      Fredson29 3 months ago

      After 7 good days of not gambling, I slipped again today and lost $280 at the casino. I'll get there I promise I'll get there.

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      Anonymous 3 months ago

      You are not alone! So many like us...... but there's HOPE! Depends on you if want to change or not! Life is good my friends ..... don't let gambling destroy your life... pls. STOP!

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      Kevin 3 months ago

      I went to Las Vegas again. I arrived Wednesday January 11 and left Tuesday January 17. I lost a total of $50 gambling. Like the last several trips, gambling was not the highlight of my trip. Meeting my semi girlfriend that lives there was. Thursday we went to Joker's Wild for $1 craps. Then we went to Buffet Asia. Friday she came up to my room at the Longhorn to look at the internet on my new RCA laptop/tablet (yes, I finally got one! No more going to the library in Las Vegas!). I played some of my favorite music on Youtube. I snuggled up to her during this. Then we went to the buffet at Sam's Town. Monday was the real highlight. I stay downtown at the Fremont the last night so I am near the Greyhound station to leave the next morning. She went with me there. Then we went to the seafood buffet at the Rio. We were there for 5 hours talking and eating. Then she went back with me to the Fremont. She stayed the night! We slept together.......literally. That's right, no sex. She offered to, but I declined because of my fundamentalist religious beliefs. We slept in the same bed snuggled up to each other. This might not mean much to most guys, but it was awesome for me. Words can't describe how I felt at the time or how I feel thinking about it now. I don't think the emotional intensity could have been any higher if we had gone all the way. I hope we repeat this when I go back in May.

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      Fredson29 3 months ago

      Only yesterday I said I wasn't going back into it and here we go just a few hours later here I'm sitting in my bed having just lost $500. I'm feeling really disgusted with myself. It happens so quickly, I just wish I could quit it's so hard people it's just so hard.

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      Fredson29 3 months ago

      I really don't know how I got into this gambling mess, I want my life back please oooh lord help me help us. When I started gambling 8 years ago, there was no real alarm as I was putting just a bet here and there on sports, but 4 years ago on a weekend night out, I went to a bar at the casino and from there I got close to a blackjack table, I didn't know how to play, I saw others playing then I decided I'd place a bet then I kept winning and made about $10000 that night and I thought I was blessed to have found a great source of income, oooh man ooh man was I wrong? My life's just been misery for the past 4 years, I have lost over $200000 in gambling and I just don't know how to stop and I have tried, my girlfriend has helped me as much as she could and I ended up losing her. I lost all my friends because of this habit. Not only I'm lonely, I also feel like shit. I have credit card debts that just makes me wanna gamble more. Every time I say okay I quit, it usually only last a couple of days then back into it, all my work incomes never last a week. I'm so screwed it's just scary, I spend days in the casino only to be broke when I'm out of there. I just lie to everyone, it's so creepy, at 36 years old i Just comprehend this behavior. This gambling thing is worse than cancer, I really want to quit but feels like I'd never quit and it makes me want to shoot myself in the head. Little by little im feeling like mental illness is coming too omg not mental illness please Jesus help me I'm just helpless.

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      Subhas S Mudenur 3 months ago

      How to get lucky in playing cards in Kannada

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      stevex36x 3 months ago

      stay strong everyone! i messed up a few times but nothing major as i cut out access to my money.

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      Christopher1985 4 months ago

      It's been a while since I have been on here. There is no hope in just betting a little, betting for fun, or betting to make a living. I got back into betting after I told myself I was going to stop and could not control it. Over the course of a few months I would deposit $1000 and get my balance to over $25,000 on separate occasions but somehow ended up losing it. It would seem like making that much would be sufficient enough to stop or slow down but it wasn't. I've told myself many times I need to stop but don't think I have a choice now. If I stop now I still have a chance to succeed and raise a family. I don't know, maybe the taste of winning a large sum like $100,000 would of made me think I could go on winning for the rest of my life and continually have additional income but one bad run could lose you everything plus everything you have saved in no time. Stories on the internet like Vegas Dave, people who have accomplished nothing with their lives but somehow make a very comfortable living by betting make it seem possible but has to be less than 1%.

      I am hoping I can focus on my future and concentrate on my career and being a productive member of society. Hate that I lost so much but we all make mistakes and need to delete gambling from my mind.

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      looseruser 4 months ago

      Hi everyone ! I am a slot machine gambler and these days I ve lost as well 300£ as usual. Every time when I go there I have these devil's confidence that I will double it and recover a bit from my total loss, but when I got out of there I felt like wanna cry f****n betting shops are everywhere. In the last 2 3 years I ve lost like couple of thousands..lost the count..and from now on a promise myself to win this time and to not step into this damn trap anymore because I cannot concentrate on my work anymore and all I think is how to recover back some money and what lie to tell my future wife this time. I feel disgusting and ashamed..

      Thanks for your stories ladies and gentleman, I've read them and gave me the power to write here. God bless you !!

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      No Gambling 4 months ago

      Need to stop gambling. You will lose everything that life has to offer. Job, family, wife, friends, kids even. I make 6 figures but I always broke. We all need to get rid of this demon within ourselves. Best to us all. Cheers !!

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      Paul. 4 months ago

      Hi all,

      I used to bet a lot on horse racing then moved over to poker. Whatever you decide to gamble on will never work. I am due to get married next month and my wife doesn't realise I have spent all out money. I believed I was an amazing poker player. I lost £7500 in last 3 months and I'm now broke. 3500 was my fiance's and she doesn't know the man she is marrying. I have a very poor family and I am the smartest one that's earns the most money, I earn £3000 a month before tax, I never paid my mum a penny towards rent. My mum took an overdose when I left the house last week as she could not bare it anymore and I was too selfish to care about others. Lucky enough I caught her as I returned earlier than expected to find a good bye note, you don't realise it affects others also. And let me tell you all a fact from someone who use to beat the bookies! If you win they ban you! Or say maximum bet £25! I had a system where I could not lose horse information where they would always fall in price so I would have 1000 at 4-1 and sell it on betfair at 2-1! So they banned me from every bookmakers in UK. It's corrupt. And also jockeys lose on purpose because they back them self to lose. And horse whispers! Paid by bookmakers for someone to spread the news about a horse! Guess what it's a donkey. You can not win. Roulette 36/1 lie! 37-1 as 0. Red black 50 50 lie 48% 0! Any gambling only has to have a 1% advantage and science! They can't lose. If you put as much focus on your dream as you do gambling you will be the happiest person alive. Next time you go to gamble look at the lonely broke people in there! Don't let that be you. I hope you all the best and taking your life is not worth it for money. Wake up and say fuck the bookies, casino. Gambling. I'm going to save, and enjoy my life with nice clothes,meals, holidays and treat me partner. Good luck all

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      Starboy 4 months ago

      I fkn hate gambling i always go online with a certain amount that i am going to get to and then take the money out. I often reach my goal but somehow almost never end up taking the money out, and instead lose it all... I have a creditcard which gets maxed every month because of betting.

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      Ben USA 4 months ago

      No life in gambling.... it's a big mess!

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      GoldBar7s 4 months ago

      Please try the Notebook that I mentioned. Read every word of it. It WILL change the way you think about gambling.

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      Eze-Ben 4 months ago

      I have been gambling since last Ten years and is affecting me a lot I need all means that will make me to stop gambling.

      there are some weeks I used to spend more than 500.000cfa,but I don't get up to that in a week as my income, is trying to rule my life please I need help.

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      GoldBar7s 4 months ago

      There is a good Workbook that you can do by yourself. I read it through and I think it is going to help me stop. Here is the link: https://www.problemgambling.ca/EN/GettingHelp/Page...

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      Your Mom 5 months ago

      Just double down

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      goldbar7s 5 months ago

      My prayers are with all of you that are struggling with this addiction. I thank all of you for your input. It is very valuable to all of us.

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      Lori 5 months ago

      Just wanted to say thank you. Your posts give me strength and hope.

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      Jim 5 months ago

      I always feel I can get over it and spend a month or a few months away but then, something triggers the urge to go and gamble and I have not limit, especially online. I have been taking all sorts of notes from these posts and hope to be able to identify my triggers, isolate them and put a stop to gambling forever. Great site, governments should be doing more to control and assist but they profit from us gamblers.

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      Devin 6 months ago

      I'm only 30 I have a 10 yr old daughter.. I have a really bad gambling problem I don't know how to STOP.. I just think about it all the time everyday.. I'm spending 200 a day that's 1000 a week in gambling.. I'm in so much debt I can't think i just want to give up on LIFE.. it's that bad I'm just a major disappointment to myself and my child.. I wish I NEVER started gambling and now I can't quit or at least don't know how to.. I know I'm tired of pawing and borrowing and spending my paycheck and now my lights are going off and that's my fault..

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      Jamie 6 months ago

      It's had me for the last 18 years, was introduced to it at a young age sitting in front of the slots with my parents. At home with a ticket watching the races to keep me busy at 11-13 whilst parents were out boozing. Now 36 and have racked up some serious debt because of my problem. Have had the odd break of 4-10 weeks and then get back on it like a smoke and hit the horses and sports harder.

      I have a good job and a fukn wicked wife and kids, but what an earth am I doing to them. I am stealing their livelihood, their money, their future.

      I am really bored where I live and my friends live at opposite ends of the country and I know that doesn't help me when I'm bored or lonely I gamble.

      This week I've blown 5grand (ouch). I need to stop I don't want to because of my situation, but I must if I want to carry on my life with my kids and my wife.

      Up ur bum u horrible beast. I appreciate any reply.

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      john 6 months ago

      Gambling has ruined my life

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      eddie 6 months ago

      i m relating my stories with sharon, i have also an autistic kid and it so hard that gambling makes it to be the comfort zone for me, but at the end of the day, it s give not only me but my whole family more problems. today, i have to sell my car again to cover all the financial problems that i have, i just lost 2500$ canadian dollar last two nights in the casino. i feel like a zombie when i went out from the stablishments not knowing what to do. now, i am home thinking of what another job i can find to help the family and my wife dream to have a house with a swimming pool because the only thing that makes my autistic child happy is water (swimming) i hope that someday i can achieve my dream for him. i was so stupid, i stopped gambling last 8 months ago, and i was able to save more than 4,000$ and i was planning to add it to a down payment for a house next year but all of a sudden in just 2 nights, the dream collapsed. i feel so deppress and guilty of what i have done. god pls help me and all the people here who are really struggling to stop this really deadly habit. god bless everyone.

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      eddie 7 months ago

      hello guys. i m here to say that i have a bad news. i had a relapse, i was 2 days in the casino, lot everything that i saved from the time that i stop. it s just so unstoppable habit, i m so weak.

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      Seekingfreedom 7 months ago

      I've gambled for the past 5 years. My story is similar to all the others. I relate to the shame and hopelessness of everyone. I'm tired of feeling stupid all the time and being a loser. I need help. I pray and do ok for a while and then back at losing everything and more. I can't live like this anymore. Please share how to stop!!!

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      Lilia 7 months ago

      Hi everyone, I read each and single comment of yours and everything is so familiar to me. I strated from casinos 6 years ago and lost like EUR 50K. but has been 2 years I quite casino, but still playing sproting bets live games.Games, that I dont know anything about.

      As soon as I get my salary, after few hours its gone, already for some months.

      Also every year end I get a nice bonus from company, which is already 5 years I spent in full on gambling.

      I enjoy so much to gamble, i think nothing can help me to come over it, but i will do my best.

      I opened also a store 3 months ago, made sales of 20K and all is gone. At the end of the day I feel like I am working for nothing. Lets stop this awful habbit and addiction. we have to be strong guys!

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      Jojo 7 months ago

      Hi I'm a compulsive gambler I play online and bookmakers. I can't seem to control my self when I'm playing the slot machine ..but tonight I told myself enough is enough

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      goldbar7s 7 months ago

      Ryan, such a heartbreaking story. When we are gambling heavily we don't see what is coming until it is too late. Most of of us that turn to this site is already in big trouble. This pass time is so evil.

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      ryan 7 months ago

      I read most stories, here is mine;

      I have been Gambling for over a decade. I have a very succesfull small business, but since I started gambling it spiraled out of control. Today after 13 years of hard work selling about half a million dollars a year I am in debt. I spent everything in the Casino slot machines. More than 1 million dollars. I am lucky to get a great job based on my experience but such a pitty instead of being a wealthy today I am broke and in debt. I wish I can go back 10 years in time and never have entered a casino. I just gabled 300$ tonight again on slot machine, and today I decided to quit. I know it is hard, but I believe that I am going to make it! I hid my storie for 10 years but this is the first time I spoke about it. God will see me through. Thank you all for sharing. I know we can do it together. God bless us all with strength to resist the temptation of gambling.

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      goldbar7s 7 months ago

      Ppppp, Please STOP!

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      Manji I'm sorry for your pain same boat some of us are in. I have managed to stay away for a few days. I'm still sad but praying I can stay gamble free again tomorrow.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      Thank you so much you have no idea what that means to me. I didn't write in a comment yesterday it was for a really good reason I got busy with my kids. It's right not gambling it is actually my kids and school.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Mangi, sorry to hear about your losses. Best of luck to you for a wonderful recovery.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Deep sadness, we are all in support of you overcoming your current problems.

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      Mangi 8 months ago

      My name is Mangi. I have just lost R18K last night gambling which is my whole salary, I haven't even paid my debts for the month. My ex husband introduced me to gambling 16 years ago and I just haven't been able to kick the habit. I am a compulsive gambler, I writing this solemnly swearing to never go back. I have lost over a million rands in the past few years feeding those slots machines and probably only won R100K of my own money back, God how ridiculous that sounds. I have lost two houses, cars and a marriage over this. Its time to let go of the past and start building a brighter future for myself and my kids. Actually typing this out has made me realize that there is life after gambling and I need to take back my life.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      Thanks you guys.....I have no one to talk to at all.....I tell Nobody that I do this. I already hit rock bottom and I'm trying to climb up from this hole I dug so deep. I'm reaching out through here for a rope line.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      I live in Pennsylvania and there is only one Casino in this area that has become the gem of the city and it is the center of attention for many,many people. People that don't gamble call it THAT BLACK HOLE. It must be very hard to live in Las Vegas and keep yourself separated from the gambling industry. I see the pain many people must be in.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Deep sadness, I wish you the best.

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      videopokerloser 8 months ago

      Hi Deep Sadness: I tried to comment on your post yesterday but it limited me to one post, so didn't mean to ignore you. I live in Las Vegas too and know all about the temptations, but again, seeing people so fallen and drained such as the woman I mentioned started to affect me. I saw it almost every day...someone in distress, and me as well. I hope you have someone you love and trust to talk to. I had my daughters who were very compassionate towards my problem. My son? Absolutely not. He berated me if I talked about money I'd lost and my counselor advised me not to discuss anything with him again. It's important to have a support system - even if it's one person. It will make a difference, and again, I hope you have someone you can reach out to.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Videopokerloser and Deep sadness, thank you for the support and advice.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      I have to try that video poker loser that is sounds like really good advice. So sad about that woman who lost the mortgage payment. I have been there before in the same position

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      videopokerloser 8 months ago

      Goldbar, pay your bills first. If you smoke, buy a carton of cigarettes, not a pack. Pay a bill that isn't even due yet. That's what I started to do and it works to limit the amount you can gamble and keep yourself safe. I'll never forget sitting next to a woman that was throwing hundreds furiously into a losing machine at the Palms casino, lost it all - $1400 I think she told me, and she said it was her mortgage payment. I'll never forget the tears she cried asking me how she was going to tell her husband. Sickening.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      Goldbar resist the temptation it will be better. You have to be strong today. You can do it. Let me know how I can help you. Let's talk ok. I'm just the lady in las vegas trying to help and be a friend...9/23/16.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Getting paid today. I am already thinking that I would like to make it to the casino this week-end. Hope I can fight off this thought.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      I made it day 3 done....how are you doing havelostitall videopokerloser and sharon......everyone really that stays connected. Your posting keep me motivated to stay focused. I need all of you. I am feeling better with 3 days of no gambling or smoking I might add. I still have the deep sadness because I have hurt my family my loved ones....how could I? How dare me. I will continue trying though.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      Hope you are doing better Steve. You inspire me please stay strong.....the day is young so I'm not counting it as day 3 yet....but today my urge of gambling is less than yesterday. Is everyone ok today? Let's make it a gamble free day! 9/22/16. I don't think I mention before but I do live in las vegas it's so hard to steer clear from machines to gamble with because they are everywhere.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      Thanks for your understanding goldbar....I read all posts I'm up to date....some of you I feel like I know for years just reading your comments....this is literally day 2 of being gambling free. I know it's not much but it feels so big to me....we need to stay positive and strong.....I really don't want to hate myself, I wish to learn to love me.....today 9/21/16.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      We all have to try to be responsible and stop gambling.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Steve, we all see the pain you are in from this horrible affliction. We pray that you can come to a peaceful resolution.

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      stevex36x 8 months ago

      It's is the answer Goldbar! You just not reached that stage yet were it as affected you so bad! Depression, sudcide thoughts, sleepless nights! The list goes on! I hope you don,t reach this stage! So give now before you do!

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Getting rid of the bookies and casinos is not the answer. We have to be responsible.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Deep sadness, sorry to hear of your struggle with gambling. Good luck to you.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      I'm still reading posts from 2 years ago.....feels so good to realize I'm not alone. I am taking this one day at a time. When the word gambling pops into my head.....I'm saying "no". I pray to be able to continue this is only been day 1 complete.

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      Deep sadness 8 months ago

      Today will be day one for me.....I will not kill myself that's for sure. However I will take control of my decisions. I am seeking help in a group support. I feel like with support I will succeed. This gambling has taken enough from me and the buck stops here.

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      stevex36x 8 months ago

      The only way to get rid of all these bookies is just make bombs and and put Them in the bookies to blow the satanic places up! God would be happy you destroyed these satanic buildings! It’s the only way to stop it! After a few shops are blown up then I think the bookies will close them all down as they know they will be bombed down! Wake up people and fight against satan! Are you on gods side who want them destroyed or Satan side who would want them to stay open! Wake up people and let’s do gods work and be rewarded and save loads of innocent life’s!

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      stevex36x 8 months ago

      I lost about 3 grand this last month! Wish I only lost 200

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      videopokerloser 8 months ago

      Sharon, as a mother myself, I feel for you deeply. I can imagine your days with an autistic child and can see how online gambling could get a grip on you as a coping mechanism. Until recently, online gambling was illegal in Nevada where I live; otherwise, it might have gotten its hooks into me too, but then again, I craved the excitement of the casino environment. I watched a special show about it a few years ago on 20/20, a tv show here in the states. People have lost everything including their homes with online gambling. Such a terrible thing to allow from our governments. All I can suggest is to go on YouTube and watch some videos about online gambling before you go into one of those online casinos. It might make you think twice. Is there a support group you could join - online or in person, for people coping with autistic children? It sounds to me that gambling is an easy way to get your mind off of your daily challenges. My problem with gambling was boredom too and coping with my kids leaving the house for college or just getting out on their own. I lost myself, my identity without my kids and resorted to gambling. Gambling is so easy, part of the reason it's so successful.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Sharon. Sorry to hear about the problem you have been having with gambling. I have been using this forum to help me. When I get the desire to gamble I check into this forum and write about it. It has been helping me. Reading the postings from others has also been helping me.

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      Sharon 8 months ago

      Hi everyone, wow my eyes have been opened reading some of the comments on here. I too, obviously, have a gambling problem. I'm in debt up to my eyeballs (currently setting up an IVA), and yet I still keep doing it. Not thousands, but a couple of hundred at a time. Being a self-employed lady I don't have that money spare.

      I have an amazing husband, and two beautiful girls, but one is autistic and violent, and it's very very hard. Not an excuse to gamble, but just hard. As I work from home using a computer it's just so easy to switch to an online site, and spend. I crave the buzz of winning big. I once won 3.5k and I'm desperate to hit that again - money would solve so many of my problems, yet if I just stopped gambling I'd have more money anyway - go figure.

      It's the slots I am addicted to, I don't even watch the reels spin anymore, just look to see how much I've won if I've won any, desperately waiting for that bonus to appear to give me hundreds, which of course very rarely happens. Then I'm chasing my losses.

      Today I have spent £200, this was money my mother lent me in order to pay my brother back for money I owe him. She asked me not to gamble it (she knows about my addiction, she has had the same thing) and I promised her I wouldn't. Can you imaging just how awful and guilty I feel now? I will have to lie to her, because it would break her heart.

      I don't understand why I can't just stop, just not play, I tell myself that's what I'll do but then I'm sat at the computer, on my own, with a bit of cash in the bank and off I go. It'll start with £20, then another £30, then hell, I've spent £50 I may as well spend another £50 to make it £100 and try to earn it back! But I don't. Then I'm left sat thinking of what I could have spent that money on, gifts for the girls, new clothes for my husband, and I completely hate myself.

      I will spend the rest of today feeling vile about what I've spent, I probably won't sleep well tonight. And for what. Ten minutes of pressing a button.

      If anyone has any tips, please offer them. I've looked at downloading 'free' gambling block programmes but they never seem to work. I've tried cancelling my debit card but you can pay by paypal, bank transfer or even just phone and deposit, so there's always a way round. I've excluded myself, put deposit limits on, but with so many new sites coming out every day there's just no end to it.

      I hate myself, so so much

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      freeme 8 months ago

      @videopokerloser- please stay on (if it doesn't hinder you to do so) I appreciate your input. It is so refreshing to hear success stories. Thanks to all who are paying it forward with ideas that have / are working. I appreciate your efforts.

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      videopokerloser 8 months ago

      Here is a post I wrote 15 months ago. Hope it helps someone.

      This list has been real quiet lately, so thought I'd post my progress. I haven't stopped gambling completely, but the amount I've spent this year has gone way down. I lay in bed one night and thought that all of my dreams would have come true if I had never gambled in my life. Every single dream I have would be possible today if I never touched a slot machine, so I decided to see a counselor. Lately, I just go into a casino and pick a person or people to watch discreetly. Just about every time, I'll see them win then lose everything, then throw another hundred or two or a twenty or their last dollar in the machine until they're scraping their purses or pockets for more money or heading for the ATM. One night I watched a man throw $5,000 into a machine after losing the $1200 he'd won betting $100 a hand on video poker - last year I saw the same thing happen but it was $10,000 the man lost. That person used to be me - I had the same pattern, and I find most other people have the same pattern as well. You win, you lose it all, then you chase your losses. You get greedy after that win thinking you can win more...that's just human nature that the casinos build their bank on. It's rare to see someone winning and winning, and I live in Las Vegas with plenty of casinos to choose from and do this just about every day as part of my therapy.

      I take no money with me or my ATM card. It doesn't work overnight. It's hard and tempting and has taken 3 months to get me to the point I am now. You have to try this right after you've lost a lot of money and then force yourself to go to a casino broke and downtrodden. Then just sit and watch. You'll see that you're not the only loser or just a loser...anyone that gambles is a loser eventually. If this helps one person, that's my only wish. But again, I haven't beat it completely. Free slot play tempts me, even though it's gotten less and less the casinos send me which turns out is a blessing. Counseling really helps because it holds you accountable, especially if you can't tell friends and family about it and are hiding it. According to my counselor, gambling addiction has become rampant with casinos everywhere now but there's more mental health experts out there to help you, and if you have health insurance, chances are it will pay for it. Just hoping this helps someone.

      MD1982 15 months ago

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Videopokerloser, I appreciate your advice and explaining what you have learned from your experience. I hope you stay on,

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      videopokerloser 8 months ago

      Didn't mean to offend, Stevex, and yes, I was a sick compulsive gambler but you can't just tell yourself that it's the hardest thing to beat because you're then defeated already before you even try! To stop gambling, you have to change, and that's the hardest thing for people to do. Once you start changing your routine, stop giving in to impulses or do something else instead, you'll be on the right path. That's all I'm saying, just change up a little. If you read my posts from the last 3 1/2 years, you'll see how bad a gambler I was. I think I'll just delete this site because I stayed on for reinforcement to remind me of what it was like when I gambled. I really don't need it anymore...just wanted to lend some support to others. :) You can beat it. Gambling affects your mind. When you change up your decisions, it can start healing. That's all.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Stevex36x, we are all praying that you stop. Please STOP.

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      stevex36x 8 months ago

      Well I think it for sure a VERY hard addiction to break video poker loser! Maybe you never been a compulsive gambler and i understand it's hard for you to understand the stress, aniexy, sleepless nights, sucide thoughts! And worst of all hurting the people you love so much! Believe please my friend this is a serious evil spirit controlling addiction and I hope to god you don,t start back up and see I was right! Just don,t ever place a bet and you will live a much better life!

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      videopokerloser 8 months ago

      I disagree, Steve. It's not the hardest addiction to break. IMO, smoking is, but putting my two cents in here from someone who no longer gambles, you can't passively sit by and wait for it to go away. It won't! Something drastic in your life has to happen in order to begin to stop. Alex, you obviously have a good job or income that enables you to blow that kind of money. Pay all of your bills - even if they're not due yet. Limit your income somehow. Slowly, very slowly, you'll start noticing an improvement in your life. It will change your thoughts about money. You'll start to think twice about gambling, then three times then four. You have to get on the right path somehow, whatever works in your situation. Yes, I felt the evil too when I was gambling even though I'd sit there praying to God to win my money back, and 9 times out of 10 I'd still lose. I'd hear the laughter in my head. No, I'm not crazy, but regardless of your faith if you have one, something bad is going on. Whether that "voice" is coming from your own mind or something external, it's real and you're likely going to lose. You'll make mistakes. You'll panic. You'll run to the ATM until you're out of cash. The bottom line is, get control of that voice because it can lead you down that right path or it can lead you the wrong way. There's a very intelligent and rational person still inside of you. Get control of that voice and you can stop gambling.

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      stevex36x 8 months ago

      It's Defo a evil force Alex!! Everyone I know with other different addictions said this is the hardest one to break!

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      alex 8 months ago

      i want to stop gambling.

      I realize it is affecting me and my family. i feel like some evil spirit controls me against my decisions when i am at casino. So many time i told myself i will play conservative and will not put more than $300 each hand, next thing i know i am betting $1000-$3000 a hand playing 3-5 hands at the same time at blackjack table and my winnings become losses right away.

      O God please free us from evil spirits in the name of Jesus

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Christopher1985, you are right. You can refuse to go to the casino. You can stay away for months. In one moment of weakness you can lose it all, all over again. This is what I have done several times. I am going to try to stay very alert to making this mistake again.

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      Michael 8 months ago

      Hi, sorry for my English is not my language. I've been a gambler for 35 years, trying to win money in casinos losing millions, divorced 4 times because impossible to live with a gambler.

      I can enjoy a few drinks of alcohol and stop, but no matter how much money I win I will not stop gambling exactly like alcoholics cannot stop drinking. The only way to survive for alcoholics not to have even one drink and for gamblers not to make even one bet. Casinos cannot be closed because most of people going on vacation to casinos ones a year are not addicted to gambling, I would not want to close pubs because I am not addicted to alcohol. It's just a sad story of my life to always look for money to support this horrible diseases. Congratulations to those people who were able to quit gambling!

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      stevex36x 8 months ago

      I been coming off here for the last 2 years and I give up for a while and I saw a mate who said he got a system on the horses so I was doing it and making 50 or so a day then I just gamble on other things! Yestreday I lost almost 2000! I,am laying in bed feeling so sick and feel like killing myself

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Knowledge IS power. Learning about addictive gambling and what drives it can be a great help.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      It is Labor Day and I have the whole day and night off from work. I thought many times about the casino but I did not go. I have been reading about gambling. I read that people with gambling addiction want something for nothing. They want money without putting the effort into earning it. I have to admit that that I am guilty of this. I DO work 2 jobs and I do very well but at the end of the week I want more money. I want more money than I am really worth. I see this aspect of my personality will lead to my destruction. I have to be satisfied with what I am worth like most other people.

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Havelostitall, a very, very sad and heartbreaking story. I hop you can stop.

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      Havelostitall 8 months ago

      Hi all, I am new to this site. I am really at the end of my rope. I have had a bad gambling problem for years. I've been gambling since I was 21 I am not 48. I have lost so much money with in this time frame, I would say about 10,000 a year :( I think about everything that I could have had if I never became addicted to gambling. I have now not only lost all my checking and savings account I have lost my children's savings account. She had just graduated from high school and had 5,000 in her account and I have lost it. I feel absolutely terrible about doing this to her, I'm not really sure that she knows about it yet because she is now gone to college and doesn't have access to it. I gambled away my oldest daughters savings account many years ago, 1,600. I have lost count on my middle daughters account which she really needed for college. I really thought that if I went to the casino I could win it back and put it back in there accounts (as I have won before) but now I've lost it all! I have been a single mom for many years and have struggled financially. But had I not gotten addicted I would be fine and able to help my children with their college expenses. I am such a selfish person because of my gambling. I look back on the years that my children were young and how I should have been there for them and enjoyed those years but where did I spend my free time..........in the damn casino......shame on me because I will now never get that time back ever! Just like I need to come to the understanding that I will NEVER get the money back I have lost. I have tried staying out of the casino many times but I just get sucked back into it because I get bored and when I get bored my brain starting thinking about gambling, mind you I live within walking distance of a casino. I hate going there and losing everything I have, I wish I could stop, I want to stop so badly, I want my life back, I want to be able to enjoy life again. I use to golf and visit with family but now I have so much shame built up inside that I don't feel I deserve the good things. I have a decent paying job but everytime I get paid I think we'll maybe this time if I only take 100 with me I will double it but no, I lose that then go to the atm and take out more, once I can't get anymore from there I go and cash checks, before I know if my paycheck is gone, nothing to pay the bills. God this addiction sucks!!!!

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      goldbar7s 8 months ago

      Peter Ginty, I pray that you will stop. Please pray for all of us.

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      Peter Ginty 8 months ago

      Sick and tiered of giving my hard earned money to the bookmakers,via machines how the hell i got addicted to them i will never know.i have lied cheated stolen ,It as cost me my family life not once but twice.The woman i love dearly as had enough i know i have hurt her i know i will never be able to repair the damage I love my kids i have sworn on my kids lifes i would gamble again only to go straight in to a betting shop and do every penny i could get from our account,The most despicable thing i did to her when she was in labour having our daughter i was out gambling the mortgage money. i hope she finds a guy that she deserves as much as it breaks my heart i know i after let her go.Gambling scares me as i am having to move out and live on my own and fend for myself and that scares the shit out of me as i have nearly 600 pounds a week but will have to pay my mortgage and bills out of that i know deep down i can not say for sure i will not gamble on these money sucking machines again.I hope people who read this don't judge me help me,

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      GoldBar7s 8 months ago

      videopokerloser, I loved reading about your success. This is where I want to be too.

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      videopokerloser 8 months ago

      I haven't posted on here in a long time and still get notifications that someone posted to this forum, but rarely read anymore until today. I saw a counselor for 6 months to overcome gambling. My insurance covered it all. Like any other addiction, you have to monitor yourself constantly, but the urge to gamble is very weak now. I found that playing free casino games on Facebook helped to overcome it as well. It takes care of that dopamine high, which is really what gambling amounts to. It's not the money-it's the high you're seeking. If you can actively find a way to get that high, you can beat this addiction, I guarantee it.

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      videopokerloser 8 months ago

      I haven't posted on here in a long time and still get notifications that someone posted to this forum, but rarely read anymore until today. I saw a counselor for 6 months to overcome gambling. My insurance covered it all. Like any other addiction, you have to monitor yourself constantly, but the urge to gamble is very weak now. I found that playing free casino games on Facebook helped to overcome it as well. It takes care of that dopamine high, which is really what gambling amounts to. It's not the money-it's the high you're seeking. If you can actively find a way to get that high, you can beat this addiction, I guarantee it.

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      GoldBar7s 8 months ago

      Yes, Michelle Tee, the moderator explained this about dopamine in a post several years ago. I did not take this very seriously. I am now taking this very seriously. You are not only playing with your money, you are playing with the workings of your brain which is why you are not even thinking clearly when you are heavily involved with gambling.

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      freeme 8 months ago

      I think GoldBar7s made a good point. I learned the same thing about dopamine being released after a big win. I wonder if a dopamine deficiency is prevalent in all gambling addicts or if it's something more. Can it be that more than winning the money we crave the high? Because sometimes I hit big just to put it all back. Take a pill, no more gambling? Exchange one addiction for another? I wonder if I took dopamine instead of gambling would it be enough?

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      MEL 8 months ago

      Hello, I've been trying to stop gambling for years! I started going back in 2008 after being away from it since 1997. it has ruined my life and finances. i win a lot but i lose it right back even more. its a vicious cycle that seems to be unbreakable. I've tried GA but it doesn't for me.

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      GoldBar7s 8 months ago

      Thank you Christopher1985. I do pray that you will quit. Sportsfundi, please keep trying. I really, really don't want something STUPID like this to be a part of my life anymore. I want to get off the unfortunate path my life has taken.

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      Christopher1985 9 months ago

      You can tell yourself every day that you aren't going to gamble but all it takes is a moment of weakness to empty your bank account. I don't understand the reasoning behind the desire to gamble and why it is so hard to quit.

      We all need to find the strength to kick this habit before it is too late.

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      Sportsfundi 9 months ago

      I love sports and never knew a thing about gambling til a family member introduced me to it in 2010, it has destroyed my life and I just don't know how to stop, furthermore it has led to other addictions like smoking and alcoholism, this is destructive even though it starts of seeming harmless.

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      Christopher1985 9 months ago

      Goldbar I wish you good luck. Please pray that I may quit too

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      I don't want to go to the casino again. Because of this forum I understand that this is not about money. With every win dopamine is released into the brain and gives you a high. This is really what you are addicted to. No amount of winning will ever be enough. This is very SICK and DISGUSTING. I am going to stop this STUPID game.

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      Have been busy working every day and night. Have not been to the casino. I really don't want to get caught in that trap again. I lose a lot of money. I DO win huge amounts but I just put it back in and increase the bets and leave with no money. It is a terrible waste of time. I don't want to be a part of this anymore. I think this forum is helping me.

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      I love going to the casino and blocking the rest of the world out. I love being there and playing the casino games like a child with no responsibilities. Soon I will be the one that is blocked out. Soon I will be homeless and I will be the one that is blocked out. This has to STOP. I don't want to be a part of this game anymore.

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      stevex36x 9 months ago

      hi Christopher, yeah it's a terrible disease! I cut all access to my savings as I had 10 grand of saving so I gave my card to my mum and I thought I was safe but the last few days I been lending money from my mates and own them all 2000!! Just had to tell my mum now what I done who is not well too! And she gave me the card and say pay them off and tell them to not lend you anymore money! Just glad I am not in debt etc like some people! I just feel terrible now though! I did have about 35 grand when I had my card but I am so depressed now as I thought I was safe with only 10 grand left and give my card to my mum! Just goes to show your never safe even though you think you are! Day 1 tomorrow for me now! Feel so low atm but hope I feel better soon

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      It is morning. I am so glad that I did not go and I still have some money.

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      It is about 10 PM and I did not go to the casino. I bought a cheap bottle of wine and I am doing much over due chores at my house. Thank all of you for your support. Please stay strong.

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      I want to go to the casino where those slot machines are packed full of money ready to spew it out. In my heart I know this is the true way to great wealth. I want to go to the casino where the beverage girls bring drinks as fast as I can drink them. I want to go to the casino where people sitting next to me say that they hate themselves for going there and they don't know why they come. They re-assure me that I am not the only one and I am not so bad. I want to go to the casino where there is such a fun and exciting atmosphere. I will be in a state of sheer ecstasy if I go to the casino tonight.

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      After I just said this morning that I don't want to go to the casino again, I am already thinking that I want to go to the casino tonight since I have the night off from work. I want to go to the casino where they always have a big smile and open arms for me. Of course they love me after I give them my paycheck every week. Please HELP me!!

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      Went to the casino again and lost again. I don't want to go there again. I would have so much if I did not gamble.

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      Christopher1985 9 months ago

      Steve,

      There is nobody that can help but ourselves. It's funny, I lost $600 today as well. All I want to do is deposit more and the more I lose the more I want to deposit to get what I lost back. I always tell myself "that's it, I lost enough, let me just cut my losses and move on with my life". This is such a horrific disease that it has been 13 years and is still controlling and destroying my life. Should I get help? Should I confess to my significant other that I have this addiction and ask for help? I feel so ashamed. She thinks I am just playing for fun but maybe she can keep an eye on me and help prevent me from gambling. I bet just enough to be able to pay for my rent, car, and other necessary expenses but can not save for the future. The more I think about it the crazier I get because with all my gambling losses I could have easily bought a house or at least a significant down payment for one. All I have is the stress I have from losing. What makes me think I can win? I would bet $500 just to be able to get that $500 back. Once I make the deposit and start betting I hope to at least be able to get my initial deposit back. What is the point of playing then? I can just keep the money in my pocket and save it for my future.

      Sometimes sick thoughts of ending it all pass through my mind. I want to at least see a psychologist. There is something more to this addiction. How is it that I am knowingly getting robbed on these rigged sites and the more I lose the more I want to deposit and I get into these zones where I don't care and can deposit my whole bank account in a blink.

      Please help me. Wish I can see a hypnotist to make me forget gambling exists.

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      stevex36x 9 months ago

      8880..well I never stayed strong as lost 600 today! Got to lend some more money now off my bank to get me threw this next month! PLEASE GOD HELP ME!

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      stevex36x 9 months ago

      lets all stay strong people.

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      Christopher1985 9 months ago

      I know it's hard to top once you have lost so much but you just have to know when to just stop the bleeding. If you make 1 $20 deposit and lose you want to deposit $40, then $80, and so on until you realize you are going to have trouble making it to the next paycheck let alone save for the future. I hope I find the strength to get rid of this habit once and for all.

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      Lost another paycheck at the casino. After reading this entire forum I DO understand that it could be a fatal mistake to take out loans for gambling. This forum has succeeded in making me understand that.

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      stevex36x 9 months ago

      Why you offering loads to compulsive gamblers! Surely this is wrong! I don,t like to site no more!

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      Vivien 9 months ago

      Hi everyone here. What Christine Coleman said is very true though i may not know her. I experienced it first hand also. It was this organization called fidelity loan Finance (f.l.f)that really helped me to pay my medical bills when i was in dare need of money because i am a widow. A friend of mine also directed me to them. when i was about to do a major operation and i had no money at that time, they came to my rescue and in less than 48 hours, i got my loan. But to say the truth, i was nervous and scared at first because i have been scammed twice. But when i summoned up courage and follow their lending policies along with my friends advice, at the end i found myself smiling. If not for them, maybe i would have been dead by now. I have even taken another loan from them start my business after my recovery which i am also paying back now. My only advice now is that any body who is really in need of loan should contact them with their email via, fidelityloanfinancial(AT)gmail(DOT)com or website on www(DOT)fidelityloanfirm(DOT)webs(DOT)com and get a loan from them. Thanks.

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      Michelle Tee, the moderator never checks in anymore. I hope she is ok.

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      When I first won the $1000 I felt so happy. There was a big bill that I needed to pay and I thought that I will pay that bill with my winnings. Then I thought that it will not hurt to stay and play $100 of the money. Minutes turned into hours and the $1000 was gone and I put much more of my own money in. I left the casino feeling so bad.

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      stevex36x 9 months ago

      Yeah Christopher it's so hard to beat this addiction! The thing is too if I had discipline it would be OK as I would just bet a few quid but I can,t seem to control it when I lose a bet when I got pipped on the post by another horse or the football team i bet is in front and there's a injury time goal to make it a draw! My bets were going from 20 pounds to 400 bets and even 1000 bets but just to get my money back! When I only started betting 20 in the beginning! My last lost was 2500 and it just killed as I was betting 20 to start with and got an unlucky run and started chasing! It's like a crazy thing were something takes over you saying "you need your money back" but I,am sure most compulsive feel the same feeling! But what I don,t understand is how the very few are able to control it unlike me

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      GoldBar7s 9 months ago

      Went to the Casino. Won $1000 right away. Stayed the day and went through every penny of it and then put a lot my money in. Same as always. I really enjoy going to the Casino. Unfortunately, it is a very expensive pastime.

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      Christopher1985 9 months ago

      Steve it's much harder to quit than anybody who doesn't have this illness thinks. I fight with the addiction every single day since I was 18. I recently turned 31. Just this morning I received an e-mail notification that I qualify for a 100% deposit bonus at one of the sportsbooks I have used. The temptation is great but what is the point to deposit. The stress I feel during any game I bet on is not worth it as it will shorten my life and take money away from me and my family.

      We all can accomplish so much more if we could just stop gambling. It is to the point now where I can not go to any sporting event without betting on it. I hope I can find the power to stop this addiction once and for all.

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      stevex36x 9 months ago

      Hope everyone is staying strong! I still not bet since I lost that 2500! Even though most of you think I,am a idiot losing that much in a day and I,am weak ect so you can,t judge me how you want but I believe if your w compulsive gambler it's only a matter of time anyway before you lose a big amount like that anyway! But good luck all

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      niranjanmore30@Gmail.com 10 months ago

      I am addictive of gambling i have lossed everything in gambling but now I want to stop gambling but how can it's possible

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      freeme 10 months ago

      "The Body Keeps The Score" by Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D. There. It seems I may have answered (?) my own question. Actually, this book was recommended by a friend. Just putting this out there for anyone else who may be interested in help.

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      10 months ago

      hi everyone

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      freeme 10 months ago

      This forum feels more like a confessional than anything else. And though it feels good to vent I am hungry for help/answers/solutions. If there are people out there who've beaten this ugly addiction (without the G.A. 12 step program) please tell me how you did it.

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      mary 10 months ago

      Well I feel like it was me saying everything above this comment, and I am looking at what it has done to life and my spouse!! Lost our home of 20 years and both us were guilty of this not just me!!! Moved to another state who has no gambling and just to start over, but guess what it followed us to the new state and I would where you can donate money and place bets, thats how they make it legal!!! Now have lost thousands of more money that I we dont have, he however was done with it when we moved, but I still want, now I hate hate myself and want the help to have a better quality life and not end up up living in a ditch in the future. Our insurance has a high deductable so it has be something free and extremely helpful!!! Please tell me anyone if you have found something or someone that is successful for you , please let me know!!! Thanks

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      mannu 10 months ago

      hi i'm mannu from south Africa .. I was came here 2 years ago from India .

      My story started when I went monte casino first time in my life that day I was win R1000 that money took my R 70000 in 2 years,,... now I reliszed its not a good thing to do . ... this gamling destroyed my all things now from last month I quite all gambling... I was face too much fanicially problems from this casino I always think to recover my mney from casino but I didn't get nothing if I win I give back double next day...

      only me know how I stop gambling there is too many things to do in life don't waste ur life.... before I was I'm every time on depressed and think about gameling...

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      Kevin 10 months ago

      I went to Las Vegas for 5 days in May. I ended up winning a total of $202 for the trip (not including travel expenses). Gambling is no longer the highlight of my Vegas trips. The last few trips I have been meeting a woman who lives there (I can't post how we met just in case her ex boyfriend might find this). I was with her 3 of the 5 days this trip. She understands my gambling addiction and my warm turkey strategy of dealing with it. I played craps and blackjack while she watched and we played slots together. She helps me to not play too long, to not give too much back when I win, and to not chase losses. When we go to a restaurant she eats slowly, deliberately I think, to minimize my available gambling time. I am going back to Las Vegas in late August and will once again spend 3 days with her.

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      Christopher1985 10 months ago

      I don't know what it's going to take to quit. Life is passing me by and all I want to do is gamble. It's frustrating when I work so hard during the week and can lose a weeks pay on an impulsive weekend. Its not fun to make a deposit, lose, make another deposit, lose and keep going until your left with just enough to get by to the next week. I don't want to gamble anymore. It's like I'm floating aimlessly through life. I should have been studying for my engineering licensing test over the past month but have been messing around gambling which causes me to drink even more especially after a loss. With each deposit I say "it's only another $100 or $200. If I could save up all the deposits I spend over the course of the year I could go on the most lavish vacation with my girlfriend during the holidays. Why can't I just stop? Is it because I'm bored, because it entertains me? My heart races when I'm making it deep into a poker tournament and I have hopes of winning the $25k or $5k first prize but I'm sure everyone that makes it far wants the same thing. I don't know, will $20k change my life and make me stop gambling? Maybe the opposite will happen. I hope I can stop, have discipline and save my money for as long as I can. I am getting going in my career and if I realize I don't need gambling I can do good in life. There is so many more positive things I can do with my life.

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      George 10 months ago

      Am gladl I learnt the dangers at an early stage. I quit.

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      freeme 10 months ago

      My grandfather and uncle suffered from this disease- Is the propensity to gamble genetic? I started very young; blew my whole paycheck from my very first job betting on some numbers on a spinning wheel at a local fair. The first time I played the lottery I won. I had dreamt the numbers, played them and won. I've been hooked ever since. I notice the urge to play is more when I'm depressed, which is a lot lately, even though I have so much to be grateful for. I'm so angry at myself that I can't just QUIT. I feel not in control and argue with my self constantly. Voices in my head screaming at me to not play- but the other voice almost always wins.

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      freeme 10 months ago

      John2016- Your words ring true and give me hope. Thank you.

      I happened upon this site by googling; "How to quit gambling." Reading about everyone's struggles reinforces my desire to be rid of this evil addiction. It provides a much needed outlet since the thought of going to G.A. meetings fills me with anxiety (I'm a very private person and don't do well in social scenarios.)

      I managed to quit crack cocaine and cigarettes years ago, but am really struggling with the gambling addiction. I've tried self hypnosis meditations because they've helped in the past and am really worried because it's not helping this time.

      I'll let you all know if I find some magic beans.

      Peace out and God bless.

      P.S. @Lee- I hope you are still out there because your posts inspired me as well.

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      Jack 10 months ago

      Yeah just blew £500 on shitty online poker again did the same last month, im already bankrupt from losing over £25k I can never join my friends on holidays or take my gf away who will leave me very soon as financial problems are the biggest strain on relationships. I hate myself for all this and im not an idiot but this disease just gets a grip off you. Im really going to try and stop this now cant keep living in this hole. THERE IS NO SYSTEM TO WIN even if you do win a few all you end up doing is carry on betting until you run out. Sports betting and Poker have ruined my 20's im 29 in August and ive been broke for 9 years whilst everyone of my friends were enjoying their lives travelling or building careers ive been deluded trying to become a pro gambler. I have nothing now feel hopeless and disgusted

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      stevex36x 10 months ago

      you watch france win now tonight as i not bet them as no money! so anyone who got money stick what you want on france

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      stevex36x 10 months ago

      i blew 2500 yestreday as i lost 2500 yestreday as i lost 1300 on a bookies roulette and then put 1200 on belumium to beat wales and how did wales 1 nil down! i must be so cursed! been in bed crying all day in bed all day and just had enough as why am i the unluckist person in the world! why me! bet all of you are thinking glad your not as unlucky as me!

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      cassie 10 months ago

      I have been gamble for 8 years now... the consequence I couldn't finished my studied,I lost my time my money ,I gradually lost contact friends, I have problem with my x partner and even new partner. I am on debt for over30,000 dollars not include the wage that I earn every single weeks it s go through pokies....I am near to bankrupt now...I am stay in fear everyday and want to quit as soon as possible..but the problem is every time I have money I always go there!! :(

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      John2016 11 months ago

      This disease is far more complex than you could ever imagine. I truly believe it is the most difficult addiction to kick. I have read many of your posts and it saddens me to think how far off everyone is from quitting. Over the past 3 years, I have read several books on addictions, habits etc. and have not quit yet. I've cut down a lot, but I still have relapses. I have always prided myself in being mentally strong - straight A's in school, discipline in many personal activities and fairly successful in my professional career, but this addiction still has a hold of me.

      Most of the tips that you will read will NOT work, but keep reading and keep trying. The single best tip that I have read is to work diligently on becoming AWARE of what made you gamble again - this even happens when you're presently arguing with yourself not to play and yet you still pull into that establishment or log into that website (like 2 people inside of you are arguing). Again, try to become more aware of what caused the trigger and learn to out maneuver it. And as a hedge against your defeat, make going inconvenient (i.e. self exclusion) and limiting the money you bring.

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      GoldBar7s 11 months ago

      It is so true that if you have a skill to offer the world and you can make a living from it you should be thankful and you should not be throwing that money away. I hope I remember that the next time I want to go to the casino.

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      Christopher1985 11 months ago

      Not many people can truly understand the dangers of gambling. Every dollar you lose adds up. It's always only one more $50 deposit.

      I don't believe I'll ever be as big as a gambler as I once was. I don't know if I'll ever stop thinking about gambling. If it's saying to myself "I'm just going to deposit $300 this month for fun" or "I want to make this bet because I know for certain they are going to win". I get depressed when the team I was going to pick wins and I feel like I've lost money when I didn't wager a dollar

      I've been steadily doing better. I feel like I've somehow overcome this disease. I work so hard everyday and feel terrible to work so hard and make these bookies richer. They never lose no matter the outcome of any sporting event.

      We can stop compulsive gambling. I don't want to say for the world to stop altogether. I feel like there are some who can truly play for fun, like the couple who goes to Vegas on vacation once in a while. If they lose $1000, oh well, and if they win a few hundred, they appreciate that money more than any compulsive gambler could.

      I will feel the impact of my compulsive behavior for the next two years paying off 3 different credit cards. It is definitely not the worst thing someone can suffer from this disease but if I could just stop until my cards are fully paid, I would be doing fine.

      Just realize there is no benefit to gambling. Not worth the risk. Compulsive gambling does not benefit our society in any way.

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      Greg 11 months ago

      Gambling is such a mental disease. It corrupts the mind and its thought processes. I don't even think about the normal things in life like I once did. I'm young (23) and it's ruining me as a person. I no longer look forward to things such as hanging out with friends, socializing, or pushing myself to do the best I can. Not to blow my own horn, but I have it made in life. I'm an extremely gifted athlete, very intelligent, have an amazing family, etc. I have everything I could ever ask for. I just constantly want to gamble. I feel it's holding me back from doing other things in life. I always feel that it's the only thing to do on weekends and during the week. I'm commenting on here in the hope thst opening up and spilling my thoughts and situation may help. I would love advice from others on things to do and ways to help. I'm not ruined financially or anything, I feel more like gambling is ruining me as a person. Any thoughts or suggestions would be really appreciated. Thanks.

      Greg

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      Christopher1985 11 months ago

      Steve we are always going to be a minute away from a fortune. I remember a couple years ago I would make a small deposit of a couple hundred dollars. I would bet $100 a game then $200 then I was betting thousands a game within a week when I got on a winning streak. I lost $13,000 in one night but it's not so bad when the deposit wasn't that much.

      The point is how much is enough? If I would of made $20,000 I probably would have went for $50,000 or $100,000. There are a handful of individuals who make a living gambling and even millions. There are also people who hit the powerball for $200 million. The odds are probably the same and it seems like people still want to chase the dream to gamble and make it big.

      I just turned 31 this week. I feel like the urge I have to gamble has nearly gone away. I look at my paycheck and tell myself "I earned this by being a contributing member to society and don't want to give it to these scumbag bookies preying on the weak". I mean I would always get calls from online bookies I used telling me I qualified for a 20% bonus. They already take a deposit fee and 10%of each bet so it is not much of a deal.

      People if you have a skill to offer the world don't gamble. Concentrate on making the world a better place. If you feel like gambling is all you have, stop, go take classes/buy and sell items on eBay/join the construction industry where there is always a need for workers. It is never too late to stop.

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      stevex36x 11 months ago

      i blow 1300 yestreday and not slept all night! the sick was i needed england to beat russia to get have back and england was in front and 1 minute before the final wistle russia scored! i am so sick an just want to die! at one point i got up to 1500 too yestreday! i hate this gambling as i releape time and time again

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      9HoursClean 11 months ago

      I am 9 hours clean!! what a life i have feeling not human at all!! :(

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      Renne 13 months ago

      I lost 800 tonight. Me and my boyfriend are both addicted to the slots. I'm so tired of saying I'm not going to go back...then that day im there. I'm dusgyisted in my behavior. All I keep hearing God tell me is to turn from my wicked ways...why don't I? How can I? I am a drug addict also and after the way the casino makes me feel...I just want to get high..SICK SICK SICK. I feel like I'm the people that spoke about in the bible..I'm lost in the wilderness...

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      goldbar7s 13 months ago

      I am a loser. I only have my job and the casino. Kevin, glad for your small losses. Steve, we have to try to have other interests than betting.

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      stevex36x 13 months ago

      laying in bed and i feel like i want to kill myself as i lost a 1000 today on horses and went to the bank to get last 1000 to sick on the evens shot fav in ireland in the last race but missed the bank by 5 minutes and of course the horse won!! so so sick!! someone help me please

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      Kevin 13 months ago

      Last January I went to Las Vegas again. I ended up losing a total of $75. I am going again in 1 week. I will spend one day at the San Gennaro Feast (which is the de facto county fair in Las Vegas). I will pig out on lobster at the seafood buffet at the Rio one day. Hopefully I don't get carried away with the gambling.

      My favorite Indian casino has a one dollar blackjack table now. I have been playing that a lot now. Earlier this week I lost $37. The worst I have done is -$45. I have had some nice double digit wins also. Overall the theoretical loss is probably a little more than penny slots (one penny per spin) but not much.

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      portman park paul 14 months ago

      the name says it all huh...! just walked out of the bookies and blown my last 45.00 for the month. doesn't sound much I know but based on the fact I got paid 2400.00 yesterday its going to be a tough month ahead. im a disgrace

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      tired of it 14 months ago

      Turn 50 this year. First started on roulette when i was 20. Not too many devistating losses given the casinos I visited were in brisbane or Adelaide, but when Melbourne opened crown casino about 20 years ago my life took a turn for the worst Im afraid. Esitmate loses in excess of 1 Mil. In the past 10 years probably on average 100 K a year. I earn typically 200-250K pa in IT, reach a savings point of about 50K, or 100K, dont gamble for a few months, then binge gamble .... I have tried everything imaginable to stop myself from doing this. I rent my apartment, own my car, and after losing about 100K over the past two months, am back down to about 10K in savings. I start again. I do this over and over, while maintaining a facade of normality in the business world as a capable achiever.

      I've got no answers.

      I just put one foot in front of the other and keep going. it is what it is.

      Rick.

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      GoldBar7s 14 months ago

      VidoeCrackAddict, that was a great and inspirational post. This Needs to Stop, we are all in the same position. WylieKyote, this is good insight. I am sorry to say I had some time off for the holidays and I spent every minute of it at the casino. I won big and lost bigger as usual. I will try to spend more time at the library. Being a part of the action is my problem. Sitting at those machines spinning the reels is a waste of time and money. I like talking to the people sitting next to me at the casino but I know they all have the same problem. They are addicted ! .Let's get back to the simple pleasures in life that don't take our money.

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      Wylie Kyote 14 months ago

      I've seen people lose their homes, marriage, business' etc through gambling. It's not good. It's not always the fault of the gambler, the casino's also have a lot to answer for. Casino's can cover every square inch of the gaming floor but do nothing when they see a patron gambling excessively. If a problem gambler goes to Casino management and declares he/she has a problem, straight off the Casino see "you" as the problem not them.

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      Thisneedstostop 15 months ago

      Hello,

      I have really had enough I'm 25 years old and had this horrible addiction over the last 6 years. I've had good jobs and have always had money.

      I'm going to keep it brief not used to writing on these sort of things.

      Well my situation now is sleeping all morning cus I don't want to get out of bed because of feeling depressed. Due to being up all night chasing my addiction. Online slots, casinos, fruit machine, bookies you name it.

      The last 3 years have been my worse days. Credit cards, Loans, stealing from loved ones all for this horrible addiction.

      I'm a good guy with loads of friends and good family but gambling has made me be a scum bag, lost abit of my social skills. Personality changes I feel in a dark place.

      The last 6 months I closed most of my online sites and put limits on the couple I kept. Which has controlled things a bit. But then I would always find ways. So then I had to cancel my cards. But then I found I could deposit from phone on some sites. But still hasn't change me as now I just go to bookies a lot more than I used to.

      The worst times are when your Chasing a big loss, the situation im in now.

      I have currently taken money from someone I shouldn't of even though I know I can pay it back soon I feel sick for doing it I hate my self.

      I can spend few hundred a day when I'm having a bad week.

      But when I get money rather than pay my bills or put the money back I chance it again. I feel sick and horrible. Lost all my motivation and not so much the money I got got to put back but knowing I'm just going to carry on hurting me and people around me.

      Thanks

      JR

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      Noslots 16 months ago

      Videocrackaddict - great post . If you can do it than there is hope for all of us.

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      videocrackaddict 16 months ago

      Wrap your head around my life. I'm 57 years old my Dad was in the Air Force he retired in the early 70's. The city I was to grow up in " Las Vegas". I have lived 45 years here total now. I am to old to change professions . I need insurance for medical needs: diabetes, sleep apnea, high blood ptessure, psoriasis, and DVT in my legs. I work in a major casino here as a dealer. I usually deal craps most days and occasionally they have me deal blackjack. I'm around this shit 40 hours a week. I'm also a life long compulsive gambler since I was 16. Started playing nickel slots with high school drinking buddies. This eventually graduated years later to video poker. I would always portion off some my paycheck for gambling expenses. My problem was not winning it was stopping when I was up and leaving a winner. I could take $5 play penny video poker at .5 cents per play. Hit a 4 of a kind on Bonus Deluxe it paid $4. I would milk it to nickel video poker hit a few 4 of a kinds. Now I'm up 40 to 50 dollars now I'm playing quarters. Many times I would continue to win up to hundreds of dollars of that $5 original investment. I rarely would walk out with any winnings. I was hooked on the action just playing hours and hours like a zombie. Now I only played the $5 system when I was nearly tapped out of money in my bank account. No matter how much money I had it was my mission to piss it away as fast as possible. My mom passed away 4 years ago. She left my sister and I $250k each free and clear. Guess what happened to my $250k? Gambled it all away in less than 6 months. So it can be a mere 5 pennies or $25 a pop per hand video poker. The amount didn't matter as long as I was "in action". Two months ago I decided to quit gambling completely. It's been 73 days since I last gambled. I have paid off 2 payday loans and now I'm attacking my credit card debt. I went physically into every casino that I had players cards. I would go to the players club counter and tell the personnel to close my players account. I also requested that they took me off all mailing promotions. I have now regained control in my life. I don't have a lot of money left after the bills get paid. I went through divorce and lost my house in housing crisis. Both stemmed from financial problems caused by gambling. I got the courage to tell my present wife how bad it got. We kept our finances separate since we met. I did this to hide dozens of ATM withdrawals, payday loans, and cash advances on my credit cards from her. To my relieve she gave me the biggest hug and said "I love you no matter if we are rich or poor". You have to look in the mirror and tell yourself "I quit no more". No matter how dire your situation you can do it. Imagine not just casinos every grocery store, bar, convenience store, laundromat you walked into had video poker machines. That's how it is here in Las Vegas. If I can quit and be surrounded by it when I shop and work. There is no reason you can't too. Take care and believe in yourself.

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      Laura 16 months ago

      Trying to stop

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      Peter 16 months ago

      Peter

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      GoldBar7s 17 months ago

      Good luck to everyone in making it a bet-free year.

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      BennyUSA 17 months ago

      2016....good time to quit..... It's not too late .... I'm one of u guys..... Can't control myself too....I'm trying... There's hope!

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      stevex36x 17 months ago

      yeah i tried so many times too! ended up chasing and losing 600 2 days a go! its weird how we think never again and can,t get the loss out of our mind! then as weeks go pass we forget about it and repeat the cycle! at least tomorrow it will be 2016 so lets hope we all start fresh and never gamble again! always remember that we can never win as we can not stop! good luck everyone in 2016.

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      GoldBar7s 17 months ago

      So sorry to hear about yours and everyone else's losses.

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      GoldBar7s 17 months ago

      rolla

      Great advice. I have been reading michelletees blogs. I see where this will eventually end if I do not stop.

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      rolla 17 months ago

      After all, aren't we all just a superstitious bunch?

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      rolla 17 months ago

      I tried everything, failed quitting multiple times, destroyed family and career, lost way more than a ridiculous amount of money. To each, his own method. Today, I found mine. I'm sharing it with those of you on the brink of giving it up (again), desperate to forever exit the cycle.

      I prayed and vowed on my life to never gamble again. That I would die if I did. That my life would be taken.

      Fear rules the weak - for many of us, gambling is our biggest weakness. For those who believe in god and/or the universe,

      MAKE ONE LAST GAMBLE: BET YOUR LIFE ON NEVER GAMBLING AGAIN.

      *Allow the fear of losing your life (by chance) to fuel your abstinence. What if you don't die, but what if you do?

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      GoldBar7s 17 months ago

      Christopher1985

      Thank you for the sound advice. Playing penny lines will tempt me to move to the machines that I love that pay big jackpots. I need to stay away.

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      Christopher1985 17 months ago

      Goldbar. The only solution I've learned is to not get involved in gambling at all, not even a little bit. It's been 7 weeks since my post here and I have not made a single bet. I was even trying to talk myself into making a $20 bet but refrained from doing so. It is true there are people who can play truly for entertainment; however, I would just recommend someone who is fighting this disease to stay far away from any casino or sportsbook. I am constantly fighting the desire and one thing that stops me is my desire to provide a fruitful and joyous life to my future kids. Sometimes I think just one deposit...I mean I will get a 50% bonus or whatever it is. How can these sportsbooks offer so much in bonuses if they weren't making a boatload of cash? Even if you win 50% of the time you are still losing with the percentage they keep. Don't make these vultures at the casino or sportsbooks richer...they are living the high life off of your hard earned money. It irritates me so much that I lost so much and I work terribly hard every day for my money. All one can do is forget about the past losses as we can never regain that money back. The gambler never wins. Do not try to be the incredibly lucky 1% or so who claim they make a living off of gambling. The collusion, messed up calls from the officials, meaningless scores at the end of games are all working against you as all these factors completely screw with the score of each game. There is no such thing as a skilled gambler or "shark", just individuals with a perpetual horseshoe up their behind. Please stop..you do not know how destructive this disease is.

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      GoldBar7s 17 months ago

      I am going to try to quit. I cannot afford this anymore. I like success stories. I liked reading how some people on the list have learned to enjoy a day at the casino playing penny lines and not losing much. The next time I have an uncontrollable urge to go to the Casino I am going to force myself to do this.

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      GoldBar7s 17 months ago

      Reading all the postings have been a great help. I now understand that I am a compulsive gambler. I didn't even know that before I read the postings. I do all of the things that everyone here has been doing and I thought it was only me. I used to go to Atlantic City twice per year and lose a few hundred dollars. It didn't bother me because I considered it a vacation. Then they put casinos all over Pennsylvania so that they are accessible to everyone. One of them is 2 miles from my house. At first I would go on Saturday and lose my $20 limit that I allowed myself. This has escalated so that I am now losing $800 per week. I put an end to this by getting a job on my 2 days off. I work for 12 hours a day on my 2 days off so that I don't have time to think of the casino. After several months of this I am able to save a nice amount of money. Then I say to myself that I deserve a day off to do something I enjoy doing. The only thing I enjoy is the casino. I go there and lose everything I save in a day or two. No matter how I change my schedule the casino still gets all of my money in the end. It is like they are really in control of my mind and money.

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      GoldBar7s 17 months ago

      I finally have been forced to realize that I have a problem and looked for help online. I found this site and read every posting. It has been a great help in understanding what is going on and how many people are affected by this sickness. I thought I was the only one that when I win a jackpot I don't take the money and run. I put it all back in and test the odds of winning another jackpot, and lose it all plus much more. I do this over and over.

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      videopokerloser 18 months ago

      Where is the moderator??? Please remove Natasha's post. How terrible that someone would prey on compulsive gamblers with their illegal activity!!

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      NATASHA 18 months ago

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      stevex36x 18 months ago

      not bet for a while and started betting last week and had little but lost just over 800 today! feel terrible and can,t sleep and going to have my last 600 on wladmmir klitscko to win on points and hope to god he don,t win on points now! my head is gone and need to try and win 600 back at least as the bet is evens. if he don,t win on points then i don,t know what i,am going to do. wish me luck all.

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      Christopher1985 18 months ago

      I am with you 100%. I haven't made a bet since my post and there is one main thing I am starting to realize: That life is better without succumbing to the horrific disease of gambling. I am actually able to have fun and not stress over who is winning whatever sporting event I have money on or what time the next game is going to start. I am using these threads as a way of getting help and willpower. The greatest therapists in the world will not get you to stop if you are unwilling to quit and move on without gambling. Any time I get a slight urge I think about why I am gambling. It isn't to win money because once you win you want more until it is gone. If you really want to be successful, don't give another dollar to these sportsbooks/bookies and put that money to good use like saving for a car or house.

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      BennyUSA 18 months ago

      Hope all is well!...I'm struggling ..... Want to quit.....urges still there....pls. Help me god.... Help us all!

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      BennyUSA 18 months ago

      Hope all is well!...I'm struggling ..... Want to quit.....urges still there....pls. Help me god.... Help us all!

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      Christopher1985 19 months ago

      I believe reading through this will really help me. I have been gambling since I was 17. 30 now. It makes me sick knowing all the money I lost. I could have bought a 4 bedroom house with all my losses. I have never been able to stop. Even after I blew my scholarship money at FSU playing online poker, even after getting my sportsbook account to $15,000 off of $500 and losing everything I owned one new years eve at the casino when I should have been with my family. Thank goodness I graduated with my civil engineering degree and doing well at work for now. I actually have my PE exam coming up on Friday which I have been on and off studying for a couple months. Well..half studying and half checking the baseball/football/soccer scores every few minutes to see if my team I bet on was winning. I just lost $4,000 over the past weekend, contemplating gambling all the savings by me and girl put together over the past 6 months but thankfully took a breath and stopped myself. Hopefully I can quit for good and find other activities to spend time on. I took this week off of work for vacation time to study for my test, locking myself in my room for a 4 day cram session. If anything I can take it next year with a clear head..as long as I give up my addiction.

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      Forgot_Casino 19 months ago

      I started my Casino playing carrier 2 months back. Started with 5USD free slot play. On the same day I made 400USD with different slot machines. It might I was lucky. This happened on weekend. Then I thought it's a nice way to make money additional to my job. Very next on mid week I went and lost 400. Still having hope and again went on week end and made 800. Felt very happy. Then moved to very attract slot machines which wins huge but combination comes very late. My bad luck started. Unknowingly I crossed that invisible boundary line. Which turned my fun and enjoyment to addiction. That day I lost 800 and came back in depression. I should have felt lucky that still I am in zero loss and I should stop this dirty thing. Again went will my hard earned money 500 and lost on week day. Again chase on week end and lost another 500. Finally got very angry and went with 1000 to beat the machine and lost that. Reason of losing is my left machine wins 800 and right machine wins 3500. It tempt me a lot and I lost finally 2400 which is big for me. It's all my hard earned money. Finally I came to know its not a matter you win or loose. If you win you will happily return back home only that day but very next day you have high chance to loose that with additional money to chase back the win.

      More important I lost is my 2 months time. Every-time 1 spent 1 hr back and forth drive. That route daily face 8 to 10 accident daily. I might be lucky to not have accident. Spent whole evening to morning at casino. Lost lot of time there. Feel very sleepy at work. Not able to focus on work and computer.

      After loosing 2400 USD now learnt a good lesson of not going anymore. Thanks to this forum. After reading everyone's bad feel, I am feeling proud that I promise myself to never go back again.

      If any friend will ask me that he will play and I will watch. I will simply say NO NO NO. No more casino. Decided to spend my money on Cruise tour, Space needle, Farm house, Mountain trekking but no casino at all.

      I am not the citizen or green card holder of USA. Just a temporary work permit for few year stay. Promised myself if I go once to casino then I must book a flight ticket to my home country where there us no casino. Any kind of Gambling is punishment act.

      This state should stop all this casino. For Indian reservation and their welfare. Many ways are there for tribal backward people. Let's provide them good free education for our state and federal tax. Let provide good jobs as per their talent. They will soon grow up to mark and country can get good scientists engineers doctors bankers etc. All this casino must be closed. This will help many of us to recover very soon

      Every day I will visit this site and read the miseries of all to hate casino as much as possible.

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      Move_on 19 months ago

      Thank you Benny. I am determined now. One day at a time, I tell myself. After my recent big loss I was so sad I looked around and saw my kids sleeping and I thought, what the fxxx am I doing? I am ruining their lives if I don't stop now. So yes, I am going to stop. Thank you for the encouragement. I will continue to read this post everyday and draw strength from it. Thank you.

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      Benny USA 19 months ago

      Just move on brother ! You r not alone !i have the same problem.... I'll start all over again ..... Pls. Stop gambling !

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      Move_on 19 months ago

      I have spent a whole night lying in bed reading all the messages. I have lost close to £10k in the last 2 weeks on online betting. I can relate to all the stories here. I hate this feeling of selfishness, guilt and stupidity. However it is true we are all weak and time and time again we lose the self control and chase after losses. We are all the same. I am glad I found this post and will continue to read it and remind myself not to gamble again. Good luck to all, from the bottom of my heart.

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      stevex36x 20 months ago

      wish it was that easy benny just to stop!

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      BennyUSA 20 months ago

      Be calm my friend.....don't be carried away by false belief of winnings.....be smart....stop if you can't control yourself.... Your not alone bro!

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      stevex36x 20 months ago

      hope everyone is doing ok and staying strong from this evil addiction! i been up and down myself these last few months with this illness. today i placed a bet for 10 pounds on horseracing and ended up been down 700 and somehow i caught 13 pound on number 18 in the bookies roulette and caught a winner on the cartoon racing and ended up being 30 pound up after about 4 trips to the bank!! this was my first bet for a few weeks and thought i will just try a few quid but everytime i,am down its like something takes over me and i need to get it back! its crazy as i talk to myself when i,am chasing like a mad man!! i just can,t not bet at all!!

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      eddie 21 months ago

      thanks alot guys, sometimes i m just really feel so alone, people around me here never understand me and addicted gamblers., my wife always blaming me inside and outside the house, and i feel so guilty. sometimes i just wanna give up, i never gamble since i joined you guys which is good, it s just regrets and pain that caused by gambling. i really admire you benny50 and noslots for determination.

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      noslots 21 months ago

      Eddie don't give up , look ahead, not back. Keep your trust in God as he won,t give you more than you can handle. Sometimes when things look the worst then God will give you the stength to turn things around. You have to make the choice and God will give you strength and peace. We're here to support you as well as oursleves.

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      Benny 50 21 months ago

      Sad to hear that Eddie ....but you r not alone bro. There's so many of us..... Dying from this illness...full of remorse , anger, pain.. .. Lost everything that hard earned money! I still have my wife but we're not in good terms...were just together because of the kidz... See how miserable life I have!... But I never lost my hope!... I'm broke now....so I do work hard n pay my debts!... My advice is stay healthy n keep your faith to God !be strong brother !

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      eddie 21 months ago

      I wish I just die tomorrow, my god just don t wake me up. I m so down, no friends, no money, wife mad, thinking of condition of autistic son...everything..

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      videopokerloser 21 months ago

      Sorry to hear that, iwillchange. Hey, we've all been there in one way or another. Doesn't matter the amount really...it all depends on our individual lifestyles what's hurting us about gambling. Counseling works for me, although it's definitely not an overnight fix and I still mess up, but messing up is getting less and less. Been in counseling 6 months, I think. My mom would do the same thing if she knew, but I'm lucky we're 3000 miles apart. Don't give up on yourself, ever! I look at this way...the money I've saved by not gambling is recouping my losses by not continuing to gamble. Most if not all of us will ever see the money back we've given, or as the locals say here, "donated" to casinos. You have to start somewhere then look at it differently by how much you're saving yourself, mentally, emotionally and financially. I was getting physically ill losing at gambling. Nauseous, like I had the flu. It was my turning point.

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      Iwillchange 21 months ago

      I have been gambling since I was 15. I'm now 45. I've been in over 80% of the casinos in the USA. Spent over 500k in my life time. I now have no money, no girlfriend, no job. Just a pickup truck to show for. Living with my parents. It's really close to impossible for me to quit. There have been times were I've won tens of thousands of dollars playing online poker. My parents don't know I gamble. If they did they wouldn't leave me an inheritance. I don't now what to do. Lately when I lose I've been smacking myself in the face. Please help.

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      eddie 21 months ago

      this site helped me alot through my first week of my battle on gambling addiction, i would like to say thank you all, the author, and all the people who shared their stories, thoughts, struggles, and all the good advices from top to bottom, you guys are big helped not to only me but to all of us here who really wants to save ourselves to this unbelievable habit, i hope god help us for what we are going through. i would like to say sorry to the people who i ve hurt so much, specially my mom who really with me through worst days, thank you mom. i know, the only way that i can make you happy is to see me change for good. i promise you mom, this is it. i will change my life direction for good. this is my 7 days of gambling free. god bless all.

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      eddie 21 months ago

      lipjan, it s not too late, let stop this nightmare altogether and turn things around. i don t believe in GA meetings, i believe only god can help us. i been to GA before and didn t work for me, but with god everything is possible. let me tell you a story, i had a friend who was a gambling addict also, he got into huge debts, jailed, lost his family everything. when he decided to stop, he turn himself completely to god, nothing else no help from others, GA 'S meeting etc. Now he is leaving in calgary, he paid off all his debts, back to his family, got a decent job and just bought a house. he is my inspiration for this changed, now i am 1 week free of gambling and promise to be gambling free for the rest of my life. i have no weapon for this change but god. fucos in our father in heaven and we will overcome this worst addiction. god bless and keep the faith.

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      Lipjan 37 21 months ago

      Lipjan 37. I am 23 years old and I have serious sports gambling problems. I feel like gambling its not just a way to earn money , but also the best way to spend my free time. I know this is all wrong but that is how I feel. I live in a country like Albania where wages are very small and wright now I am writing, with in this month I am expecting a baby because I am married too. I am in very big troubles . I am just looking for a way how to end this nightmare. God help me and help us all.

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      Eddie 21 months ago

      I know, it s very hard but this time i ll give my best and last try, i m dedicating this change for good for my autistic son.. i m so selfish.

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      Benny50 21 months ago

      U r welcome pare! We're all in the same boat....stop the bleeding...it's too painfull.....pls. Stop gambling....

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      videopokerloser 21 months ago

      Most of us who are compulsive gamblers justify our gambling by claiming to try and recoup our losses i.e, chasing our losses. Let me tell you, the odds are stacked against you that you'll never accomplish that and instead, lose much more like I have. Even when we win, we usually continue to gamble until it's all gone. I've done it a million times. If you can't get into a treatment program or see a counselor like I do (it really helps and holds you accountable for your actions), stay at least connected to a group like this. I pray for all of us to beat this addiction.

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      eddie 21 months ago

      thanks kuya benny50, I ve been a follower of your comments, god bless.

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      Benny50 21 months ago

      There's HOPE!

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      Azzer 21 months ago

      Im 23 and ive been gambling since i was about 10 on friut machines i have a problem ive never told anyone before but i can see it now '' ive just started to get my life sorted got a car got a good job and a good woman gettjng married next year but im gambling secretly and its really destroying me now every bit of money i can get away with i gamble i cant stop my self i am getting to the point where i want to cry i will end up losing my woman and everything i just want to stop but i dont know how someone help !! :'( i have read these comments and i feel abit better i just wana stop now

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      eddie 21 months ago

      this is a great link, i am a wasted person, lost everything in gambling too, stop, start, stop, start again. it s so hard to stop, but i still believe that as long as we live, we still have a chance to stop this deadly habit. let s all focused on our loveones and forget about what we have lost, let s start fresh for a new life, don t let deppression takes over us..turn ourself to god completely, in god, everything is possible..by the way, this is my 3rd day of gambling free. it feels better than losing in gambling. keep in touch. god bless us.

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      ramjie10 21 months ago

      I am glad i found this link... i am also addicted to casino i lost everything money its about $ 1.5M Car and Jewelries and some expensive gadgets and watches maybe a total of $2M I've started casino year 2009 until now 2015 still keep on visiting Casino.I decided to stop but still kept on going. I am fortunate i found this conversation it helps a bit my eagerness to stop gambling. .. God bless us all may we can stop this addiction...

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      Johnny 22 months ago

      Hi, happen to find this link, it seem to have way to help u quite gambling addiction http://stopgambling2015.blogspot.com

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      Kevin 22 months ago

      I have been having a lot of high expenses hit me this year. I have run up over $3000 in credit card debt, most of it for essential things like major dental work and car repairs, but some of it for non-necessities like a trip to a video game convention. Last week at my favorite casino I was very tempted to abandon my low rolling strategy and put $100 (yes, no decimal point this time) into a dollar slot and try to hit a jackpot and get out of debt quick and easy. Fortunately I resisted the urge. It would have been very foolish to fall back into my old ways of big bets and big losses (relative to my barely over minimum wage income). I've got to start following my own advice and leave Ben Franklin at home.

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      Bigbetbill 22 months ago

      I spend all day everyday working how much I'm up or down. I never go to bed up as I'm greedy and put it straight back on.

      Today I started with 500. Turned it to 900.

      A few hours later went on the roulette machine in William hill. 200 of it in and got it up too 1,100. So I've walked out at 9 o'clock with 1800 up 1300.

      So I was walking home happy but not content, still wanting to gamble. Trying to convince myself by saying , billy your up stop now. Stop.stop.

      I get home ready to go out. Then I get my phone out and say to myself I'll just put 300 online that way I'm still up a grand and I could turn that to a grand.

      Put it in. Lose it.

      Put on another 200. Win turn it up too 100 with 2 nice spins.

      Ok great withdraw ! I say withdraw...

      So I did. So now I'm up 1.800 amazing great profit.

      20 minutes later.

      I say fuck it!

      I'll reverse that withdrawal.( the worst thing these online sites can do... Allow a gambler to go back in one click!)

      If I lose I'm still up 200 and secretly you think ... No I won't lose.

      I lose it.

      I put another 500 in.

      No I'm not losing. I'm clever, I'll win.

      Lose it.

      Right last 1000 left in the account.

      Lose it.

      No I'm panicking ..

      Right where can I get some money

      Right I can get hold of slats 500.

      But if I lose this I'm shrewed ...

      I can't afford to lose anymore. I'm already on debt ... But I can't lose that amount. Im tearing my hair out. Well I just need to ... I must my numbers will come in now...

      While I'm depositing one of my numbers come in... Aaaaah are you SERIOUS!!

      Now I'm angry.

      Put a 300 spin down. Win 1800. Yes agh relaxed now. I bet again 300. Win 1,600. I've now got 3300. I'm now up again and am up 2 grand on the day. We'll I'm now up but for putting 3 thousand in today I'm up 2. 1 more grand I'm double up and I'll leave ... I promise. 200. 400. 500. 650. 650 later. Shit ... Im down to 900 I knew I should of took it ... I knew, it's my fault I'm an idiot .... I can't believe I didnt take it. Well all or nothing. I'm not having this.

      The number 19 comes in ... I've got 15 ~ 31 covered. 19 next door to 15. It's fucking rigged you absolute cunts ! I hate you...

      Lay on the floor .. Hmm now does this sound like you ?!

      Or am I the only one who does this !

      Greedy stupid fool. I'm in debt 15 grand and I gamble to get out of it ... But I know full well win or lose I'll not stop. And you lose much more often than win that's why you get in trouble eBen the big wins unless you stop it won't matter. It's the thrill the buzz the high you play for after abuse. Not the money. Money means nothing.

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      boki 22 months ago

      I hate what I have become I actually tried suicide but I was saved and dont wont my kids to go thru that again but I need to stop or I will destroy my kids lifes I live a lie I never had a good life anyways but it was better then now I lost my friends I lost everything they see right true me I have chosen my kids my house my job I will al thet than I will work on my friends next time I have urge to go to casino I wil give that money to my kids to by something for them self im strong and I can do this I have to or I will not exist

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      MD1982 22 months ago

      Three days and no gambling. No going on roulette machines in the horrible bookmakers. No anything.

      I really think that gambling is a bottomless pit and that regular gamblers subconsciously don't feel like they actually deserve happiness hence why they constantly gamble.

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      Aussie66 22 months ago

      Great going Gerry! Don't beat yourself up Steve, just start again. I gave up for about 8 months and it was so easy to slip up again. I am coming up 2 weeks now so am really pleased for that. I play the 'if only' game too often and it doesn't help...it doesn't change my finances or anything. What counts is what I do now and I choose not to gamble. Thank you so much for your posts...they keep me strong.

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      stevex36x 22 months ago

      hi everyone hope your all staying strong! i was until last night and lost about 120 in the bookies on roulette. i find i get so stressed with life at time and get so depressed so i gamble and at the time i feel all the stress and depression go away when that ball is spinning or horse is running! but of course this is all fake as in the end it makes everything 100s times worst!

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      Gerry 22 months ago

      Day 5 just starting and what I am liking is my first thought is being gambling free for the day ... This is where I structure and prioritize my events so gambling establishments are not a part of them. As my mind is getting clearer, I am realizing that there are so many other more important things I can accomplish that will make me feel a hell of a lot better than even if I had a win ... which I know in my case is not possible. A milestone for me being where I am .... I am honestly giving myself the opportunity of being gambling free and I feel that my life will start to change for the better. :)

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      Gerry 22 months ago

      Today is the beginning of my fourth day and I am feeling a little bit normal again (whatever my normal is) I do not have any urges at the moment and I am determined to get through today. My day is structured in a way where I am occupied with other activities. I also involved other people so I do not have idol alone time. I want to personally thank you VPL for sharing and communicating. This in itself is a valuable asset for me, I am able to put into words what is going on in my head and make a conscious decision to stay away. While I am writing and reading I am more in tune of the destruction this illness causes and in return I am more motivated to get through today. Please keep sharing I truly believe in is helping me

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      videopokerloser 22 months ago

      Carol, didn't mean to exclude you...I didn't see your post until now. Bam, that's happened to me more times than I can shake a stick at. I pump hundreds into a machine, get up, and a person sits down there and hits a royal or on the next machine over. Makes you sick, thinking the universe is out to get you. Makes you question, whatever have I done to deserve this? Why me? I still don't have those answers.

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      videopokerloser 22 months ago

      Living in Las Vegas, I see people get hauled away in ambulances on a regular basis. Young, old - doesn't matter. It's usually at table games...craps, blackjack where people collapse. I once saw a woman have a heart attack and die at a slot machine after she won a jackpot. That's the "glamorous" side of gambling you rarely see as they're quietly hauled away. Gambling stresses your body. I now have high blood pressure and wondered when it was my turn to be laying there if I didn't stop. I'm thin, not overweight and have been relatively healthy other than smoking, which I'm trying to quit too. I've also developed social anxiety/depression and said before I'm in counseling. My health is part of the reason and what propels me to stop gambling altogether. It's not just the money lost...it's much more. On top of that, gambling away your money takes away your ability to help yourself. There's been several people who posted regularly on this list that threatened suicide and we haven't heard from them since.

      Keep with it Gerry, Aussie. The stakes may be higher than you think. Food for thought today.

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      Gerry 23 months ago

      Thank you Aussie66 for sharing ... I am half way through day 2 and I aspire to be where you are (day 6) I haven't been there in over 2.5 years. I too have much debt yet up until the day before yesterday, I didn't think I had it in me to be ambitious enough to quit. I know it is early but as of right now I do not want it in my life. And as long as I keep reminding myself and reading the posts that everyone has been sharing I really do believe I have a shot. I said this morning as I did yesterday " just today, I only have to get through today cause in reality tomorrow never comes. With me sharing on this hub, it allows me to read my own posts as well which reminds me where I was. It's only my second day but in my head which goes in so many different directions it feels like I could relapse at anytime. So I am going to continue with just today. Please keep sharing everyone ... cause you have an impact and your words are appreciated more than you know. :)

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      Aussie66 23 months ago

      I have made 1 week! Tomorrow I get paid and finally have some money in my account so that will be a test. Fortunately I have always made sure my rent and bills (sometimes late) were paid and, although I am in debt to banks, I haven't borrowed money from friends or family to gamble. I am in so much debt and it makes me miserable. I have started to realise that maybe, in some small way, this burden of debt is helping. Most of my pay is consumed by it so that it is less tempting to gamble because I dont have any spare cash. It is hard to feel grateful for anything when you are a compulsive gambler so I have started to journal the small things that I am grateful for. Less than 2 weeks ago I was so churned up inside with anxiety, guilt and self hatred. I googled how to kill myself but was too scared. Today I have no money in my account, lots of debt but a lot more peace. I see people on here limiting their behaviour to continue their gambling but I cannot do that. It doesn't work for me. I can never gamble again. It is so easy to relapse and I pray that I can remain clean forever. Thank you again for your posts.

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      Carl 666 23 months ago

      I've been gambling for 10 years. Last year I lost over 40k in online gambling. The only way I stopped was to get rid of the Internet. It has worked to an exstent as I only gamble in the bookies now say a few times a month.. The problem is I owe 20k on a loan and credit card. I need to stop going inthe bookies altogether as its draining the spare cash to pay the credit card off.

      I'm so sick of this I've tired everything to stop and come to the fact that u can't. Once your in the club tour in for good. You just have to put things in place to stop you from doing it on a wim. I draw out what I need for food and leave my cash card at work in my locker. It seems to work most of the time. I'm not losing as much as I was last year and losses are slowly going down.

      I tell you a story. I was down about £8k on roulette online last year and I was chasing I only had £600 left so I thought lucky 7 and I put £200 on 1 number 7. And I did it 3 times and I lost on the 4th time it fell on 7 but I had run out of money. That was the low point. I have no money now a year on as loans to pay and bills. I have a few years of this and the debt will be paid off. I just wanna owe nothing I told myself I can't borrow any more money and can't put the Internet back on ever. And it's mind over matter when I walk past the bookies don't walk in.

      Wishing you all good luck at stopping or just blocking as I call it as the urge will be there as long as I live. Unless I move to a desert island.

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      Gerry 23 months ago

      Great advice VPL .... I am grabbing onto anything and everything to distant myself from the inevitable. I really need a break from the lifestyle. I do not enjoy it ... not even a little bit, I need my potential directed a different way. What is helping you I know will help me as well. Just finding this hub is helping me. Knowing I have a problem and communicating them with someone who understands is a huge step for me. I want to thank you for your words and know they will not be minimized. Staying on track and not getting complacent is my initial goal. I want my 30 days and I will do what has to be done minute by minute to get there. I know I have to be aware at all times. That us why I have to be on here daily to change my patterns. I have been in treatment centers and they greatest tools are listening and sharing with someone who understands what I am going through

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      videopokerloser 23 months ago

      Hi Aussie:

      Something I tried that works for me is paying all of my bills when I got a paycheck, money. Doesn't matter if the bills aren't due until 3 weeks away, I pay them as soon as I get cash. This method keeps me from putting myself at risk by gambling it away. Gerry, I smoke too and now I buy a carton of cigs at a time. I've been where you are now more times than I care to count. For my cell, things like that, the money just stays out there as a credit on my account until it's due. It's comforting to know that I'll be okay if I get weak and go to a casino. It limits my cash but also makes me feel empowered and think twice when I see the things I now have instead of the nothing I had when I gambled heavily, freaked out, half suicidal wanting to die, sweating, unable to eat or sleep wondering how I'm going to pay my bills. I still gamble, I still get weak, but it's nowhere close to where I used to be. If you can't pay all your bills, pay one or two. The point is to start somewhere. It will help you get/feel in control again. At least this works for me.

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      Gerry 23 months ago

      Thanks Aussie66 ... For the past 2.5 years I haven't been able to get pass day 4. I would love to get a week under my belt. It seems the only way I am able to stay away from this horrific entity as I have done in the past is to replace it with another addiction. There has to be a reason we are plagued with this disease, I just don't want it to be my last activity in this world. Day "1" - here goes , actually going to be fairly easy - not a cent to my name - can't even buy a pack of cigs to feed that habit. I will try to stay focused and post on this site for 1 week (7 days). I just need to enjoy the moments of being gambling free ... the days, weeks and months will add up on their own. :)

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      Aussie66 23 months ago

      I agree Gerry it is a very lonely illness. I pray you will have the courage to beat this. I have had a strong desire to go to church these last few weeks, feeling that I was so powerless to stop. I walked into a church that I have never been to before (I haven't been to one in a very long time) and the talk was about "Facing your Giant" (David and Goliath). Gambling addiction is my giant. I felt like this was such a sign as it also featured psalm 23 - The Lord is My Shepherd. I don't mean to sound preachy - I was just amazed by the coincidence of the message and feel like it was a nod from my higher power. This is my day 6 and I will attend another GA meeting tonight. I feel strong - strong enough to beat my Giant!

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      Gerry 23 months ago

      I have been reading posts for the last 2 hours only wishing I had one of you to talk to because I am isolated because of this (what ever it is). So tired of it. Maybe writing about it will help. Every story i read rings true. It's nice i am not alone in this destruction, but really ...I am. WOW !!! Wish I had of done this before I went and lost everything. But then again .... I would of talked myself into it anyways. What to do ??? All I have in front of me is another try to get clean. 25 years is a long time doing this and it never gets any easier. Here we go again. Hope to keep this frame of mind ... As I hoped so many times before. But I am smart enough to realize it is destroying me .... just need the courage to make the right decisions. Here we go again, say a prayer for me ....Please!!!

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      Aussie66 23 months ago

      Hi All,

      I am from Australia so some of your terminology I get lost in. I love this forum. It has supported me for the last 5 days of my journey to be Gambling Free. They all resonate with me. I have a problem with the "Pokies", as we call them. I am disgusted with all of the money I have fed those machines. I get paid on Tuesday and I am scared that I will return to them but I find strength in this forum and I started GA meetings this week. I pray for me and all of you. Thank you for your posts.

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      Dean 23 months ago

      im 25 now been gambling since I was 16.

      I'm going to keep this brief but I make good money but I have no value you to it.

      The things I have done because of gambling is shocking. I don't think it's even about winning these days as I will happily just put all the money I win back in.

      I hate what these machines do to me, I loose myself, have no interest in anything or anyone else when I fall deep nor do I have any control.

      Tonight I put 280 in a fruit machine left the pub hating myself then went to motorway services and won 350 of 20 I was over the moon but then spent the next 2 hours putting it all back on the slots aswell as another 150. There's just no sense in it.

      Now here I am again lying in bed feeling sorry for myself researching about gambling. But I just repeat the process. Need to get this out my life. I'm a really nice person have a fun active life and don't get down much but this is rhr one thing that as actually tore me to peices and even feeling suicidal at times this just ain't me.

      I need to beat this before it beats me

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      Benny USA 23 months ago

      I do believe that it's a human nature that when you gamble and losing...you gonna start chasing your losses...you want your money back! But not all people like that.... There were few that can control themselves.....that's where our friend Kevin belongs!......from. My point of view.....there's no winnings in gambling... You might win money....but healthwise you lose! Life is risk.....it's a choice my friend....be smart!

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      Benny USA 23 months ago

      Live and learn......we have only one life....enjoy it! Pls. Stop gambling or play responsibly!

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      Johnannon 23 months ago

      Hmmmm. So much negativity towards gambling. Geez. Hasn't anyone got something positive to say about gambling? Like... Umm, umm, umm. Well there's umm, umm, umm. Holy shit!!!! GAMBLING REALLY IS UMM, SAD.

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      Kevin 23 months ago

      That means you will never stop.

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      Julia 23 months ago

      I need to win back what i have lost, then i will stop

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      Kevin 23 months ago

      I haven't posted an update for awhile because a certain person kept flaming my posts.

      I went to Las Vegas May 6-11. I stayed on Boulder Highway this time because room rates were jacked up very high downtown and on the strip because of the Rock in Rio festival that I did not go to (300 bucks for a concert is a huge waste of money in my book). I went to the San Gennaro Feast (which is basically the unofficial county fair in Las Vegas) one day. I lost a total of $120 gambling. I spent about $280 for the hotel and $75 for a Greyhound ticket.

      Last week I had an offer for $15 in free play and a $5 blackjack match play at my favorite Indian casino. I won the match play, played one more hand and lost, then quit. I had a net win of $20 for the day. The Pai Gow Poker table was open and I was tempted to play it, but I resisted the urge.

      I know all about watching people win big and give it all back. Many times I have seen someone run a credit meter up to a few hundred and eventually back down to zero, or a few cents on machines that have a minimum bet, or for some people who refuse to bet less than all the lines. Inside my mind I am screaming "Stop! What the Hell are you doing!". I often see others get on a losing streak early on and just keep feeding $20s and $100s in the machines.

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      videopokerloser 23 months ago

      Thank you, MD1982, and I hope I stop too and wished it wasn't so expensive for counseling in the UK. The U.S. instituted a national health care plan that at least for me is affordable and includes counseling although the plan has generated a lot of controversy.

      This past weekend I was able to give money to my daughter who needed it for her rent. If I was still gambling as heavily as I used to, I wouldn't have it for her, then I'd really sink into an emotional depression. It was a great feeling telling her she didn't need to pay me back! I'm hoping to turn my selfish acts of gambling into selfless acts - it's far more rewarding. I tried this last year then went right back to gambling heavy, so this isn't the first time for me if you've read earlier posts. It's a one day at a time struggle, and just this morning I thought about going out to gamble when I couldn't sleep. It took an hour, but I reasoned myself out of it. I'm staring at a long battle, but things are getting clearer for me.

      Love the quote, akki. How true! I know roulette is very popular and has cost so much for people. I wonder what politicians were thinking when they allowed gambling everywhere. Didn't they see the strain it would put on other areas such as bankruptcy, overall debt, healthcare? I'm sure they did but got something out of it.

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      akki 23 months ago

      Einstein said, the great mathematician , the only chance of winning roulette is to steal from the table.

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      MD1982 23 months ago

      @videopokerloser That is really good that you have stopped. I hope you continue it.

      I find it so difficult to stop going on machines. Here in the uk, counselling costs money unless you are unemployed. I sometimes feel that i might as well be when i always lose my wage.

      People come on here and tell stories of themselves losing. Don't hear many that have stopped. Maybe because there aren't many people who do or because if they do, they move on with their lives and choose not to come on sites like this

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      videopokerloser 23 months ago

      This list has been real quiet lately, so thought I'd post my progress. I haven't stopped gambling completely, but the amount I've spent this year has gone way down. I lay in bed one night and thought that all of my dreams would have come true if I had never gambled in my life. Every single dream I have would be possible today if I never touched a slot machine, so I decided to see a counselor. Lately, I just go into a casino and pick a person or people to watch discreetly. Just about every time, I'll see them win then lose everything, then throw another hundred or two or a twenty or their last dollar in the machine until they're scraping their purses or pockets for more money or heading for the ATM. One night I watched a man throw $5,000 into a machine after losing the $1200 he'd won betting $100 a hand on video poker - last year I saw the same thing happen but it was $10,000 the man lost. That person used to be me - I had the same pattern, and I find most other people have the same pattern as well. You win, you lose it all, then you chase your losses. You get greedy after that win thinking you can win more...that's just human nature that the casinos build their bank on. It's rare to see someone winning and winning, and I live in Las Vegas with plenty of casinos to choose from and do this just about every day as part of my therapy.

      I take no money with me or my ATM card. It doesn't work overnight. It's hard and tempting and has taken 3 months to get me to the point I am now. You have to try this right after you've lost a lot of money and then force yourself to go to a casino broke and downtrodden. Then just sit and watch. You'll see that you're not the only loser or just a loser...anyone that gambles is a loser eventually. If this helps one person, that's my only wish. But again, I haven't beat it completely. Free slot play tempts me, even though it's gotten less and less the casinos send me which turns out is a blessing. Counseling really helps because it holds you accountable, especially if you can't tell friends and family about it and are hiding it. According to my counselor, gambling addiction has become rampant with casinos everywhere now but there's more mental health experts out there to help you, and if you have health insurance, chances are it will pay for it. Just hoping this helps someone.

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      Benny50usa 2 years ago

      You are on the right site... Alex n maria.....I'm also like you....struggling from this illness! But there's hope my friend! Don't worry about the losses....gone is gone.....starts a new life! How many times I failed...but I never lost my hope!.... We have life to live my friends...enjoy it in a healthy way...! Hope u realized n accept the fact that slowly we are getting buried n buried from this illness. We don't deserved that kind of life.....we work hard.....let's enjoy life with love n peace! Pls. Stop gambling!

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      Maria 2 years ago

      I need help please. I don't want to go to the casino anymore because every time I go to the casino I spend all my money there. I did go to casino for 20 year already. Now I lost everything. I hope I can stop not gamble anymore.

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      ALEX KK 2 years ago

      I am in a world of trouble.

      Lost all my savings, 100% credit cards, borrowed money from friends which I know I can't return on time and took advance against my salary. Feeling very suicidal. . . I promised my self last month not to gamble until I pay off all the debts but didn't work. . .

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      BennyUSA 2 years ago

      Gambling the worst addiction......STOP before its too late...!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Steve, please don't do anything to harm yourself. Check yourself into a mental health facility. There you will have no opportunity to harm yourself and no opportunity to gamble. Your life is worth far more than 1200 pounds.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      well messed up again! went to bookies just wanting to win 50 and ended up winning 90 and thought i just bet this one horse and it come 2nd, next thing you know i,am down 400 and i saw a horse at 1 to 2 so rushed to the back to get my last 800 and put it on and it come 2nd! 1200 down and feeling like killing myself! i bet anyone in there right mind must read and think what a idiot this guy is and deserves to die well i agree with you all!! just thinking of the best least painful way to end my life tbh! any tips would be grateful. thankyou and peace all and don,t end up like me

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      Joe 2 years ago

      I just came home after loosing £2000 ! And its not the first time as i have been doing this for years but do you know what guys ? I feel empty and i feel like im not good enough ! I have destroyed my own life so far thru gambol and because i have promised my self not to gambol for so many times and broke it i have completely lost hope !!!

      Its good the help is out there and we can always get an advice but im gonna do this on my own and im ready to quit and i really hope that you guys all stop right now because we deserve better .

      Life its beautiful but gambol will make it ugly !

      Lets start living

      Wish you all the best

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      NoSlots 2 years ago

      Mohammed - I agree slots are the most addictive form of gambling. It seems very innocent when you first play but before you know it your'er hooked. I don't understand how governments not only legalize it but promote it all for the sake of a buck - in the long run it's going to cost alot more than they're making because of the social issues that continue to increase.

      What really worries me is the impact that online gambling is and will have in the future. Many lives will be affected. At least when you go to a casino you have to get there rather than sit on your butt at a computer where your self control will really be tested. For this reason I have been fortunate to stay away from online gambling and intend to stay away in the future as it's hard enough for me to stay away from the casinos. I wish everyone the best and God's strenght in their personal struggle with this demon.

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      Mohammed 2 years ago

      Slot machines is very dangerous gambling.government have to think about it.many many people are ruined .this is most worse.

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      Tell me 2 years ago

      I want to post so I can tell someone.

      I lie so much that I have to keep track of the lies sometimes.

      I don't gamble all the time I can go months but when I do I will spend every cent me and my family have.

      I always find a way out but the thoughts that go thro my mind after a big loss are crazy. Desperate thoughts of how to replace the money. Gotta slap myself outta it. There's something missing in my life not the thought of winning all my past money.im working on another lie as we speak but after reading all of these I'm gonna really sit back and try to see what the heck I need to change in my life to make me feel complete.one thing I will say is when I'm happy I don't think about gambling it's only sad times or stress.

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      BennyUSA 2 years ago

      We're just human...we made bad decisions! But there's always hope! Get rid of gambling before its too late. We have life to live.....enjoy it in a healthy way....know god,know peace

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      frank49er 2 years ago

      i received my commissions and immediately gambled almost have of them..started small and then began following my losses..am feeling so bad infact am now numb...so disappointed in myself.

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      NoSlots 2 years ago

      It's been over a month since I last posted. My fortunes changed for awhile as I started to win more than lose but this only made matters worse. I started going more often and played longer till I gave it all back plus. Now I'm trying to stay away - I try to think of the feelings of emptyness, uselessness, anger, contempt at feeding one $20 after another into this stupid machine trying to chase a high of mutiple free spins or a jackpot etc. Then that sick feeling you get in your stomach knowing that your down so far that a jackpot won't be enough to get out of the hole. I feel there are 3 limations you need to control - Money you spend,how often you intend to play, and the length of time you plan on playing. For me I can't keep a time limit - I'll stay as long as I possibly can without causing any problems on the home front. This causes me to take out funds from the ATM"s ensuring my losses add up. If I could just go in for an hour and walk out win or lose then I believe I might gain control but I can't so I'm staying away. Wish me luck.

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      frank49er 2 years ago

      i have been inconsistent at going to the bookies for about 1 mnth and its done me more good than harm.i can sleep better think better and generally my sorry life has improved abit. i have been broke and havent been in my country but i guess the really test will be when i have got my salary and the travels have stopped.dont know if i have gotten through this vice..God help me not to think about the losses and start chasing them again.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I wasted $10 on scratchoff lottery tickets today. 1 free ticket "winner" in the bunch, which yielded another loser. I really need to save my money since I had to spend almost $1000 for dental work.

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      andy 2 years ago

      Wish i could stop lost 800 pounds in 3 days feel so low and need help fast

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      hi justin just remember YOU CAN,T WIN BECAUSE YOU CAN,T STOP!

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Welcome Justin!

      You are definitely not alone. And although it's taken a criminal record for me to see the light I can tell you that there is a light! The best thing I did was tell the important people in my life what was going on. You'll find out who is really going to be there for you plus this addiction loves secrecy so it grows when nobody knows about it but you. Once you start being honest about it and bringing it into the light its grip lossens a bit and you can see a bit clearer. We' re here if you need support! Keep working at it

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      Justin 2 years ago

      Well it's 4:00am here in Aus, and once again lying in bed, can't sleep, just wondering what I've done with my life...pokies have basically screwed me big time, I couldn't count how much money I've thrown away on them, not to mention my family life, so now I live alone, don't socialise, really live a pretty miserable existence. Luckily I have a fairly reasonable job, so the money keeps coming in, but I pretty much gamble everything that isn't critical to living...reading this forum tonight really does make me understand how many people this disease affects globally. I'm 42, and I feel like I've still got time to turn my life around and I want to so bad!!

      So I'm planning on reading this forum everyday to get some inspiration out of you guys that are facing up to the same battle...

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Addiction is not something you can control through behaviour modification. If it was that easy, my friend, none of us would be in these situations. If you can control your gambling through simple thought process (outwitting the casinos) as you say you do then you are not addicted. You just enjoy gambling. And I am happy for you. I am happy for anyone that can enjoy any addictive substance or behaviour in moderation.

      The majority of the population, however, cannot do so. And to hear of your gambling exploits is in no way helpful to those of us that cannot accomplish what you have done. All it does is serve to severely piss people off.

      My point, sir, is that you are more than welcome to enjoy this site and utilize it for your own purposes but please have respect for the rest of us and limit your posts to helpful information and not "bragging" about how you've managed to beat this addiction. You may want to relate to us addicts but you are not succeeding.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I am 45 chronologically, about 10 psychologically.

      This site is about gambling addiction. I qualify. My brain is obsessed with everything related to gambling. I spend lots and lots of time thinking about gambling. I feel compelled to gamble every chance I get. I used to lose too much money. I finally decided to stop the red ink. I could never go cold turkey, so I decided to go warm turkey. I could never be free of this addiction, so for me the solution was to learn how to feed my addiction cheaply. The one line and play one per line buttons work very well when used for their intended purpose. Take George Washington to the casino, leave Ben Franklin at home. I never use ATMs in casinos or anywhere else besides at my own bank because I hate the idea of paying any service charge to access my own money.

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      MD1982 2 years ago

      Thanks pokerpare. Kevin doesn't seem to understand the sheer hell that is gambling.

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Kevin, how old are you?

      It seems like you prefer to brag about your gambling expiditions, which is fine, but it really is very disrespectful to the others on this site that are struggling with this horrible addiction.

      Is it possible for you to find another site to post on?

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      In mid July there is an arcade game convention that I would like to go to, but for the second year in a row it looks like I will probably not be able to get off work to go. So just like last year I will likely make another trip to Las Vegas sometime in August. The last several months I rarely get a Sunday off anymore; I am almost always off on weekdays, when it is so convenient to ride the bus to the Indian casino. It's like it is my destiny to go gamble with all of my free time! Not a lot of excitement here in Bakersfield California. Next month Six Flags Magic Mountain will be open weekdays, so I will have somewhere else to go for fun instead of going to the casino every day off.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      A man on the bus back from my favorite casino today told me that he lost $1000 to the roulette machine, $100 per spin for 10 spins back to back in about 5 minutes. He said that it was his tax refund and that he might as well spend it on something, so it was no big deal. Losing $1000 sure would be a big deal to me! My tax refund will be over $1000 and I am not going to gamble it. Well, I will be going to Las Vegas in May and might lose up to $200 (hopefully much less than that) and another approximately $600 for hotel, bus, city bus, food, pinball, and a ride wristband at the fair.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      well i not bet for over 6 weeks and it was the first day of cheltenham this week so just thought i will try a 50 pound bet as i won,t do any harm! i thought i will stick on these top 4 horses all to win and the 3 won easy and i had about 500 going on this last horse called annie power to win about 800 and it was clear coming to the last fence and fell!! i was so sick even though it was just 50 pound i lost really but in my head it seemed like 800! so i ended up going on the roulette machine and lost another 250 as i went to the cashpoint 3 times! what is wrong with me? i will never ever be in control of this evil illness! feel so bad now and depressed and had enough of life!

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      NoSlots 2 years ago

      First post on this site:

      . I read the posts of those who lost everything gambling, and still went back, but that did not stop me from continuing on with my gambling problem at the slots. Because I was only blowing a hundred ,1 or 2 times a month, I felt that I was in control and enjoyed the excitement and entertainment. I didn't think I had a problem or was out of control, until it became a couple visits a week and 2- 3 hundred plus each visit. I found myself chasing my loses and realized that I was now a compulsive gambler ,when it came to slot play. I would “play to play “ Any winnings meant I could play longer thereby very rarely walking out with any money in my pocket. It's been about 2 years since I became a compulsive gambler. The good thing was ,I started to keep track of dates and wins (seldom) and losses each time I went. This gave me a clear message as to the progression of my problem and the extent of my losses which were steadily increasing. I thought, that having been financially responsible all my life ,that this would stop me but it didn't. I still would get the urge and go back for entertainment and try and win back some money. I knew the only solution was to stay away period, but HOW?

      I felt if I could come up with something that would reward me by not going to the slots, that just might help. I added up all my losses for the past year and broke it down to a daily cost. I made a spread sheet in which I put in the date and day and how much I saved by not going to the slots. Also I kept track of how strong the urge to gamble was each day. This seemed to keep me focused and it worked for about 6 weeks, but then I went back to where I was before. So now I'm starting over again.

      Compared to a lot of your stories, I feel very blessed to not have not had a major effect on my family or finances to this point but you have shown me it would only be a matter of time if I don't quit.

      If this can be of help to anyone than that would be the greatest blessing I can get from sharing my story.

      God Bless

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      gambler looser 2 years ago

      Gamble are scary. So you better quit 'NOW' . When you sleep It can make you wake just to go with it. Even inside your dreams their in.its like a demon keeping you to get worst and worst. Feel numb to everything. Don't want to talk to anyone when you loose on gamble, the matter is i am being selfish.i don't care about the feelings with the people surrounds me. They love me and i don't want to lose them so i want to quit now. i always say that i want to quit 'NOW' but still i did it many times. I quit couple of months then again i'm back to the world of sickness. I do know how to get rid off gamble but i cant. i feel that i am so insane about gamble, wishing that someday i can wake and say no gamble at all. Wish me luck. And God bless you all.

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Gambler, tell your family and your friends. I know that's scary for many reasons. You're afriad they'll judge and reject you. But you'll find out who is truly going to be there for you through this struggle. Also this demon lives through secrecy. So when you expose it and bring it into the light it doesn't have as great a hold on you. Take the first step and tell everyone that's important to you. It also brings some accountability. I know your biggest fear is that if everyone knows then you can't continue to gamble but trust me when I say that it is the first step in ending this horrible addiction. Please. I beg of you. Tell them.

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      Gambler 2 years ago

      I want to stop but I keep rationalising the next bet. This month I used what little saving I had, I have been gambling for a very long time ruining past and possibly present relationships.. I cannot stop gambling I see no end I only see the next bet.. I have kept it a secret from all my loved ones. I need to stop because I don't want this to kill me

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      MD1982 2 years ago

      @jones dip into savings?? Most compulsive gamblers have no savings. You ARE LUCKY

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      jones 2 years ago

      Thank Christ I only had a compulsion to play those bandit video slots and had no other gambling habbits draining my money so it was a matter of staying away from the track slots for me. My bills are a priority and when I got to the point I had to worry about my bank balance it was time to stay away from the track because obviously I was losing too much and dipping in to savings to shore up my account at the end of the month to ensure

      I had adiquate funds to cover my bills. It was time to quit while I was ahead. That's all it took , a desicion to stay away and do other things that don't cost so much and allow my account to recover to sensible levels.

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      we can always make more money my friends but we can't make back the time and energy we spent on the machines so please don't focus on the money. The money is the problem. It's the devil. Forget about the money and focus on the time and experiences with family and friends and yourself!

      Hang in there everyone.

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      MD1982 2 years ago

      @BennyUSA Thanks for the kind words. I just can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. Life is truly horrific. I lost money my father left me after he died.

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      BennyUSA 2 years ago

      You are not alone....MD1982! We are all struggling.....I'm fighting this illness everyday....f******king urge is there...I hate it!Be strong my friend.....life is good..focus yourself in a better way....u can do it..there's hope!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I was at my favorite casino today. I saw an old woman with around $750 in credits on a penny machine. She was betting $3 per spin. I started playing the machine next to her for my usual one penny per spin. after she had lost $150 I told her "don't give it all back". She replied that she had been at the casino for over 24 hours and had lost over $4000! I hope she is rich and can afford it. I can't imagine losing that much in one year, let alone one day.

      I am about halfway through the book "Addiction by design. Machine gambling in Las Vegas" that is advertised on this page. I totally relate to what it says about falling into "the machine zone". I figure that if you must get into "the machine zone", and I must, then at least enter as cheaply as possible.

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      MD1982 2 years ago

      Hello everyone.

      I've been reading posts off here for the past two days.

      I am a compulsive gambler. I am addicted and have been addicted to the fobt in bookmakers for over ten years. I have probably lost around £30,000 in them. I live with my mother, I can't drive, I have nothing to show in anything. I am a nobody and have nothing and it is all because of gambling. I have seriously contemplated suicide a few times. I do not want to live like this. I am in so much debt. I cannot even cry anymore. I would think the only way to stop is to be dead

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      indian 2 years ago

      The pain is real! I find mysel just sitiing in the casino cursing at myself asking the same questions why?? why this? why that? just to do it all over again . The shame is real sometimes i feel like im worthless like i shouldve known better. i day dream all the time thinking about the big hit and then going to try make the dream come through. Win a couple hundred to lose a couple thousand. Begging god for that one hit, i hope everyone including myself comes to their senses n realize what we are doing to ourselves . its 8 in the morinig i spent all night in the casino n this is the only comfort i could find . It helped a little hopefully i can b strong n do what i have to do i wish u all the best of luck (insider)

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Pat. Have you read any books? Gone to counselling? Attended groups? That's a great place to start because then you'll gather tools to help you. Are you gambling because you're bored? Lonely?

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      Pat 2 years ago

      Thanks for the response and support Pokerpare , I will definately give that a try , and see how I get on . The main difficulty for me is finding some one to talk to as I work anti social hours , and often end up in a bookies as soon as they open , which is when I finish work , but I will give it a go and I hope that life can be good again , because I really am finding it a struggle right now , and gambling ruins every aspect and controls me with out me even knowing and I just need to stop , hope fully I can , and thanks again .

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Pat please know that you are not alone. Weak struggle with this horrible addiction. The key is to find the strength in yourself to take small steps every day.

      One thing that helped me is to play the scenario through in my mind. When you get that urge and all you can think about is gambling the. Think about what happens afterwards. The depression and anger and regret. And try to find one person to trust and tell them that you're feeling very tempted and need help. For me, it's my fiancé. He helps me through it.

      Hang in there. Keep trying to find the answers. Life can be good again. I promise

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      Pat 2 years ago

      Just hate life right now , well hate myself more specifically. The wheel of death has me deep in its grasp , and I just cannot escape . Damn roulette !!!

      I don't no what it is or why but I can't help but play , I no the eventual outcome , my bank balance shows me that , and I have nothing to show for it , but it doesn't matter where it is either a casino or in a bookies , fobt are the worse !! Where every you go there is a bookies just round the corner with at least 4 of these fobt in . I wish they would ban them would make my life a lot easier . I'm addicted to playing them and need help to stop , but can't seem to manage it , life doesn't feel enjoyable anymore , I've lost friends because of my gambling and my family barely speak to me because of how I am , I can't even begin to put a figure on the amount I have lost because I would be sick . I don't go out anymore, don't have many friends and barely speak with family all because of my gambling addiction , I am below rock bottom , and i am looking for a way out , just can't seem to find it ,

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Exactly! I never think about the money I lost. If I do then it just makes me angry with myself. It's just money. It's not happiness. I'm focusing on completing my sentence and doing whatever I can to repair the damage. I have over $200,000 in debt, but each month that goes by that number is going down and my pride and self worth is going up. Focus on the things that bring you pride and happiness.

      As I've said before I'm happier now than I've ever been. Life is good without gambling!!

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      stopppp 2 years ago

      First thing you have to do is to forgive your self and stop thinking about getting your losses back because your gonna end up losing more.....

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Hey everyone.

      It seems that people keep asking how to stop. I think it's different for everyone but the best advice I can give is to keep researching and gather as much information about it. Knowledge is power and since we feel so powerless it's the best place to start.

      For me I've come to realize that it's an escape from life when it gets hard. Since I can't gamble anymore I have two options. I can find another escape or u can face life's problems head on. Something amazing is happening to me. I'm facing them and the accomplishments are empowering. I'm feeling pride. Which is something I haven't felt in a long time! I'm actually cleaning up the massive mess I've made and although the progress is slow it feels so much better than any gambling win I've ever had!!

      Don't give up! Keep trying to face it all. That's the key. Don't run from all the problems. Just turn and face them head on. And in time you'll feel it shift.

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      BennyUSA 2 years ago

      Hello people ...hope all is well...just got my refund money from tax filing...there's slight urge to gamble but I ignore it! I might just buy what I want....that's a sure win! I hate gambling...pls. Stop! You will have a much better life!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Put Gamblock blocking software on your phone.

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      Benny USA 2 years ago

      You are not alone... Feeling helpless! I'm also struggling from this gambling illness....it almost knock me out emotionally ,phisically n most of all financially! It hurts.... It happens!...I ask the higher power to help me.....change my life.....I live with my faith..... Move on in life... There's hope my friend.....life is good...don't let gambling destroy your life.....STOP! your life will change to better....god bless!

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      feeling helpless 2 years ago

      I have read a lot of comments and am in the same boat. I yelled at my kids because I lost a lot this morning. I'm depressed anxious and miserable. How do you quit gambling. I do it right on my phone. I smashed 3 phones since August. I need help.

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Well I've made it through my first week of house arrest. I've accepted it now and am going to do my time with as much dignity as possible. In case anyone is wondering, I stole over $70,000 from a previous employer due to my gambling addiction. Hence the criminal conviction.

      One of the things that I find interesting is how many people on here are chasing their loses. I understand it but I've said goodbye to all that and only look to the future now. The guilt and remorse only made me want to gamble more. I don't care about the money I've lost anymore. It's just money. I'd rather have my freedom and a clear criminal record than have all that money back.

      Take care everyone!

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      frank49er 2 years ago

      Hi guys. its amazing that this stories seem to resonate with me.I feel blessed being around this team. Where can i start?? I have gambled away my savings..my rent...i have burrowed bank loans to start up a business but wasted it all on betting. I have a job but my mind is never here..am afraid if am not careful i might loose everything. just this week i gambled my rent money and i have been told by my landlord to leave.i will be homeless..my girlfriend has bailed me out many times but she is tired..i feel so hopeless..i feel like the only way i will stop is when i get all my losses back...and this is the biggest lie ever...am lost

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      This house arrest just may be the best thing that ever happened to me. I've accomplishes more in the last four days than I have in a year. And I'm grateful for the opportunity. I sincerely am grateful.

      videopokerloser one of the things that has helped me is to learn to let go of the loses. Accepting that the money is gone will help you stop chasing it. I don't think about the money I've lost anymore. It's gone and I am actually glad it's gone. Because when I accepted that I realized that I'm free. I'm at peace with it and truly don't care about it anymore.

      Please know that you are in my thoughts and I wish you strength to overcome this demon.

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Pokerpare, I'm glad you're looking at this positively and grateful for the things you do have. Few employers would be so understanding. I'm personally just bitter when I think of all the money I've lost gambling. I live in Las Vegas and I'm doing better since I moved back here a few months ago, but even my small losses are getting on my nerves and keeping me awake at night. I went to the casino just to activate some entries, and damn if I didn't put everything in my pocket in a machine when I swore I wouldn't. It pisses me off I'm so weak this way. I don't understand why it has a hold on me. I'm hoping that I'm close to a breakthrough and soon will be completely over with gambling. I think inside that is what is happening to me.

      Kevin. Please go on another forum and brag about your self control...at least with gambling. Maybe you think it's helpful to us, but it's not.

      Darwin, winning that much money would be a dream to most of us, but before I'd probably do the same as you are, if you mean you're gambling it away. I hope you stop before you have nothing left, because that's what will happen. No one stays a winner for too long.

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      darwin 2 years ago

      I won 1.2 mil in 2007 it was NOT a blessing it was a curse i wish i never won its ruined my life, my spouse left me, my friends think im a jerk, god help me before its too late....

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      So far I'm very lucky. I have kept my job. My employer knows and supports me. I feel so blessed to be able to still work and serve my sentence under house arrest. I'm banned from any gambling for 15 months. This jis maybe the kick in the ass that I needed.

      Kevin, I appreciate your personal position about gambling but I think you fail to realize how your posts affect those that cannot gamble moderately. Please be considerate of the rest of us. It's like going on an alcoholic page and bragging about drinking moderately. I'm glad it works for you but perhaps you can consider how difficult it is for the rest of us.

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      BennyUSA 2 years ago

      Sad to know ....pokerpare! Our prayers be with u....keep the faith!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I had a good week gambling this week. Wednesday I went to a different Indian casino. I decided to risk $20 at blackjack. I turned it into $50 and then lost $10 back. I was tempted to keep playing, but I thought "Bull****! They are not getting it all back". I lost $ on slots, for a net win for the day of $14. The buffet cost $12.99 + $1 tip, so I left the casino one cent richer than when I walked in. Thursday I went to my favorite Indian casino. I had a $5 match play and my monthly e-mail offer of $10 free slot play. I won the match play and then lost the next hand and stopped. I lost $3 of the free $10 for a net win for the day of $12.

      During my recent trip to Las Vegas I went to Heart Attack Grill for a free burger (I weigh over 350 pounds). They sell candy cigarettes there (the place stands against all forms of political correctness). They were readily available back in the 1970s when I was a kid, until almost all stores got rid of them due to fears that they encouraged kids to smoke. I decided to buy a pack. Then I went to a casino and pretended to "smoke" them while playing slot machines (one penny at a time). I put the pack on the machine's control panel like many real smokers do. I even ordered a non-alcoholic beer to go with it. Here I was pretending to be a Vegas party animal: fake cigarettes, fake beer, and technically real gambling. I thought it was cool. Bystanders probably thought that I was an idiot.

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      BennyUSA 2 years ago

      Gambling addiction is the worst....pls. Stop it! I'm struggling too....but I never lost hope! Thinking of destruction if I don't stop! I'm buried in debts already ....I work so hard to pay it back....god is good! In god ..we trust.....keep the faith in god....there's hope!

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      I am officially a convicted criminal. This is the last humiliation I will suffer at the hands of this addiction.

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      Well I'm on my way to court to find out my fate. The few people in my life that know about this are all rooting for me. I feel loved. Strange thing is people that I'm in a professional career in financial services. I am quite successful but that wasn't enough to feed this demon addiction. It's never enough. Here's hoping for the best.

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      LanTran02@yahoo.com 2 years ago

      I want to read more stories, so I can learn from theirs experience, that I m not alone.

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      Mike 2 years ago

      There is a very good ebook i read on Amazon kindle online, it's called ""how I stopped gambling"" I only read it a few days ago and I feel like my life changed after I finished reading it, absolutely amazing

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      2 years ago

      Thnx pokerpare. I have been told that dealing with the pain of the destruction we cause and even talking about some factors that are non-gambling related that could have helped build a path to my illness would be extremely challenging. The security staff was congratulating me & telling me I was doing the right thing by self-excluding myself...they even told me other casinos I should do the same at that I've never been to. I used to be the social butterfly and enjoy being with friends & family more than anything...I have missed a great deal of quality life time isolating myself with this insane addiction. When I am feeling uncomfortable, awkward, and pain in recovering...I don't want to forget the depression and devistation I am in now.

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      8 days and no gambling. Not that unusual for me though since I can go a couple of weeks and be just fine. Should be okay though since I'll likely be on house arrest in two days as a result of my horrible decisions. I'm ready for it. Been waiting for almost 4 years for this to be over. My fiancé has said he's going to stick with me through all of this and I know he will. If I don't stop gambling I'll lose him and thay scares me more than anything else. Still feeling strong. Hang in there everyone. Oh and K.... If you're feeling uncomfortable about counselling you're probably doing the right thing. We as addicts tend to stay away from anything uncomfortable and that's what gets is into trouble so if you can manage it. Face the awkward and uncomfortable stuff. At least for me that's when I know I'm doing something that I need to do.

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      2 years ago

      I am scared of what my future holds, I want to let go of the self destruction, lies, secrets, shame, guilt, and remorse of my past...I've done GA..which caused more problems for me as it became a new addiction and I didn't focus enough on my own recovery, but everyone else. Another relapse a year later...tried a counselor...made me uncomfortable..relapsed again...saw another counselor...also awkward. Now, about 3 years later...another relapse kept secret from everyone in my life and now facing losing the love of my life...15yrs married. Went with close friend to all casinos in area and self-excluded myself "for life"...it was intense..I'm hoping to be able to forgive myself some day, but I cant believe or even begin to understand how I could continue to hurt the people I love the most in my life...fckng hate myself right now...many of your stories had me crying my eyes out as I can relate. Stupid. Stupid fckng machines! I'm way to scared to do anything illegal, so I'm hoping this is it for me. I have a lot of work to do on myself to reach the world I desire that is real, possible, and can exist. Currently in misery.

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      BennyUSA 2 years ago

      Stay strong... My friend Jacob ! Don't get tempted because of winnings..... There's no winnings...in the end u lose it all

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      Jacob 2 years ago

      I haven't been here for a while but thought I'd come back because its been exactly 2 months and I haven't gambled a penny.

      I am proud of myself but my best friend just won £2,800 from £50 on roulette and I suddenly have this massive urge to go to the casino. I need to stay strong but I haven't had an urge like this for a while.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I ordered the books "Addixtion by design" and "Gambling addiction real stories" from the list of recommended books on this page. They should be interesting reading.

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Such sad stories here. I'm still fighting it myself having moved back to Las Vegas, but amazingly, it's easier because the slot machines are so bad here (as they are everywhere, I imagine). Gambling is the corporate way to just keep people in their place - the rich get richer and the poor get poorer which is why casinos keep sprouting up everywhere in this country and around the world. The best thing for me is not to enter a casino for any reason. Here, you can pay your bills, cash your paychecks - they've thought of every reason to get you in the door so temptation takes over for us who are vulnerable. Don't let them get your hard earned money out of you. Over the years, I've seen so many broken souls due to gambling. I was almost one myself. :(

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      Pokerpare 2 years ago

      I have just spent the entire day reading every single post. I am a 47 year old woman that has been gambling for as long a I can remember. I have made over $2 million in earnings and have nothing to show for it. I have declared bankruptcy twice and am now in a consumer proposal to pay over $100k in back taxes. I am also facing fraud charges. I stole from a previous employer. My marriage ended because we both were toxic with gambling and drinking. I'm now engaged to an amazing man and although I've cut down on my gambling a lot it's still too much. I've changed a lot but not enough. I have to stop completely. And now is the time. Today is day one.

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      Hope2015 2 years ago

      Hi new to posting here but I've been reading all your posts and can relate to each one of you in some way...my situation is the hardest because I'm trying to quit and recover from this horrible addiction but my whole family literally gambles mom, dad, brother and sisters...I can't distance myself from them because they are my family. I feel alone at times and want to give in but I try to stay strong it's only Day 7 feels like eternity...won't give up hope that someday I will be successful in overcoming this addiction.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      we got to not start gambling as we know when we start we can,t stop! so we can never win as we never can stop!

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      mal100 2 years ago

      been one for years now, you might say what the f/// he on about. We live in another world when we gamble, we let know in our cocoon,how wrong we are to do this.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      not gambled so far this year but slipped up today and lost 600 pound in a fobt! so need to start all over again now! i must just stay out of these evil bookies.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I lost a total of $130 in Las Vegas. This number does not include travel expenses, just gambling.

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      EDS 2 years ago

      I've been playing online betting on and off for a year and lost for 20k now.. honestly these are the worst days life, stay till midnight, stress, anxious, not focus during work (miss out meeting)... my happiness are all gone.. lending money around family, friends.. owning 10k debt with another loan of 100k on going... i really hate this feeling and hope to let this stop from now.. losing trust from my family and friends... I really hope today is the day of my gamble life...

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I am in Las Vegas again. I arrived Wednesday night and will be leaving Tuesday morning. I have lost $29 so far, but tonight I will play craps, blackjack, and a poker tournament. My gambling budget for the trip is not over $200 and preferably not over $100. I spent Thursday with my friend from an arcade game website that lives here. tomorrow I am going to pig out on lobster at a seafood buffet.

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      Rod 2 years ago

      Kevin,

      The minimum bet thing is tough for me. I am an owner of a few businesses and the high risk/high reward is embedded in me. However, I spent the day fishing instead of going to the casino and found it relaxing and exhilarating at the same time. This is a past-time I used to do and is a lot less expensive. I'm on my way to discipline and self-control again.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Ten thousand dollars on penny machines? Keep your hands away from the max bet button. It is pure evil. The good buttons are "one line", "play one per line", "repeat the bet" (only after first pressing the previous two buttons), "cash out", and "service" (in case of a malfunction). All the other buttons are evil.

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      Rod 2 years ago

      Thanks to all for sharing. I've been in denial and have quit before as well, but starting back reminds me of how controlling and damaging it is. I make well into the six-figures, but don't have the life to show for it due to gambling. I've lost $10k within the last week on penny slots. I have too many people depending on me to continue this disruptive behavior. Thanks for the reality check and transparency opportunity. Praying all the best as we conquer this addiction. God Bless!

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      Benny USA 2 years ago

      You are not alone ..sandy! We're all in the same boat... There's hope...keep your faith in god.....I lost a lot of money too...but we have life to live...just move on...this is a good time to start .....new year ..new life! Gone is gone.....forget it! Move forward n build up your good name again....just stop gambling ....life will change....be strong my friend...u can do it...god bless!

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      RTG 2 years ago

      Is CompColl4000 dead? I hope not.....

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      Benny USA 2 years ago

      I know it's hard to stop this illness but there's hope!

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      Sandy 2 years ago

      Where to begin??? I've been gambling for about 20 years.

      I had a great job at Notre Dame. I was fired I stoled to gamble. I think about this every day. I wrote bad checks. I owe everyone I know. I owe my daughter over 30,000.00, she paid the bank off so I would not go to jail. I gambled today, lost my whole unemployment check.

      WHATS THE SOLUTION????? I really have tried to stop, went to meetings. I HATE MYSELF, ALL I WANT TO DO IS LAY DOWN AND DIE. GOD PLEASE STOP THIS MADNESS.

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      jsaon 2 years ago

      its not easy

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      God bless you too, Steve. I posted a comment here yesterday how happy I was to hear from you and it's not showing up! I agree with Kieran...it will not help to do that in poker tourneys...

      Merry Christmas to everyone. Let's all hope 2015 is the year we beat this addiction.

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      Kieran 2 years ago

      Steve, going to cheap poker touraments will make things worst, eventually you will bet more and more.

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Oh, thank you, Steve, for letting us know you're okay! What a wake up call for all of us to see what gambling can push us into. So thankful you are safe and have a merry christmas and happy new year! I hope 2015 is the year for all of us to beat this addiction.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      hi all, just wanted to say i am safe and well as i ended up going to hospital and having my stomach pumped in the end and staying there for a few nights! lets hope this is my final warning! i,am just going to play cheap poker touraments from now on to pass the time away. thankyou for your corcern as it means alot. hope you all have a great christmas and happy new year and maybe we can all beat this terrible illness! god bless you all.

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      den 2 years ago

      i know wat its like,went xmas shopping with 300 pound,and thats all i had!!came back with nothing and not a penny as stopped in the betting shop on the way thinking i only try 20 pound in there!!cant afford presents anymore!!!that was 3 days ago!!hopefully my last bet ever!!!im crossing day after day on the calendar now,hoping it ll help,i wanna see many crosses on there!!i ll let u know if it works;)and sharing that helps too!!so if u read,share ur pain,it does help trust!!

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Just a reminder to everyone out there. Gamblers are really susceptible this time of year in the hopes of trying to win money for Christmas/Hanukkah and the holidays in general. I fell into that trap last year and blew $400 - a lot of money to me - a few days before Christmas. I still have a hard time forgiving myself for that, but so far this year, I haven't done this with that memory still raw in my mind. My heart hurts reading stories like from stevex who took too many pain pills and we haven't heard from him since. I truly hope what I fear hasn't happened. Steve, if you're out there, let us know you are okay.

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      Benny USA 2 years ago

      As long as we have this gambling habit in our lives ....our life will remain rough,stressfull,unstable,unhealthy,sadness n full of remorsed!...I'm one of them! Good luck to us.....hope one day..we STOP!

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      den 2 years ago

      i ve been trying to stop gambling for a while now!lost my girlfriend as i had to choose btwn changing and being on my own,she was the kind of girl reallyt good wiv her money planning on getting a mortgage and things...a year later,i havent changed a bit,lose all my wages gambling,struggle to pay off the loan i had to get to pay off a 6 grand credit card bill,and am on my own!i work hard,go to the gym but always end up going to the bookies!!i got myself barred but go to a different one further away which cost even more,as i had to sell my car too!!!easy to say im gonna stop now,but am i??lets see how long it last,gonna giuve it a really good go from now,should be easy few days as havent got a penny to spend;)good luck all,lets do this!!!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I am going to try to just go to the casino once per week instead of twice. I need to spend more time with my parents. They are in their late 80s, so odds are they won't be around too many more years. My mother was very delighted when I said I would spend tomorrow shopping with her instead of gambling.

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      Michelle Tee 2 years ago from United States

      Steve.. you do need help. Call the Gambling Helpline in your area. They will help set you in the right direction, okay. Your life is worth too much. Do not let gambling destroy you... you have too much to live for.

      We will never win at gambling... only lose..not just financially but in many areas of our lives.

      Michelle Tee

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Steve, I hope your suicide attempt failed and you are alive to read this. You need serious help. You should probably check yourself into a public mental hospital. There you will have no opportunity to harm yourself and no opportunity to gamble.

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      Benny usa 2 years ago

      Sad to hear that Steve ! You are not alone my friend ! I'm still playing...but now I just gamble what I can afford...I just lost $300. Today..playing 4/8 poker! Not my day......I surrender everything to my wife...she's in charge! I don't wanna lose her trust...I have 2 kidz one in college n one in high school!...since, it's hard for me to stop, Im trying to gamble in moderate way! Just move on bro! Gone is gone.....life is good!

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      well i had 700 saved for christmas and ended up losing 200 on those evil roulette in bookies and then something took over me and i ended up doing another 500 and doing it all! laying in bed now and already taken 10 codine tables and i got no money and no friends no job so i got nothing in life to live for! i just been sick now from the overdose! i am writing this because hopefully i will die now and this will set a example for all you gambles to give up and not be like me! hope you can beat this evil illness and live a happy life unlike me! lets hope i go to a better place soon! good luck all on beating it and everytime you get that urge just think you could end up like me if you carry on!! god bless you all

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I have been going to my favorite Indian casino once or twice a week and playing penny slots one penny at a time. One time I played Pai Gow for $5 plus $1 bonus bet. I quit after winning $12. Off topic, I went on a bit of in irresponsible shopping spree on credit. I bought a 42 inch 1080p tv to replace a 32 inch 720p tv. I also bought a new computer. Definitely better than wasting the money gambling, but I was already in debt $800+ for car repairs and now I am even more in debt.

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      Me 2 years ago

      I like gambling even though it is destructive indeed but I can't quit yet bc I have no life and nothing worthwhile to focus on....I go bk and forth b/n trying to quit and just accepting my repetitive degen nature. Definitely a hard life mentally and emotionally wish I could just quit....or get really lucky

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      Mr c 2 years ago

      Last night I lost the money to a purchase of a property...... I really messed it up this time, I have been gambling for 9 years of my life and it all started with the bookies, this then led to casino and worst of them all on-line gambling. I really don't know what to do any more, I have lost all control of my senses and only numbness fills my body. we are trapped in a spiral of despair and misery. engulfed in a unforgivable habbit. money spent gambling or lost in gambling no longer belongs to us and we must accept that is never was ours.

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      Rich 2 years ago

      We all know our brain dictates our actions - including gambling and other addictions - FDA approved Low Dose Naltrexone adjusts our immune system .

      It gave me life and my family back - haven't had bet or visited a casino for well over 12 months will be pleased to tell you how to find out if it's for you

      email gptmatters at g mail dot com

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      David 2 years ago

      I posted my first message 3 weeks ago and good news is, I ain't bet since. Family are being supportive and forgiving which I know I don't deserve but I do appreciate it. I've tried started going fishing more and taking driving lessons and I believe doing more things distracts your attentions from gambling, well so far so good.

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      Jacob 2 years ago

      I haven't bet in 5 weeks but this week decided to see if I could gamble responsibly. I did a £20 bet on the football and if all selections came in I would win £1,200.

      All 6 teams I needed to win on Saturday won, I just needed Everton and Chelsea to win and I'm in the money. Anybody who follows football knows what happened next. A F***** 93rd Man Utd equalizer against Chelsea cost me £1,200. I'm not usually a violent person but as soon as they scored I punched my TV and its broke. That's more money down the drain. I swear I'm one of the unluckiest punters out there.

      That's not the worst part, soon after in rage I log in to my betting account and piss £400 down the toilet on roulette and another £200 tonight. I need to stop this, I'm so annoyed with myself it's unreal :(

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Read my old messages. I have gotten my gambling under control without quitting completely. I now play slot machines one line one credit. 1 cent per spin. I don't play tables much anymore. I go to a nearby Indian casino once or twice per week and my budget per trip is 9 dollars. I usually spend much less than that. Despite my tiny bets, I am still obsessed with gambling. At least it doesn't cost much anymore.

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      danny 2 years ago

      I have been suffering from addiction to the roulette now for about 3 years. I have always enjoyed gambling, started off with just football coupons etc. It got worse and worse and I will gamble ridiculous things like a full months paycheck, or money I owe. I am definitely a compulsive gambler, just wondering if anyone who has quit has found a good way not going full turkey, like £10 a week or something? I have tried this before and had no luck, feeling depressed and socially awkward 24/7

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Glad to see new people have joined us in our journey to stop gambling. Fay, it sickens me to think how much I've lost gambling...not just money, but the trust and disrespect I had to rebuild with my family who loves me regardless. I don't deserve them! They have stood by me the whole time, and I lied shamelessly with them as well.

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      Benny 50 2 years ago

      Hope all is well! I'm struggling with this illness...but never lost my hope.....one day at a time...pls. Stop the pain....stop gambling.... !

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      Adrian 2 years ago

      Stu13, please update us on how things go with the hypnotist. I wish the solution is that simple and maybe it is. I wish you the best of luck.

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      Fay 2 years ago

      I am 53 yrs old and have a gambling problem. I just want to be able to focus on something else in life besides myself and my money problems. My thoughts are never "clear" because this underlying problem and the anxiety it causes are always in the back of my mind. I am so ashamed and embarrassed. I have 2 good jobs and my husband works 2 good jobs and we would be doing great financially if it weren't for me. I have turned into a person who writes bad checks, borrows money from others,

      let myself go physically, betrayed the trust of others, I lie without thinking twice about it. My marriage is on paper only. I so want to rise above this. It owns me. I am a slave to it and only compound it with my self hatred because of my guilt. I am going to take this a day at a time and try and pray through it.

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      David 2 years ago

      I'm 28 I've been gambling since around 19 and I have got to the point where I change or I don't exist, I lose my wages every month within 2 days of being paid, I've run up lots of loans and now I've done the worst of the worst, I took money that was my dads around £1800 I thought if I could just win 100 and put it back, I would be ok until payday, I lost the lot, the thought that it was stealing never entered my head, I stole my dad's money and now I'm struggling to cope with what I've done, it's now not about the money, it's about my family I've hurt them without realising it, I will pay the money back within a a couple of months, but this has shattered my parents n family and myself, something inside of me has been asleep for a long time but now my eyes are open and I've made myself my family and the whole world a promise, I will never gamble again not a single penny, I've lost some of the best years of my life, nearly lost my family and that ain't gonna happen again. This is my second chance at my adult life, I'm going to pay my parents back and then set up a payment plan to pay my debts off, I'm not sure if there's a charity for problem gamblers but there should be, us gamblers need more help

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      Benny50 2 years ago

      Welcome on this site ALEX! You made the right decision in your life.....stop gambling my friend.....there's a lot of help. ,like attending GA meetings, reading books how to stop gambling, go to I stop gambling.com...many more! I'm also struggling.....I hate this illness...kick this habit out in your life, stop the pain.....just move on ..and enjoy life in a health way....there's hope!

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      Alex 2 years ago

      I've lost 25000 in the last 3 months and well over 200000 since first starting to gamble I'm not In dept have a good paying job but somtimes I think what for as I have nothing to show only yesterday I lost 2500 and week before that 3500 it's only now I relise I need help before it to late

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      Patron kid 2 years ago

      My gambling addiction has gotten the best of me. It hurts bad. I gamble my rent and bill money. And it hurts I want to quit. I am alone and don't have anyone by my side and when I think about my bills I rely on the gambling gods to uplift me from debt at least enough for me to quit. I'm only 28 and I've had negative thoughts even on commuting suicide that's how I know it's gotten the best of me. All I'm trying to do is win enough so I can get on my feet. And then I can be able to quit but it never works out for me. I never been the type to ask or borrow money from ppl as I've done so lately I feel like the scum of the earth. And believe I will win next time and then I lose. And feel like the bottom of the barrow all over again. I hate this feeling it's genetic and I wish to rid this gambling addiction out of my system. I pray daily I pray for help I pray that there's an upside to my downfall. And ask what did I do to deserve this? When all I'm really am trying to do is the right thing. I f'd ip

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      Stu13 2 years ago

      Hi

      I sat last night and read this entire blog, it was like looking in a mirror the most part. I decided that gambling has had a hold of me far to long and that I'm stopping today. From all the previous posts I can see this is going to be very hard nearly everyone relapses and very few people stop. Because of this I have decided to see a hypotist he says with just 1 session he can get me to stop. He reprograms the sub consience apparently. I have two weeks till the appointment but I will update you on how I get on as it could help some of you. Untill then it's take each day as it comes small goals get through each day gamble free. I'm hoping that the stories start to change that people start to beat this thing because right now it's looking kinda like the house is winning as always. Remember 'We can not win because we can't stop!! Good luck !

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      quitter 2 years ago

      Keeping things brief... I messed up again after doing so well.

      My total owings to the bank and family is now up to £20,775!!! So how is that possible after having got it down to £19,000 you may ask. Well it's because I messed up again today by losing another whopping £1,375 at the casino and because I've had to take out £600 from my daughter's savings account to cover the losses.

      My mistake was taking back my bank card from my wife while we went away, and then after the trip the card was left in my wallet and temptation was too great for me. I have now given back the card to my wife and have to start the process again, and now I owe people even more... and the worse thing is that one of those people is my unknowing 3 year old daughter!

      So here we go again... I owe my wife £1000, the bank £11,175, my mum £8000 and my daughter £600!!! That is a total of £20,775.

      I really must come on here more regularly to give updates and show how much I've paid back to make sure I keep things going, and so I don't fall into bad ways again! No one else can help me but me.... watch this space!

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      kate 2 years ago

      thanks Benny50

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      Benny50 2 years ago

      Hello everyone! Gamblers have some good days and some bad days.....it's a matter of choice...where you wanna be!.... If you want peace of mind....healthy life....live longer...then stop gambling! Just sharing my friends...it's happening on me.....on us....! Go to ga meetings. Meet people there that will motivates you....learn more about this illnesss and how to stop it! Till next....have a peacefully day......

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      there is no financial discipline when you got a gambling addiction kevin! thats what the gambling industry wants us to belive! the bookies in uk got posters saying stay in control ect! this is the biggest myth ever and they know it!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Gambling should be thought of as entertainment. It is not an investment and it is not a substitute for work. Like almost all entertainment, you have to pay for it. This year I will be going to our county fair 5 times. $45 per day, $30 for an unlimited ride wristband, $10 admission, and $5 parking. Other forms of entertainment can be much higher than that. Handled properly, gambling can be a very cheap form of entertainment. Misused, it can be extremely expensive. Every business exists to take people's money from them. Each person must learn financial discipline in all areas. Gambling is inherently neither evil or good. Like fire, water, and electricity, it can be used for good or for evil.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      thats good your not losing that much and you got the mindset to control and walk away when enough is enough! just be grateful you never chased your loses and lose everything all the time! so gambling to you is more a entertainment thing! this is the reason why gambling will never be banned from the uk as thats the goverments excuse, they say it will stop millions having entertainment!

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      I went to the casino today...free slot play pulling me in. I didn't lose much, but I walked past two people and stopped because one hit the bonus round on Wheel of Fortune. She won $2000, but told me when I congratulated her that she'd put $4000 in the machine. I stopped while another person won $8500 - sometimes I just walk around to watch people to see if they're winning - he'd put $10,000 in. He was playing $125 a hand in video poker. You think people are winning lots when you walk by, but when you stop and talk to them, they've lost. This is the reality of gambling. I'm not losing much per night, but little by little, gambling is still eating me away.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      hi paul, i know that feeling all too well! i,am 36 now and been gambling since i was about 6 on the penny machines. the thing is with me is i don,t gamble everyday like i used to, i don,t gamble for say 2 weeks and then i think i,am in control now and blow everything that i got and back to square one!! i truly belive that this illness never gos! just gets easier maybe to control!

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      Paul 2 years ago

      Depressed :( Gambled a lot of money tonight. I have just enough money if I skimp until my next pay - quality of life is so poor. Feel for you all.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      thankyou benny. i strongly belive that its demons that urge me to gamble! theres demons for sex and drugs ect too! after 2 weeks of not gambling these demons attack me! i know deep down i will never beat them myself and ONLY with the help of the lord can these demons be beaten.

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      Benny50 2 years ago

      You are not alone my friend...stevex36x! I was in te same situation the last 2 weeks.......really really bad! I know you want to get your money back......but it won't happen...you will just get buried n buried...don't let that happen to you my friend.......it's over....accept it n move on in life! That's what I'm doing now....learned from it, forget our losses...gone is gone! We pray for you!

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      not gambled for 2 weeks but today i wanted to win just 10 pounds and ended up losing 480 in the bookie roulette! i only had 20 on me but went to the cash machine and then the bank! i am sick of the urges after i stop for a bit and then when i do gamble i can not stop! there is just no hope for me and i feel so sick right now! please god help me

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      Benny 50 2 years ago

      Just sharing....some of the best lessons are learned from past mistakes. The error of the past is the wisdom of the future!.....get rid of this gambling habit...there's hope my friends!

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      Benny50 2 years ago

      Hope ...all is well! Stay in the positive mode....we all know that gambling destroy our lives....emotionally and financially !.. Pls. Stop gambling..don't put your life in trouble ! I'm sharing this because it happens to me....many times I failed .....one thing good with ...I have the heart to change again and again...I keep on coming back.....now, I sleep good...no rushing...there's urges but I don't go with it! I got PEACE. In my mind! I don't say that I'm safe...but I'm working with it. I learned from my past ..so, it keeps me stronger.....till next my friends...god bless!

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      I know you can do it, Benny. You have before, and each time, you'll get stronger. There's a lot of people on this list that don't post anymore. I hope they're still reading these words of wisdom and pain and hope from others!!

      "Casinos and prostitutes have the same thing in common; they are both trying to screw you out of your money and send you home with a smile on your face." VP Pappy

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      Benny50 2 years ago

      I will my friend...videopokerloser!... There's always HOPE!......the pains made me more stronger. I will not let this illness destroy my life.....I still have a good future...I'm old but still in good shape...I'm back in the gym...sweat n stay fit..feel better this way! Enjoy life in a healthy way...start partying....meet some new friends! Enjoy life in clean and healthy environment....people that hates gambling!..stop the pain...stop gambling!

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Good for Benny...keep it up!!!!

      "The only man who makes money following the races is one who does it with a broom and shovel." Elbert Hubbard

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      Benny50 2 years ago

      I felt ..in getting back to my old self......getting control over urges to gamble!... Peace started to developed into my brain.....kick this habit out of my life......enjoy it in a healthy way!... Hope u guys do the same!...if u need help...u can e-mail.me...bmb5912@yahoo.com. I will attend GA meeting today at 9:00am!.... Good luck to everybody!!!!

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      Benny50 2 years ago

      Pls. Pls. Pls.....my friend bruttall.... For me it's not a good idea!... Remember the 12 steps.....stay away from this f......casinos .....I'm begging ....I'm just like u.... Once we get there.....we lost our control.....even if we are winning....we never stop....how many...many times that happens to me....it's proven.....I don't f.....stopped....till I lost it all !.....the casino cardinal rule is true.....keep us playing....keep us coming back...till we lost it all! And even we know that...why do we still coming back?....we have life to live.....it's our choice my friend....this is 6 days gambling free....I have faith in god....I'll keep on fighting this illness......I do believe there's no peace in gambling.....it's not too late my friends....!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      You can bet on sports for just five dollars at most sports books. Make just a few five dollar bets and then stay in the sports book and watch the games you bet on instead of wandering over to the table games.

      Play slot machines one penny per spin. Ride the double decker bus on the Strip on the top floor front row for a great view. Go to the Pinball Hall of Fame and Gamer's Paradise next door. Go to the public library and use the internet. Las Vegas can be a cheap entertainment destination. Just don't take a lot of cash and stay away from ATMs.

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Thanks for the song, Kevin. No truer words have been spoken.

      Brutalll, doesn't sound like the greatest of ideas, however, I'm moving, dragging all of my stuff back to LV within a month if I save just a little more. I lived in LV for 9 years and miss it too much and my 2 kids that live there. LV is not a boring city to live in like the city I'm in now. There's a lot to do besides gambling and am positive I can stay out of that pattern now.

      If you do decide to go, I wish you luck, although you've been doing so good. Almost a month!! Isn't there somewhere else you'd rather go?

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      Brutalll 2 years ago

      Haven't gambled in 26 days , I do take smallish bets on ftball from a few acquaintences but I don't consider that as me gambling, anyway it popped in my head to go LV for a weekend so I can bet sports b/c I'm so bored & have no life. Trying to quit with no real friends around to hang out with and do things together Makes it easy to fall back into a gambling mentality & use gambling as a friend. I know it's not gd idea but I don't know what else to do w myself. hoping it will elevate my mood and help to get interested in doing other stuff. Don't know ....confused.will try to think it through some more before deciding.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jMwhs01Y21s

      Kentucky Gambler by Merle Haggard. Very appropriate lyrics.

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      That's exactly it, Benny...the excitement. I even ignored that little voice inside of me that was screaming, Go home!!! I need to pay attention to that voice that never steers me wrong because I think it's my angels. I was tired, sick of gambling and of the noise in the casino. Someone else is in the driver's seat when I gamble pushing me to lose it all. It's not me navigating anymore.

      Quote of the day: Luck sometimes visits a fool, but it never sits down with him. ~ German Proverb

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      Benny 50 US 2 years ago

      It's because of excitement...videopoker loser!...... Me too...I lost it all! Sometimes it's good without money...no money to gamble! But when there's money....urge comes ....that evil voice gets into our ears...tempting us to gamble again........get some winnings but in the end we lost! Because. We never stop! This is crazy world ...my life is coming fall apart...slowly killing me....I'm off the tract! I agree with u...videopokerloser...we have problem! The good thing of me is....I accept the fact and ready to move on to the next chapter of my life...I'm 56 yrs. old...I have 6 yrs. left to retire.... Never lost hope....we have life to live....just enjoy it......above all.....have faith in god.....he is the answer of this problem!

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Well I messed up last night myself. Got an email for free slot play to "come back" and didn't take a lot of money with me. I won and put it all in again, as usual. Ugh. It's not about the money anymore because I didn't lose much of what I brought and am fine financially, but it's the disgust at myself for buying into that. I couldn't sleep when I got home...partially due to drinking 3 coffees there, but I just don't understand why I do this. It's the psychological aspect of me that I don't get. I was "up" quite a bit, but didn't leave like I should have. I just don't get it. :(

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      Benny 50 US 2 years ago

      Im just like u Paul !... I'm also struggling from this illness!.....but I never lost my hope!... I accept what's going on with me....I pray to god to give me the strength to resist this evil temptation ! We know what's gonna happen with us when we gamble....still, we do it!..... We have life to live my friend....be smart!

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      Paul 2 years ago

      I'm retard because of gambling, loose more than 100,000 my 6 Years income, tried to stop gambling 1000 times but cannot control my self , physically I'm getting weak and loose my frens and family and. All property

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      Benny50. US 2 years ago

      We pray for u stevex36x.....I'm also struggling right now...got my paycheck yesterday.....this evil voices is tempting me again.....strong urge to gamble......I went to gym ...keep my body got tired......stay busy....fight this f...evil......it destroy our lives.......calm down and think those times that we were broke......it's hard without money my friend.......I'm trying to be smart this time.....!

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      not gambled for over 2 weeks before this week and i won about 160 and just now i lost 220 in a space of 5 minutes on those evil rouette machines in bookies! i feel like i lost 220 and its so hard atm for me as i want to go to the bank and get money out and chase it! i,am saying to myself i,am only 60 pound down this week steve so don,t worry, but the urge is so strong its unreal! please can everyone prey for me that i can resist this strong evil satanic urge.

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      You could have a steam train, if you'd just lay down your tracks. You could have an aeroplane flying, if you bring your blue sky back........

      I kicked the habit...shed my skin....this is the new stuff... I come dancing in...we come dancing in...gonna feel that power build in you.

      Peter Gabriel, Sledgehammer

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Quote of the Day:

      In the casino, the cardinal rule is

      to keep them playing and to keep them coming back.

      The longer they play, the more they lose,

      and in the end, we get it all…

      Robert DeNiro in Casino Royale

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      Benny 50 2 years ago

      Getting better....keep myself busy....I would never let the f...... Evil voice get over my brain to gamble again ! I will be a strong person now. I will put god first...in everything I do.....I will ignore the evil voices that keeps on tempting me to gamble. I'm a hardworking person ...I don't. Deserved to have a shattered life! To all my friends....pls. Don't gamble....don't be tempted from what the evil voices delivers into our selves....don't listen.....resist the evil.......we have god voice...powerful than evil....be strong , keep the faith! This is my 4th day gambling free.....let's put our mind together ...we have one goal.....stop gambling!

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      Brutalll 2 years ago

      Benny yes I have similar problem I used to think I gambled some of my best when I am losing and trying to win it back, very very aggressive betting no fear of the outcome whatsoever just like in a hell bent zone to win it back or be ruined. As you know mostly it ends in ruin. The times it works will end up in loss the next time or two back which sends you back to the trash can again. You might as well have lost it the 1st time through, saved your time & put your energy towards something more worthwhile ... Anything, watching grass grow anything. People like us who get obsessed & addicted easily & can't control our gambling & cannot just do it occasionally for fun should NOT gamble AT ALL! It will lead us back to being broke depressed feeling guilty isolated mad tired sick careless wreck less. We may win in the short term but eventually we will all lose it's unavoidable. My main problems are if I'm losing I won't quit until it's gone or until I've got it all back plus a "decent win" & I can't control the amount of my bets it's like someone else is forcing the chips onto the table. With the odds stacked against us, the limited funds to weather downswings & just overall degenerate gambling behavior there is no hope it's pointless. Even with a big win most of us will go back and loose it all so what's the point?! Will feel even worse than normal after fng it off once again and be forever chasing that "win" only to dig deeper n deeper. Over the years I learned to buy a few things after a win bc I knew if I didn't id have nothing to show for it in few days. This was slightly better than having nothing to show for but still a chitty way to manage money. About 13 days ago since I quit I decided to open a savings account at the beg of the month & I would deposit my check for the 1st time in 5 yrs. Around 2009 I had 3 checking accounts that were all closed after each was overdrawn 1,000+. That gets you listed in chexsystems the banking database so that banks will not let you open accounts with them. Every since then I've been cashing my check each month and losing it straight away. So my plan worked I was able to open the account & make the deposit. I nearly failed several times as my silent voice kept saying just go cash it and stash it away instead if using a bank or just go cash it and and maybe play some at casino for something to do. My plan is to try n save for 6-8 months or a year and hopefully along the way figure a better way to use the money: invest, just save, or whatever and as the time and savings builds that my confidence will grow as I try to live without gambling in my life and knowing I'm doing good instead of fkng everything up month after month. Not gambling seems very boring to me right now but trying to make it one week at a time , it will definitely be worth it if it works. I just hope to find out what it feels like to be like nirmal people again where not constantly thinking dreaming daydreaming fantasizing system-planning rationalizing and stressing about gambling. If you wait long enough I think your mind can approach normal again. Best wishes to all.

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      Jamie 2 years ago

      I had a big urge to play roulette online last night but I managed to withstand it. I watched a YouTube video of some guy playing roulette and it helped massively. I watched him get up to £800 which gave a similar sort of buzz watching the wheel go round and not knowing if it will land on a big number. I also watched him lose it all (or most of it, the video cut off when he was down to £50)

      After watching this video, I felt sick for him and I had no urge to play roulette afterwards.

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      Benny 50. U.S. 2 years ago

      I don't know why....I never learned from my past? I experienced the pains,remorsed,sorrow,losing all my money.....whenever I build up some money....urges to gamble starts agAin....thinking I have the control and be smart this time. I play poker....no limit! But when losing....I play more heavy....I started to chase my losses! I wrote this just to share my problem .....is there anybody there like me?

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Benny, I'm glad the quotes help. I'll try to post at least one per day:

      "One of the most basic factors in sports is that winning becomes a habit, and losing is the same way. When failure starts to feel normal in your life or your work or even your darkest vices, you won't have to go looking for trouble, because trouble will find you. Count on it."

      Hunter S. Thompson, Author (and admitted gambling addict)

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      Benny50U.S. 2 years ago

      I need help... This is my email address..bmb5912@yahoo.com....stop gambling...I need sponsor!... I will go back to ga meetings .... Thank you ...god bless!

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      Benny 50U.S. 2 years ago

      I need to stop gambling....before it s too late! I back to my illness...I hate it!.. I go to church after this....I liked your sharing videopokerloser....I need those quotes....to strengthen my heart to fight this illness!

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      Kate 2 years ago

      I can't seem to stop. I can not seem to come home with any winnings. I tell my self if I can win $100 extra I will leave. Win that $100 extra, spend it and keep chasing so much I dig an even bigger hole to chase. My brain keeps telling me next time I will come home with it. Just try one more time. My logic tells me never to enter a casino again. HELP

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      One more:

      "Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours."

      Ayn Rand , Overcoming Addiction

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      My quote of the night:

      “Loss invites reflection and reformulating and a change of strategies. Loss hurts and bleeds and aches. Loss is always ready to call out your name in the night. Loss follows you home and taunts you at the breakfast table, follows you to work in the morning. You have to make accommodations and broker deals to soften the rabbit punches that loss brings to your daily life. You have to take the word "loser" and add it to your resume and walk around with it on your name tag as it hand-feeds you your own shit in dosages too large for even great beasts to swallow. The word "loser" follows you, bird-dogs you, sniffs you out of whatever fields you hide in because you have to face things clearly and you cannot turn away from what is true.” Pat Conroy, Author

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Really, Kuenzler. Wow! Then why don't you dole some cash out to this group while you're spreading the word about Dr. Oye!!!

      Ya know, it takes a really sick person to post some bogus bullshit to people suffering from addiction. I'm sure your Karma will come back to you soon.

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      johneddie84 2 years ago

      Yes it is so true, and when the debts mount up it just gets worse, every letter in the post every phone call every email i get asking for money is just like another wee dig at me, gradually chipping away at me & any bit of hope or confidence in myself I have left. I have never had a proper girlfriend as gambling got its clutches into me at such a young age I was never able to really be myself, think for myself, or actually sit & have a think about what I wanted from this life, too afraid to commit to anyone or anything apart from gambling, it's at the stage where I don't have opinions anymore - people ask me what I think of this or that & I just don't know anymore, my head is that wrecked I don't even know what I want, I sat the other day & said to myself 'what do I want to do this weekend, what do I enjoy, what gives me enjoyment & pleasure?' I couldn't answer any of those questions, gambling has stripped me of my ability to think for myself, I am lost I don't know who I am anymore or how to find the real person inside me because it's been so long since the gambling engulfed my whole life, it really is a sad & pathetic way to be & im not even 30 yet, I feel like my life ended when I left Uni at 21 because since then I've had no emotional relationship with anyone & feel like I have wasted my whole life on gambling, one or two holidays & a few stag party's has been all I have managed to do, my brother lived in Oz for 10 years & I think I must have said 1000 times I was going to go & live with him for a few months or a year but I never even got close to saving the money for the flight as gambling made sure of that, my brother is now home & that's just one more regret to add to the big long list of mine

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      Brutalll 2 years ago

      Johnedddie I feel the same way when u said: Gambling has stripped me of my whole personality, I am a shadow of my former self,

      When I take a big loss it puts me in bed for a day or two tossing n turning thinking and a very bad depression for days longer. I think Its selfish to only focus on our own desires and not others. I've paid the price as I'm single & have not been on a date in 5 yrs. every time we gamble we're selling our future: finances, relationships, emotions... Our lives! I too can never leave when I should ; I've never* left a casino at breakeven or just down some always win or leave dead broke. The depression only gets worse as the yrs go by and the losses pile up. Video poker loser i sympathize with you also have a/c degree....ugh fml #s always runnin through my head!

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Wow! I went online to see what one looked like and read an article where they called them the crack cocaine of gambling. It sounds like they're trying to ban them or get them out of the bookmaker's shops. The article was written last December though. It's no different I guess than in Las Vegas. They have machines in gas stations, grocery stores and just about anywhere else. I lived in LV for 9 years which is where I picked up this debilitating habit.

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      Jamie 2 years ago

      As john said, they are literally everywhere. There are 4 bookmakers in the shopping centre near my house, all of which have 4 roulette/slot machines (the maximum they're allowed)

      I remember years ago when they weren't too popular but nowadays whenever I go in the bookmakers, all 4 machines are nearly always occupied. Sometimes I also see people hovering around waiting until somebody leaves a machine (that used to be me)

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      johneddie84 2 years ago

      Videopokerloser - There is at least one in every single bookmakers shop, but not an actual table like a real casino, its Roulette built into a machine, and yes bookies are everywhere at least one on every street so yes these machines are everywhere. I live in Northern Ireland & that is the case & I know parts of England are 20 times worse due to larger population, this is a large part of the reason why bookies open at 9am even when there is no Racing til maybe 2pm! Thankfully this is one area of gambling that never sucked me in.....For some reason I am able to pass it up & say to myself 'this is a machine designed to take your money' (if only i could do the same with Sports betting!!!!) but I know so many people who have a major addiction with them, they are evil & should be banned

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Jamie:

      I'm taking it that you're in the U.K.? Roulette seems to be a big thing there. Not so much in the states...just another table game to play. Someone else here on this list said there's one on every street corner practically. Is that true?

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      It's too bad that few if any casinos offer a self restriction program without a complete ban. There should be an option to limit yourself to X dollars of losses per day/week/month or X dollars of total action or X maximum bets or banned from certain games. That way I could restrict myself to one cent bets on slots and when I insert my club card all other bet buttons would go dead and if I pressed one either intentionally or accidentally the machine would ignore it and not spin.

      I am very glad that online gambling is illegal here in California. I sure don't need that temptation! If it were legal I would like to ban myself from all online gambling, but if you ban yourself from Caesars' online poker site (currently accessible only in Nevada and New Jersey) then you are automatically banned from all their brick and mortar casinos and even nongaming parts of the facilities. Hopefully online gambling will never become legal in California.

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      Jamie 2 years ago

      My problem is that I enjoy gambling too much and deep down I don't want to quit. Luckily I know when to stop (I've never bet money I cannot afford like rent and bills)

      The killer for me used to be roulette. I realized that 80-90% of my losses were from this extremely addictive game. However, quitting roulette was surprisingly easy, it's betting on the football that's hard to shake. The reason for this is because it's like a hobby for me. As geeky as it sounds, I love checking stats on football teams all around the world. I could sit at the computer for hours compiling together the perfect bet. When the bet wins it's very satisfying because in a way I feel like I earned it. but when it loses, I immediately look for more teams to bet on without giving it any thought.

      Instead of going cold turkey like I have done in the past, I'm going to try and discipline myself to £50/week. I've banned myself from all online betting sites to prevent myself from doing heat of the moment bets.

      I will come back to this page in a week and see if I can keep to it.

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      jol 2 years ago

      Yea it's like I'm in a house with all the people who mean the most to me yet at same time I'm saying 'I wish everyone would fuck off so I can sit & gamble like a hermit!' Madness!!

      What really annoys me is that if 5 years ago someone asked me 'it's Sat nite wot u wanna do?' I'd of said 'drink then a pub then a nite club then a party!' And I loved the craic every weekend, but this past 4 years my mind has fooled me into thinking my perfect Sat nite is a carryout a bet & a game of poker online, by myself!! Not me at all! The gambling has fooled my normal brain into a gambling brain! Madness when I consider me right now & me 4 years ago, like 2 completely different people!! Well I'm looking to find the good version of myself right now, he's a good person everyone likes, the other person is a complete gypsy I want nothing to do with! I want to bury him & never see him again!

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      johneddie84 2 years ago

      Thanks for the reply, the worst thing is I know it's all down to me, I have blamed everyone from my family to my work colleagues to my dentist for my problems, madness! Pass the blame onto anyone but myself......but deep down there is no-one can change my life but me, I'm starting to realise that now....i need to man up look my problem in the eye & fight it.....not cower away & accept it, I've been suffering the 'poor me's' for way too long! Always looking an excuse & always finding a way to condone it, I guess that's the illness looking a way out, I've had enough of that...i want my life back & im gonna get it back! I owe my parents everything & im gonna repay them! Might take a while but this is it, my last chance & by fuck I'm gonna take it! I'll never repay them in financial terms but if I can get my life back on track I know that counts for more than any amount of money ever can, if my parents could have 100 million or me with a future I know what they would want......and I'm determined to make that happen, my Granny always said gambling is the devil's game & I always laughed, if I'd paid more attention I may not be here....but that's in the past.... the future is now & I WILL make it a happy one :)

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Ahh, johneddie, okay. Now I understand. It's desensitized you. I get that. I've been there myself...usually "what have I done?!?!" or "what am I going to do?" or "how can I fix this?" is running through my head and I can't concentrate on anything or anyone going on around me. I'm in a fog and I wake up sweating, and that's usually after an almost sleepless night. Btw, I have a degree in Accounting - lol! We both should know better! I have family members who play the stock market and look down at me for gambling at a casino, but in my mind, they're doing the same thing...hypocrites. At least I'm up front about it. They hide and deny their losses just like I have in the past. I guess they just have a classier way of losing money. What has worked for me is finding a new passion. Writing down what I'm grateful for every day and truly meaning and feeling it. Feeling grateful and really feeling it sometimes can cause you to reevaluate your actions. Not to sound like a psychologist here, but I started searching for ways to beat this. I had to...it was destroying me as a person. I didn't feel real anymore and had to look. I needed help. I still do. Weirdly, I started playing Facebook games...most slot machines you can play online now for free. I started seeing how much they lose - ha! I never wanted to play them again with my real money. It helped me. Find a new passion. You can do it.

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      Benny 50 2 years ago

      I'm back to work this week....thanks videopokerloser...your encouragement uplift my heart to be strong again.....I will start a brand new life....having a gambling free day.....one day at a time!

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      johneddie84 2 years ago

      It's not that I'm chasing my losses because I know there is no chance in hell of winning back what I lost, must be nearly £100,000, but I know from GA that the amount doesn't matter it's the fact that we gamble our last penny, over & over again, then borrow as much as possible & gamble all of that!! The way I was betting shows that I had no intention of trying to win it back, betting £100 to win £100, or £300 to win £200 so I know deep down ill never win it back, it seems like it's just a continuation of betting to constantly tell my head I have a bet running, if i do say 5 selections in an accumulator as soon as the 1st is beat ill do a quad, if the next one loses its a treble, I just want the 'buzz' of having a 'sweat' at all times even though its wrecking my head soooo much! For a while things were that bad I had to do a bet before I went to sleep just so I had something to check when I woke up! And generally it lost & im sitting in bed looking at the results on my phone feeling absolutely heartbroken before I even get up to go to work! Needless to say I usually have another bet in the back of my head before I even get to work at 8am! It's long past the point where I still enjoy it, the pain is outweighing the joy by about a million percent. Gambling has stripped me of my whole personality, I am a shadow of my former self, I find myself in a room of people maybe friends & family & I can no longer think of things to say, no jokes no fun no laughter I have turned into a serious head who can't have a laugh & a joke, NOT the person I was & defo NOT the person I want to be!! I know I need to get my life back & my family love me & do everything to help but I can't even look them in the eye or tell them anything resembling the truth or how I really feel, I feel so lonely at all times, even in a crowded room I may as well be locked in a room by myself. I know the gambling is the cause of all this & I know I MUST STOP NOW before its too late & I lose everyone I care about, I have 2 nephews who I love to bits but I'm that preoccupied with gambling I don't send anytime with them or take any interest in their lives & I feel so embarrassed about that....

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Johneddie84, I did the same thing when I found this list...read through all the stories and most if not all were my exact same story as well. We're all located in different parts of the world, yet we all have the same feelings, experiences and "I hate myself" attitude. Gambling addiction has no boundaries, no continental divide. If GA helped even a little bit, I would give it another try. The worst part of gambling is chasing your losses, which it sounds like you're doing if it's getting progressively worse. You'll never get back what you lost! It's hopeless to go that route. If you start today, you're closer to paying your family back and feeling worthwhile again. Hey, I know! I've lost a lot of money gambling. I'll leave you with my quote of the day: Being defeated is temporary. Giving up is permanent.

      Benny50, it's okay. You got bored. You'll be back to your old encouraging self to all of us on this list soon! Brutall, you're so right. We ALL have it in us to quit and change for good!

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      Brutalll 2 years ago

      It's so easy to say fit let's gamble but it's not worth the pain and the guilt the ongoing hold the addiction has on you. My mind plays trucks on me saying you have gambling in your blood it's who u are it's what you do , don't even try to resist it or quit because it's pointless. That's a rationalization to avoid the hard work of quitting and changing . It can be done. Anything worthwhile requires hard work. I can do it you can do it, stay with it!

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      Benny 50USA 2 years ago

      Im in trouble again.....I'm on vacation for 2 weeks...have nothing to do...my illness from gambling got over me again.... I've been not gambling for a while....it just happened to me again...I hate it but...it's really very hard to resist!........

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      johneddie84 2 years ago

      Hi all, 1st time on this site & I have spent the last day reading through every story, all of which I can relate to. I am 29 & feel like I am 59 because the last 8 years of my life have been ruined by my gambling addiction, I started at a young age around 15 & haven't stopped since. I am a smart guy I went to Grammar school did A levels & graduated university with a degree in Economics, yes a gambling addict with an Economics degree it's madness but I just can't control my problem and feel helpless as well as useless, I have zero confidence & no self esteem whatsoever I really do feel pathetic & a waste of space right now. My economics degree took me to a job in a bank & im sure u can imagine how that worked out!! I stole £19k to fund my habit, almost went to jail but escaped with a 240 hour community service order as was lucky enough my parents paid the money back for me. U would think this would have been a big enough warning for me but I still haven't been able to stop, that was 5 years ago & I still haven't learnt. I have ruined my life & my family's life, I haven't even paid my parents back even worse I have had to borrow more on numerous occasions as I keep returning to gambling, get into debt then can't repay it. I love them so much but can't show it, just this week I got paid & gambled everything without even paying a bill or debt. Sports gambling is killing me im completely hooked one bet & that's me I won't stop till its gone, also play poker online last week I played a tourney for 7 hours & won £160, within 5mins I lost the lot in cash game, im not surprises anymore it's happened so often, im at the point where I can't even look at myself i hate myself that much, I went to GA & it seemed to help a bit at the time but it's been over a year now & it seems like every few months now i do the same thing quicker & quicker, this really is a progressive illness please somebody help me before I do something stupid im finding it hard to live with myself

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      Brutalll 2 years ago

      I have anxiety too maybe social anxiety don't really know but yes agree once gambling it all goes away I turn into a super hero the brainless gambler man and start going crazy. I've always read u should never gamble when you're bored depressed lonely bit that's usually when I seem to wanna go. My problem is chasing losses and not being able to control how much I bet it's like someone else is controlling my hand when I slide them all into the middle then reality smacks u in the face as they drag your last money away. I'm trying to change the way I'm thinking about everything at focus on something other than myself. Still find myself daydreaming about big wins in the past which ultimately were lost or fantasizing about going in to the casino with a years salary saved to try n win huge. Hard to stop those thoughts I guess a little at a time. Say stop! No! Trying to do some walking feel better trying to improve on different aspects to get more confidence to stop gambling. Good luck to ev1 trying to quit u can do it ! Be patient and let time heal we will feel better

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      Lost 2 years ago

      I have a slots addiction. Native Americans should be ashamed. They are responsible for ruining lives. If money is the root of all evil then Indian tribes are evil!!! It's how they make lots of it at the expense of ruining peoples lives. It use to be if you lived in Reno or Las Vegas it was more likely you could develop a gambling addiction. Now there are casinos on every freaking corner in Oklahoma and around the country. If you think they care for their tribal members and the members get any benefits from these casinos you are wrong!! Someone in the higher positions of the tribe are getting rich. But it's not the tribal members. Besides I am Native American and I'm sad they have made it so easy for us to become addicted to gambling. Not only NA but everyone. It touches everyone!!! I never gambled until they opened casinos down the street. I started out on quarter machines then that became boring after trying the dollars. Now I play $2 and $5 machines. It's a bigger high for me. Someone in the casino told me they pay more. That's all it took for me to try my luck. At first I only took money I had to lose (are you kidding? How many of us have it to lose???). Now I'm using every extra dollar I have. I use to never borrow money or lie about going, but now I've dipped into my own son's account which he put me on for emergencies to pay a Bill for him when he's traveling. I am only owing him $300 but I feel Horrible about it!!! He is so kind and trusting and is the light of my life. I am out of control taking money from him. I HATE myself for it. My credit is great. My savings are secure. But I hate what addiction has done to me. I want to quit!!! I tried gamblers anonymous but that group did nothing for me. I need professional help to stop. I suffer from depression and anxiety. It's amazing how calm I am when gambling. It's my escape. But if I don't win the drive home is excruciating. I have thought about how much it would disappoint my sweet husband. He does not like gambling. In fact he is very frugal with every dollar. He knows I go sometimes but he has no idea how much I spend. Now I have two credit cards. One is maxed out and the other is half way. I want to pay those off and cut them up and never have one again. I can't control going to the ATM. THIS DISEASE SUCKS BIG TIME!!! I feel all of you guys pain!!!

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      I agree. I went for months without gambling, then one day I was by the casino with a friend of mine and knew I had free slot play. I played it off and left without spending any of my own money. But it started that longing and excited feeling all over again and I started gambling again. You just have to stay far away from the casinos. I also leave my ATM at home, but there's times I've went home and grabbed it and went back to the casino. Ugh. That's when I really hate myself because generally I'm on a losing streak and I just end up losing more. A lot of people used to post on here and I haven't heard from them in weeks. I pray they're not gambling again.

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      Brutalll 2 years ago

      The thing I hate about trying to quit gambling is you can't just quit like quitting a job, it's over it's done . You have to quit every day and you never really know if you've quit or not, the time seems to go by so slowly and you just want it speed up so you can put the mistakes further in the past & gain confidence of more time passed without gambling. It's rough.

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      Brutalll 2 years ago

      Bad year at the tables, want to quit badly. Was hoping someone had a magic solution to quitting or at least stopping the bleeding. Back in the heyday of online poker I racked up over $9,000 in overdraft fees in 1 month with my debit card. Ran up six figure cc debt borrowed 20k off a relatives credit card (without permission) to try and win big at the casino, still owe them 4k 12 yrs later. losing 90%+ of earnings every month since college.. Getting too old for this. Like others my brain is fkd up physically I believe and chemically. Gonna try to open a checking account & deposit pay check instead of cashing. And go from there. We'll see if that helps.

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      Lee1976 2 years ago

      I loved horror movies ever since I was a toddler. Little did I realise that my life would become a horror movie, more sinister and gruesome and evil than them all put together. For me, being a compulsive gambler is like schizophrenia. I suffer and struggle with another addiction and have progressively found my life to be completely unmanageable. I'm incapable of working effectively or at all unsupervised. I can;t be trusted to go to the shop for essentials or to go anywhere unless there's someone with me. My memory is awful, I'm frighteningly forgetful. I'm 37 and have gambled compulsively for over 25 years now. I've had brief periods of abstinence, maybe 6 months at a time before I slip back into a gambling pattern that'll keep me away from a meeting for anything between a month and 10 years. Very scary dark times of my life, many I've blocked from my mind have been directly or indirectly related to this demon. It has dictated every choice I've ever made in my life and as the years have roll by it gets stronger and more sinister.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I rarely bet on horses anymore, but I would never lay odds on favorite. Having to risk more than I could win seems almost as bad as playing the Martingale system (doubling your bet after each loss) at tables. A little streak of bad luck can lead to huge losses, all for the chance to win a little.

      A one pound poker tournament? That sounds like a good cheap deal on entertainment. Keep it cheap! Very low stakes is the way to play!

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      Joakim 2 years ago

      I have been gambling since 2006. Lost approximately 70 000 Singapore dollars. A foreigner working in Singapore and I lost a lot. Yesterday I brought 2400 then was up to 6000. I cashed it out then saw a good table at baccarrat, tried 200 dollars and lose. Another 500 then lost it again. After that I change all my money again to win the 700 back and that's all. I lost everything.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      i slipped badly today as i was watching the horse racing today and saw this horse 1 to 5 to win and thought thats a cert and had 50 on it which i had in my poker account as i been playing 1 pound touraments these last few weeks. Anyway the horse lost and ended up taking 200 out of the cashpoint and lost that too!! all to win a poxy tenner! i feel such a idiot now!! no more horses for me i swear!!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Came out exactly even Monday. Left Las Vegas with a total loss of $125 for 5 days (not including hotel and bus fare). I went back to my favorite Indian casino yesterday and won $16.

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      quitter 2 years ago

      Oh poo... After such a good run I just slipped and lost £850 at a different casino to the one I banned myself at. I don't know why I did it, why I started in the first place and why I didn't stop when I was up £100. I said "one more bet"... but as we all know that is never the case. The only saving grace is that I managed not to lose EVERYTHING and left with £150 in my pocket to pay for the weekend outing with the kids... what the hell am I doing?!?

      I shall add that £850 loss to what I owe the bank as a record of what I need to recoup in earnings. So that's £1500 I still owe my wife, £8000 to my mum and £10,450 to the bank. That is just what I have lost in the first couple of months of this year and not what I've lost since I first started gambling.

      So here I go again... day one of a gambling free me. Wish me luck...

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      kayla 2 years ago

      I'm a gambler I have gambled part of my 401k...I need help to stop. It's so depressing walking out of the casino broke. I do go for awhile then want to go back. I will need to ban myself again is getting out of hand.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I have been in Las Vegas since last Wednesday bight and am leaving tomorrow morning. As of right now I have lost a total of $125. Only one day of serious gambling so far, Saturday, when I lost $65 playing blackjack very quickly. I spent all day Thursday visiting a friend who lives here that I met on an arcade game website. We went to Chuck E.Cheese to play arcade games. Friday and Sunday I went to the Pinball Hall of Fame and Gamer's paradise next door. Spending so much time in Las Vegas while not gambling would have been impossible for me a few years ago. I have been playing lots of penny machines one penny per spin. One man asked me "what do you hope to accomplish betting one penny"? I replied that I hope to play for a long time and spend very little money. I should have added "and not lose $15 in 5 minutes like you just did". On a prior trip I once watched a woman feed 4 $100 bills into a slot machine and lose it in about 20 minutes, as I lost one dollar playing the machine next to her. She was feeding it a fifth c-note as I walked away. I have learned to think of betting more than the minimum as being the same as going into a store and saying "I think that item is too cheap. I insist on paying 40 times the posted price". I am going to risk another $40 or so on blackjack tonight. This October I will go to a county fair in another county and go to the Indian casino there and risk $20 on blackjack there (or $40 if I get tempted too much). I might go to another Indian casino in November or December and risk up to $40. Other than that, no more serious gambling for the rest of the year. Just weekly visits to my favorite Indian casino for 1 cent slots and a daily loss limit of $9 (9 is symbolically important because it is a single digit number), and usually much less than that.

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      Colin 2 years ago

      I am a compulsive gambler . On brink of losing the thingas that matter in my life . I post this to stop myself playin roulette in the bookies. From his day on.

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      Benny50...USA 2 years ago

      I was once in the same situation that u have sunny! As if it's liked the end of the world for me...I'm hopeless,broke,feeling alone,buried in debts,lost all my money in gambling!.. No more friends trust me...even my own family.........YOU R NOT ALONE my friend.......there many of us that are suffering from this illness....there's HOPE my friend....! We pray for U!

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      Sunny 2 years ago

      I need help I am sick and tired if gambling my life sucks I do not deserve to live, gambling has screwed my life.

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      El Sombati 2 years ago

      Greetings to all of you, my sick compulsive gambler friends, ' am happy to inform you that ' did not go to casino and gamble, thanks to all of your comments, ' re-wind the tape and made the decision of not hurting myself anymore, at least mot today,,,,it's been over 9 weeks and counting without placing a bet of any kind,,,, stay gamble free one day at a time, till next time, peace be with all of you.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Speaking of credit cards, credit card companies don't care about our financial well being anymore than casinos. A few years ago one of my credit cards, which has a $6000 limit and at the time I had an outstanding balance of less than $100, sent me a letter saying "Do you realize that you have a line of credit of over $5900 available for you to use? Why not use it for a Caribbean cruise, a new kitchen, or something else you've always wanted". In other words "why not buy some crap you don't need with money you don't have and pay us a lot of interest"? No, I did not go on an irresponsible spending spree. Every business establishment of any kind exists to separate us from our money, or as the investor relations part of many companies' websites more eloquently put it, "[XYZ Corporation] exists to maximize shareholder equity" (at our expense). Casinos and lenders are two of the worst, but the rest of the business world aren't so innocent either. We have to learn to be responsible with our own money.

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      El Sombati 2 years ago

      Had this compulsion for many years, been clean for a little over 2 mo, is weakly struggle my sick compulsive gambler friends, had major urges to go and gamble yesterday, and today, but after reading this blog, the urges have dissipated, and I will not gamble today, god bless all of you reading, stay strong and do not gamble just for today.

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      I log in too every day, Benny, not always commenting. Wow, Kate. You know you have a problem but the temptation is your hubby. That's tough. Gambling makes us do all kinds of sneaky things to cover up this sickness. We always hurt the ones we love most! Steve, I'm with ya. I'm single and never want to meet anyone in a casino. I'm glad your gf hates gambling because she at least balances you out. My ex bf is who taught me how to gamble in the course of going with him all the time when I lived in Las Vegas. I never want to go down that path again! My ex bf lost his $800,000+ house after we broke up due to his gambling...the Jag-all of it. And here I sit knowing all of this and still want to gamble! I've never gone into debt doing it, just hocking things I no longer have. I've lost possessions but don't have any credit cards to max out. I got rid of those a long time ago knowing what I'd do.

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      Benny50 2 years ago

      Hello every one...just wanna let u know....that I never missed going on this site..in every single day!.. Hope everybody is doing good...stop gambling!!!!!!

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      kate, i think you both need to sit down and tell your husband you got a problem with this satanic illness. i know your husband thinks its ok and your not addicted ect, but without sounding nasty i think hes need to wake up! my girlfriend hates gambling and god knows were i would be (or both be) right now if she was addicted too. there is loads of phases i reseached about this illness and when i get really strong urges i think to myself " that everytime we gamble we are on a losing streak and if i do win that day or week or month i,am just delaying it for a amount of time. i could never get the money back i lost unless i won the lottery but i got no chance of that as i don,t even do it. god bless us all.

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      Kate 2 years ago

      I think I am finally at the point where I hate the casiono. My husband really wanted to go last night and I was afraid to tell him I had no money because I had gone earlier in the week and lost all. So we went and I borrowed $200 from the casino and now when there check hits the bank I will be in the negative the 200 plus a 37 dollar overdraft charge. I almost cried on the way to the casino. I feel in my gut that God may be working with helping me. So I cannot cry but just keep saying Praise GHod for my losses and if he keeps helping me and I continue to have this hatefred for the casino I might be helped

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      I have successfully gotten my gambling under control without quitting cold turkey, as I mentioned in my last post. That doesn't mean that everyone can. I was never in as deep as many of you. I once heard of a program that attempts to turn alcoholics into normal moderate drinkers without having to become teetotalers. The success rate was low, but a few did succeed.

      If done properly, slot machines can be a very cheap form of entertainment. I learned to start thinking of them as just another form of amusement machine instead of as a way to hopefully obtain free money. It wasn't hard for me since I am a lifelong avid player of arcade games. My money lasts a lot longer playing slots one line one penny than it lasts at an arcade, where many games are now $1 per game for 2-4 minutes! People sometimes ask me "how does it feel to see a winning combination come up on a line you didn't play"? I respond that if I had been betting all the lines I would have already run out of money and wouldn't have played this spin at all, so I still wouldn't have won. If you can learn to view slot machines the way I do, and also drop the "money burns a hole in my pocket, if I have money I gotta run and spend it" attitude, then you can become a recreational gambler. I will never be free of this addiction, but my addiction is no longer a financial problem since I learned to feed it cheaply.

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      quitter 2 years ago

      Stevex36x, simple answer is no. I was clean for ages maybe about 5 or 6 years. I started gambling a little and once or twice I won a small amount and managed to leave. But that just left me wanting more, and also because it gave mena false sense of security. Soon enough I was gambling more often and losing big more often, and I was back to my bad habits... until 3 months ago when I lost £20,000 in the space of a month. I've been clean for about 3 months now and sworn I'm not going to bet again (again). Not even £5!

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      Kate 2 years ago

      I know, for myself, I cannot do this. Have tried and just find a dig a deeper hole for myself. My husband wants to go play blackjack tonight and I have spent all the money and do not have the $100 to give him. I do have credit at the casino but if I use it it will put me in the hole in my checking account and all my checks will bounce costing me $37 for each bounced check. I hate gambling

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      has anyone whos been a bad compusive gambler like me still gamble but is in control? like say it was payday and you had 400 and to just try 50 and then forget about it and treat it as entertainment! i been trying to do this for years but can,t as i always chase until i got nothing. so have anyone got any tips how to stay in control as my life seems so boring without gambling!

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      viodeopokerloser 2 years ago

      Anon, go shopping or spend that money on something you've wanted. You KNOW you'll lose it. Don't go back. Don't let the House win again.

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      Anon 2 years ago

      I went 3 months without gambling and then won £1,200 last Friday night on Roulette. This is a strange situation for me because I still have all £1,200 and I haven't bet a penny since. (5 days) The problem is the urge to go to the casino is massive. All I have thought about the past 5 days is going back to the casino and it's a miracle that I haven't gone back. In my 7 years of on and off gambling I KNOW that going back is a bad idea and that I should quit on a high. But part of me feels like I need to lose some money. This really is a strange, bad addiction

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Weird how poker seems to be the catapult for gambling when old enough. It wasn't my parents but their friends that would gamble...my parents were too religious and didn't approve of it, but that didn't prevent me from seeing/watching it with their daughter who was my friend when younger. Hmm, interesting.

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      quitter 2 years ago

      I have a similar background in that i learnt how to gamble at a very early age from my parents. However, after becoming addicted like I have and losing tens of thousands of pounds I vowed I would never expose my kids to it the way I was.

      Anyway as a quick update. It's now been 10 weeks since I last gambled, losing £20,000 in the space of about a month. And I've just paid my wife back another £250 of the £1,750 I owe her. Still got £8,000 to pay back to my mum, and £9,600 to the bank.

      I am by no means showing off that I have quit. But if I can do it, then so can you... and there is no quick fix. I'm just having to pay people back bit by bit.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Like The Greek, I too watched my parents play poker when I was very young. They played with other adults for money. Sometimes they played with me for fun with pretend money. For awhile my dad was working in Battle Mountain Nevada, and I watched them play slot machines many times. The California Lottery started when I was 16, and since I have always looked older then I am, I was able to buy lottery tickets underage easily; only one time did I get carded. My parents were ok with this. They figured that as long as I didn't use drugs or engage in underage drinking, smoking, or sex, that gambling was a relatively safe outlet for the rebellious spirit that is in every teenager. This set the stage for a lifelong gambling addiction. When the Indian casinos opened in my area in 1996, I became a regular slot machine, blackjack, and Texas Hold-em player. I never lost thousands in one day like some of you have, but I often lost over a hundred. I have never earned a high wage, so relative to my income that was serious money that could have been better spent on other things or saved. In late 2010 I got laid off. I quickly found another job, but at an even lower pay rate, and stuck with a monthly $360+ COBRA health insurance premium for over a year. Needless to say, I had to make drastic spending cuts in every area, and the biggest thing to be cut had to be gambling. I did not want to stop gambling, but I absolutely had no choice but to quit losing a few hundred per month. Then I remembered: you don't have to bet 25-50 cents per spin and play all the lines. On many penny machines, you can bet just one penny at a time. That's what I started doing. For almost 4 years now I play one penny at a time, and have almost quit playing blackjack and poker. In one way I suppose this makes me a reformed compulsive gambler, but in another way I am still very much addicted. I go to the Indian casino once or twice a week. My brain is still obsessed with gambling. I spend lots of time thinking about gambling, reading about gambling, and talking about gambling. At least it costs me very little now.

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      Stuart 2 years ago

      Hi to all my friends, brothers and sisters. I promised I would keep an account of my life and put it down on the 2nd of every month, I'm a day late so apologies. I am a month free of the darkness that has consumed my life for the past 26 years.I am and always will be a compulsive gambler, I have spoken before of the depths I have stooped to in order to facilitate my addiction to this scurge.I am free, please if you do nothing else read that again"I am free"I have walked out of the darkest forest into light and I will never go back, ever, I want to shout from the roof tops, I will never go back, I am here, I am waiting for anyone to join me, to walk with me, my brothers and sisters I am a weak man, so if I tell you that I , me, Stuart,escaped from certain destruction then I promise with my heart you can to, I will never return, when I think about my future I see hope where once there was none, I feel open to the world and the goodness that was hidden deep inside me is starting to emerge, I am here waiting for you, a day, week, month, however long it takes, head out of the darkness, I mean that as a metaphor not in a religious way, start today, it's living out here, it's death in there, I love you all, Stuart.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      wow the the grek! thats how exacly how i am like were i do everything to the extreme! like last night a drunk till i passed out and before that i had a big chinese then packet of chips and choclate bars until i was sick and all this to take my mind off gambling! so its one extreme to the other! from my reseach i found out that the brain got a reward tigger and things like smoking, alcohol, drugs and of course gambling reward this trigger so it makes you feel good!! i just hate myself and don,t want to be me! and i even go on this site called plenty of fish and put up fake pics of a smart guy and say i,am a docter just to try and forget who i am and loads of women speak to me!! of course it makes me feel worst after and destroys my confindence but thats what this evil illness have done to me! so what did jesus say to you? do he look like he do in the pictures of him with long hair ect!! wish i could meet him. god bless you all

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      Gambler007 2 years ago

      http://howtostopgambling.blogspot.com/2014/07/how-...

      Please take a look at my new blog post, it explains my situation, how i lost everything, my car, my house, my parents, my girlfriend, everything.

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      THEGREEK 2 years ago

      I will answer the best I can steve, I must say the gambling part of my life I really cant recall anything the the lord helped me in, and the reason why is because I didn't do anything for myself to stop gambling, so why should he help me for if I didn't try and help myself..

      but I did end up going to gambler anonomus and for that exact 365 days I didn't gamble till I got my one year celabration coin, then the devil won and I went and I gambed...

      I prayed for many things that I needed the lord to help me in and this is the truth, he helped me, answered my prayer the very first minute I asked for his help...

      did I meet JESUS , you may all think im crazy, but yes he did come to me, and ill leave it at that, no I didn't take my ife and then he visited me, he just did....

      steve this is a serious illness my friend, I have just stoped again,it is not easy, propably the hardest thing in our life is to stop this illness..

      I have spent tremendous amount of money gambling all these years.

      I have a compulsive behavior, I do everything to the maximum, I smoke as much as I can, I drink and spend money and not only my money like I have unlimited funds, I just do everything to the extreme.

      Steve listen to joyce myers on youtube or go to her home page, look at her broadcast, and choose what you want to listen to... she has helped me in so many ways, in the beginning I listened to her then got bored but now I listen to her evn while I go to bed, I put her on and I close my eyes even when you sleep listen to her , your subconscious mind will register everything she says...

      Steve be strong, be wise, be humble, you will conquer these demons, I still haven't but im trying very hard..

      I will send you the most amazing prayer towards you tonight before I sleep.... MAY GOD WATCH OVER YOU MY FRIEND, MAY HE SHOW YOU THE WAY IF YOU LET HIM..

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      hi thegrek. can you please explain what experinces you had with how the lord as helped you? have you met jesus or spoke to you? you saw angels? please explain how you been helped as i hope oneday my life will become stress free and have a easy life like you and gamble free.

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      THEGREK 2 years ago

      hey steve

      you can not choose weather or not to see the lord, you cant take your life and expect the lord to welcome you in his world of paradise (heaven)

      Only the lord has the choice to take us when we deserve to be with him..

      I to put a gun to my head and ready to pull the trigger, just then I realized the pain id cause all my family who loves me,.

      This is not the way to do things, we have to fight and keep fighting in order for us to be OK.

      I pray for all of us o get better, May GOD keep all of us safe...

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      THEGREEK 2 years ago

      well we all talk about hw bad this illness is, we all know crossing the invisible line is destructive..

      what I find so hard now is having people trust you and believ what I say..

      how can people believe in us or trust us when we are the biggest manipulaters that exist. It takes years and sometimes the trust will never be there for us because how many times we promised we wont go out and gamble and that same fucken night we do.

      and yes, ask GOD to take control of your life, let GOD lead you to the right path.

      Just don't ask him only for help, ask GOD what can you do for him today also, GOD also needs us to ask him how his day went, what can we do for him, how can we try and make his world better...

      I only use to ask GOD to fix my problems, I prayed to GOD only when I needed him, and believe it or not he aanswered every thing I asked him...

      Now ill pray to him every night and not be a selfish pig only to pray when I need his help or blessing..

      Hand over your life to the LORD see what he will do for you, believe me he gives us small indications every day but we tend not to take them..

      open up your mind, look and be aware of your surondigs, us gamblers seem never to look anywhere but straight,.

      when your driving home from work or from whatever your doing look around you will see things you never seen before because we are so mind fucked we become blind...

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      If you kill yourself that is a very good indication that you probably haven't "asked him to take over your life".

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      you get saved by asking lord jesus christ to come into your heart and ask him to take over your life but you must truely belive in it! its not about going to church ect! its on 100% belief that jesus is lord and died for our sins!

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      I don't know where my message to The Greek went from earlier today, so I'll rewrite it. Yes, we are all intelligent people here but share an addiction. I have other addictions as well such as smoking, and I must have at least 100 bottles of nail polish - lol - another compulsion of mine! But our addictive qualities also make us successful in other areas of life. I am a classical pianist and can practice for hours on end. It's just finding out how to turn that addictive nature around to something good and meaningful instead of destructive to our lives and finances. I'm going to keep trying. May God Bless You Too, The Greek!

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Go to church and after the service stay and talk to the pastor. Ask him (or possibly her in a few churches) to explain how to be saved.

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      Yes, but stevex36x, you have to wait until Jesus brings you to him. It's not your call to go before He says you can. You are here for a reason...there's some mission for you here on earth to fulfill which you haven't done yet. Maybe it is to beat your demons...I don't know. That's for all of us to find out. I think most if not all of us on this message board have felt suicidal at times, but you cannot act on them. It goes against God's rules like Kevin said earlier. Kate, I think that's a wonderful idea, albeit difficult because people here are all over the world in different time zones, but I'm willing to do it if we can figure out how. Anyone have any ideas?

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      thankyou kevin for getting back! but i always be brought up to belive jesus christ died on the cross for my sins! we are all born sinners kevin from the time adam sinned! all i want now is to be with jesus. god bless you all.

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      Kate 2 years ago

      I have heard that if two or more people pray together sincerely that your request will be granted. We should all pick a time good for all and take five minutes and pray as one for each other. Any one interested please respond and as a unit we can set up a specific time. I know I need something to make me strong and help me with this illness.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Yes there is a Heaven. There is also a Hell, and it is a lot hotter than Las Vegas in the summer! If you die unrepentant of your sins (and if you commit the great sin of murder (suicide counts as murder) then that is a very good indication that you are not repentant of your sins) then you will burn in Hell for eternity.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      i,am thinking of taking getting out of this evil santnic world as the only plesure i get is from gambling and i stick on the news and all i hear is wars ect and little childen been killed so it depressed me more! do anyone know for sure if theres a heaven and thats were i want to go. please sure your views before i leave this world. thanks

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      THGREEK 2 years ago

      well I'm back again , today was very hard from me not to go out and gamble but I did it , this is the time ibwill recover, ibwill win this illness once and for all..

      I would love to hear other people's stories so I can feel your pain and it will help me not to gamble ever again..

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      THEGREEK 2 years ago

      I suggest you listen to the broadcast of Joyce Myers ministry or listen to Antonio sabato Jr . It will help all of you so Much...

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      THEGREEK 2 years ago

      To you video poker

      I'm learning every day something new and the first thing is we are not losers we are extremely smart people with a very bad illness. Stay away my friend for God to help you you need to show God that you are willing to fight for yourself to get better, God then and then only Will help you or myself....

      I m fighting myself today not to go out and gamble it's not fucken easy , but yes it's possible, we are Gods children not the devils, we cause so much pain to everyone who loves us why because we just have not been shown the right path to full rexouvery.

      Now let's take it upon ourselfs and be the person we know we are and fight like he'll this illness for the devil not to win and God to look at us with a smile and prove him we are able to beat Satan's chalange...

      I m writing this and getting all teary from the pai I know your going through,

      May GOD blesss you and heal your pain my friend...

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      I've hurt my family too...my children, the ones who in spite of my shame and sins and selfish behavior still love me back and give me the support I need. Regardless of whether I won or not, when I walked out of a casino I felt like a monster, and when I lost the money I'd brought with me last week to gamble after not being there after a long time, I felt I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown then managed to pull myself together after I left. It happened so suddenly when my insides started shaking and I got scared. It felt like I was going crazy with the noises of the casino screaming inside my head. It wasn't that much money...wasn't the amount at all. It was the reality of once again seeing who I could become - a thing, a monster. That the Devil once again had won. I prayed long and hard to God and his angels last night to help me beat this. I've let him down too. I truly never want to feel this way again. I want Peace.

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      THEGREEK 2 years ago

      To Kate

      Explain to your husband that you have a serious problem and for him to support you in your difficult Times. I today feel very hurt on what I did to myself. I work like an animal just to go out and dump everything I made in just one day... Free yourself from this illness, open up to your close friends and familly, they will help a lot, and for the trip Kate do not walk in those fucken casinos or anywhere There are machines. I will be post my feelings here later on today since I'm at work now I can't write down what I have to.. Kate be strong live life don't let Satan lewd you back to the machines , you play again you just made him win, believe in GOD , or your higher power , if you have the feeling to gamble say to yourself if you do the devil has acomplosed his task....

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      videopokerloser 2 years ago

      I was doing well for the longest time too, The Greek, then was near the casino on a day I knew I had free slot play. I hadn't been to the casino for a while, but they still give me slot play in my email. I went and won money on their dime, then went back the next day taking some money I just received from a job I did, won then continued to lose it all including the money I brought. Doesn't matter whether I win or lose...I won't walk out with a penny. I spend it til it's gone. I'm not going back. Kate, you need to tell your husband you have a bigger problem than he thinks. Don't worry about what to tell your GA group. Your husband feeds and/or enables your gambling compulsions. It's hard enough to beat this without having someone close by with what sounds like a similar problem.

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      Kate 2 years ago

      I need an answer to a question. I went to a GA meeting a few days ago and said okay this is it. My husband knew but he does not think I have a problem. Now "As a Surprise" he was schedueled a trip to Reno, NV in October. Air, room and car all ready paid for. Do I keep going to GA and share this with them or just sit there like a liar. I can't tell my husband no as all is paid for and I know me I will go there and gamble with all those casinos right there? It's like I am not suppose to stop.

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      stevex36x 2 years ago

      its so true what the greek said about thinking we are in control! we fool ourselfs by thinking we are! all last week i won a 50 there 60 there and must have won about 300 in one week and then bang yestreday i lost 800! it makes me think i,am daft as i do know people who can have a little bet and walk away! but i guess its like some people can have a few drinks in a pub and walk away were some can,t!! gambling addiction is so evil though!

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      THEGREEK 2 years ago

      OK. IM BACK

      alot calmer then before.so here I go again...

      On November 09 2010 I finally told the person I loved that I had a serious problem, im a compulsive gambler, even though she seen me a couple of times gambling but never thought I was in so deep..

      She called Gamblers Anonymous on November 10 2010 without me knowing, called me that same day and said you need help, your going to get help and they start at 7:30pm tonight so you are going if you really want us to work.. so I went..

      ill explain to you just a bit what it felt like walking in GA that night,

      I walked in stayed in the staircase thinking what I should do, a member seen me said if your looking for GA you are in the right place just don't be shy and follow me....

      So here I am in this room full of gamblers, I sit down and I se everyone of them laughing and joking, here I am ready to just tell everyone to f off and just walk out. it I impossible that they are in a good mood while here I am just about to loose my freaken mind of the pain I have built in me for so many years...

      they welcomed me with open arms told me to listen to their stories and if I feel like sharing mine to do so... well I said to myself these people are all sick and when this is finished im never coming back.. hey guess what the next day I went back to hear more of their stories because the night before they were saying stories that I have lived and needed to listen to more of them.. well again their stories with different members were the same as mine, how is that possible that they laugh and joke about it today and im still a bloody mess. well I went back the 3rd day and been there from November 10 2010 to November 10 2012 every day..

      it took me 2 weeks to open up to these strangers just to realize they were there to help me and me help them when I shared my stories..

      As days went on I found myself getting more emotional and crying like a baby in front of people I really didn't know so well. as I spoke and shared my stories I felt a lot better as days turned to weeks all of a sudden I started to get angry a myself for the pain I caused myself and others in my life.. I had no idea what was happening to me, why am I feeling this way, why are they feelng happy and me angry.. well ill tell you why, this fucken mask I had on was coming off slowly, the cloud in my head was clearing up, I started to finally feel like a normal person and all the memories of bad I done in the past was poping up in my head, wow the pain I felt the anger I felt the saddnes I felt it was to much for me to handle, and all the members seen this happen to me and took me aside after the meeting and said this is a normal reaction.. I was scared of who I have become when I was gambling ,, lets just say satan was nothing close to what I had become. I went every day and I felt and theve seen a big change in my attitude.. ALL YOU OUT THERE GET HELP FROM GA IT WORKS IF YOU WANT IT TO...

      start loving yourself go to the meetings, I will again tomorrow and will keep going, because it does work.. one year I went everyday never gambled, went out afthe my one year coin gambled and never went back....

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      THEGREEK 2 years ago

      To all you problem gamblers and compulsive gamblers..

      I will tell you the pain im going through every fucken day of my life...

      As a gambler I find it so easy to tell another gambler to stop, why thy wasting and throwing their money away like this...

      I finally figured it out why the hell its so easy for me to tell you or them that, its because I want to take over your place and see if I have better luck in your machine.....

      Im 46 years of age , I started to enjoy gambling at the age of 7, watching all my family on Christmas day play poker for 24 hours straight, my parents thought it was ok because I was home watching them, people wake uppppp dam it, its not ok for a child to watch anyone play any kind of gambling game, it sticks to us at a young age, we want the money we see on that table of poker.....

      Anyway, its about 20 years now I haven't had a good sleep, my average hours of sleep at night is 1 fucken hour without getting up yes 1 hour , I wake up every fucken hour that has to be my mind going through gambling withdrawl, I have spent easlly over 1 000 000 . in casinos and lottery machines, besides losing in on line betting, and stock market..

      I today alone spent 1500$ yesterday 3000$, and that's only 2 days. I play every day , no im far from having all the money I need, but I get money from bars who lend me unlimited amounts, loan sharks who cant wait till I go see them again, I went to gamblers annonimus and yes it worked I stoped 1 year with not even playing or betting 1$, the moment I got my 1 year coin , I went and broke my face, dumping thousands in one night, I said to myself just a 20$ bill and ill be ok, no way, I put thousands...

      My attitude has changed again, not giving a crap about anything or anyone, im back to being the piece of shit I was again... Today im writing this for me to realize I need to fucken stop, u need to fucken stop...

      I have lost the person that meant to me the most, cause of this fucken illness, ..

      All of you out there who do gamble and think you have control, WAKE THE FUCK UP, There is no control if you gamble, we cannot stop ourselves , we need help... I can go on forever with my experiences and pain I inflicted on everyone who loves me, but all of you know that already, GET HELP FAST.. I WILL GET HELP AGAIN, I NEED HELP..

      We should all get tighter and fight for the removal of lottery machines in bars, restaurents, or anywhere fucken public.. I live in Montreal, The gov knows that theses machines are running everyone out there!!!!!! Yes eventually these machines will take control of all your lives even the people who don't yet gamble,,, you play once you win guess what YOU ARE FUCKED NOWWWWWWW.....

      Im just letting out te anger I have in me today, if I go back and think all the bad I done because of gambling and write to you about it, ill be here forever,, as for now I wish and I wil pray for you and myself for the Lord to help us break free from this illness...

      Taking your life for this illness is they way out if your a coward. face your fuken illness, get help, don't put misery of your selfish behavior,, there are people you will leave behind and crying over you because they will blame themselves that they couldn't help you... Its not them its us ourselves that can help us only, that's because we want to help ourselves and do it for us only not anyone else.

      Please think twice before you put that dollar , the pain we will cause to our famillys and friends....

      Today will be the fucken last day I GAMBLE, TODAY WILL BE THE LAST DAY YOU GAMBLE....

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      RB 2 years ago

      Three week mark since I posted after losing 3k....still going strong,I will not Gamble.

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      Kate 2 years ago

      I returned the money so I feel some what better. But I idea I could do that still bothers me

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      Kate 2 years ago

      I had a ticket for $90 and just put it in the machine and when I went to take my ticket out is when I noticed it was for $250 more. I did cash out on the ticket and then left. My husband knows how bad I feel and has suggested we go back with the money and turn it in. I do not like me now and this feeling I have is going to keep me out of any casino, I pray, because I am not same person I have allways been. Which is honest. I feel really ugly inside.

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      Kevin 2 years ago

      Kate, do you mean you cashed out the ticket and left with the money, or you left with the ticket? If you left with the ticket, they probably have voided it by now and credited it to the legitimate winner. Either way, you now have a powerful incentive to never set foot in there again, because you would likely be arrested on sight.

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      Kate 2 years ago

      Well I finally did it! Spent all day yesterday at the casino, I had won but I knew I wasn't going home with it, because thats the way I am. Lied to my husband AGAIN! My real look at myself was when someone left a $250 ticket in the machine. And what I did was so not what I would have done before gambling. I took that ticket and left the casino before anyone could find out, cameras. Could not stop thinking about it. I have become not only a gambler but a thief. Man do I hate myself. Went to a GA meeting last night, did not share what I had done, but I did walk out of there with a new lidea that I can and need to stop and change. I am going to as many meeting as I can and mybe I can get my like m my fieds and my family back again. My higher power I know will help me. GA seems to be the only wasy to go. Please all pray for me as I will pray and all of us

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      Benny50 USA 2 years ago

      Welcome to this forum Johnny ! We're in the same boat....it works on me....it works to everybody...so with U!.....put yourself back in the right path.....there hope my friend....one day at a time... God bless!

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      Johnny Torres 2 years ago

      I feel some of these stories because I also have lost my credit my wife and the trust of my parents, siblings and friends. It will take years until I can clear up my debts and rebuild my credit. I want to stop but its so difficult. Going to try step 1 of this article promising myself at the start of each day that I will not gamble a single dollar for the day and see where it goes from there.

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      2 years ago

      I can't stop gambling once I start ... it is all with slot machines. I play until every penny is gone and have no other access before I get up and leave. Even if I "win" anything, I just play it back ... I can't seem stop the desire to go out to the casinos, and that's the oddest thing for me. Once I do go and have the miserable drive home I say "this is it, cutting losses, moving on." Two days at times three go by -- and I'm right back at it as though I have total amnesia as to what I just said days ago. It repeats, it gets worse ... I can't afford to spend the kind of cash that I do -- but logic and reasoning doesn't work to fight the urges to go. It doesn't matter if I am "celebrating" something or "mourning" something, every little thing becomes another excuse to go out there. And tonight I was playing around with the words "I need to want this..." but in reality, I don't know if I want to stop-- and my actions prove this every couple days. How can I force myself to want something? How can I make myself honest if I am dishonest even saying the words, "I am stopping gambling today."

      I am so painfully tired from this all and I think I am mostly fearful that I don't know what to do, or who I even am in all this.

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      Bryan Castro 2 years ago

      Well this is my story. I just get paid out from my attorney $10.000 from a car accident that I had on 2013. But I meet the casino a few months ago and guess what I LOST everything I'm 21 years old I waned to kill my self but thank god my family help me on that. One more think the filing is coming back but stronger I feel like if somebody is pushing me back to the game. this is horrible ....

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